Well, this is my first fanfic, so be nice!

This takes place immediately after episode 28, but I changed the ending of the episode a tad to make the story work. I'll warn you though, there is a sentence in the story that might confuse you, so just bear with me because that one is one of the changes I have made. And Stella was already taken back to Neo.

Also, this story is going to stray from the anime. Everything from the anime is the same up until this episode. Everything after will be different.

Enjoy!

Summary: Illness takes Shinn after he destroys the Orb ships and Lunamaria, the only one who knows the cause of his sickness, panics when she discovers his medicine has run out. Lunamaria takes it upon herself to come in contact with the Archangel to find a cure for him. Unfortunately, because of her meddling, she must explain his illness and why he has such animosity towords Cagalli's family. It's not just because of his loved one's deaths. It's something much bigger, and unbeknownst to the Archangel and the Minerva, a force is working to use Shinn's secret for his own benefit.

Pairing are:
ShinnxLuna,
CagallixAthrun,
KiraxLacus

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam SEED Destiny

He overpowered the anger for so long. He thought that he could control it. He thought hewas the one in control, not the monster inside of him. What even happened? The last clear thought he had was of his anger towards the Archangel and the Freedom. After that, he was consumed by his burning rage. He killed so many people. If it wasn't for Lunamaria jumping in at the last second, he would've killed the man who helped him at Orb too. Todoka his name was.

He had almost killed Lunamaria's father.

He wondered what would have happened if he had killed Todoka. Lunamaria wouldn't talk to him--she would hate him. Meyrin, too. He would lose two more important people from his life. He became so close to destroying the lives of his friends. The demon shaking the cages within his soul had become close to breaking out of it's prison.

He never wanted that to happen again. Sure, he had gone into SEED mode before, but never like that. What would stop him from killing an entire fleet himself? What would stop him from killing someone he cared for? The anger was so blinding he could easily mistake the comrade for the enemy. What would stop him?

Nothing.

He needed to stay away from his mobile suit, his guns, his life. His desire to take part in fighting off the enemy could wait if it would save lives.

What was he becoming?

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Lunamaria strode down the hall, finding that solitude was disturbing her. She was worrying about Shinn. He lost control. He never lost control...at least, not that extremely. She was concerned for her friend. He was probably beating himself up, realizing that only a few seconds would've determined the fate of her father.

Knocking on Shinn's door, Luna tapped her foot, waiting for a response. Her brow furrowed when there was no answer. She thought Shinn was in there.

"Shinn," she called through the door, knocking a little louder. She pursed her lips when she heard movements on the other side and they weren't to come answer the door. She knew Shinn was in there now. The person locking himself in the room was not Rey. She was sure. Two minutes ago he was in the lounge, reading a magazine.

Knowing that she wasn't getting anywhere knocking, she stomped off to the lounge. If Shinn wasn't going to open the door for her then maybe his room mate would. He knew the code.

Lunamaria smiled when she peered in the lounge and found Rey in the same spot as before, but frowned when Athrun had appeared there as well. She didn't want everyone to know that Shinn was troubled at the day's events. Finding no other option, she just hoped that Athrun wouldn't make a big deal over it or wouldn't tell people. Shinn didn't need rumors floating around about him being unstable, or whatnot. Athrun wouldn't do that. He can keep secrets. He kept a huge secret, hiding his own identity while he guarded the princess of Orb.

"Rey," she greeted with a charming smile, locking her arms together behind her back. "Can you do something for me?"

Rey just sighed, putting his magazine down and looking at her with an expression of annoyance. She could see through the corner of her eyes that Athrun's face held an amused smirk. Both of them could tell she wanted something.

"What is it, Luna?"

Turning her face into something more serious she told him, "Shinn has locked himself in your room, and he's not opening the door for me. I'm worried. Can you open it up so I can get in?"

Nodding his head in understanding, he stood up and told her to follow him, but Luna stopped at the questioning glance from Athrun.

"Wanna come, Athrun? I'm sure that you're worried about Shinn, too. Rey and I are." He simply nodded and followed us down the hallway. Rey quickly typed in the code in the keypad on the door and it slid open with a shwoom! The room was engulfed in darkness, no light being able to come in when the door shut. By the time that Rey had actually turned the light on, Shinn was on his feet, body stiff.

"What are you doing here?" he demanded, his voice harsh.

"This is my room, Shinn," Rey responded coolly, "We're also concerned."

"Get out," Shinn commanded, his eyes hard. His jaw tensed at Luna's next remark.

"Shinn," she whispered, "you don't have to go through this alone. We're here. It wasn't your fault."

Luna didn't notice, but Rey and Athrun slightly twitched at the last statement. They didn't see how it wasn't his fault. He destroyed ship after ship, gundam after gundam. What else could be attributed to his deeds beside his own mind? They didn't mean to seem cruel, but what could be the excuse?

"How can you say it wasn't my fault?! I almost killed your father, Luna!"

Luna gave him a sympathetic look, then widened her eyes noticing his ragged breaths, clenched fists, tiny beads of sweat rolling down the sides of his face, and slightly shivering body. She put a hand to his forehead, feeling the scorching skin beneath her own. Oh, no...

Shinn immediately recognized her frightened face and pried her hand away from his brow. Still clasping her hand, he whispered, "There aren't any vials left."

Her breath hitched in her throat and she stared at him, not wanting to believe him. "That can't be!"

Freeing her hand, she ran out of the room in a state of panic, pushing anyone who got in her way into the wall. She couldnt' believe that there weren't any vaccines left! There had to be one more, at least!

She flew into the lounge, throwing the cushions from the couch to the floor and opening the compartment underneath.

Empty.

She then sprinted down to one of the closets in the hall and scavenged through the old buckets in the corner.

Empty.

Anxiety coursed through her body as she ran to her next and last destination. She only prayed that no one was in the captain's chair.

God must hate her.

The captain herself sat upon her throne. Arthur chatted away with her and Luna's sister. They were the only three in the bridge, but those three were the ones she wanted to keep Shinn's condition a secret from. Unfortunately, she had to carry on with them present. Now, her only prayer was that the captain would get off of the chair. Please!

"Captain!"

Captain Gladys turned towards the noise and saw Lunamaria Hawke, frantic and out of breath, standing next to her sister's computer module.

"Yes, Miss Hawke?"

"I know this is going to sound like a weird request, but can you please get out of the chair?"

Three pairs of eyebrows raised at the question, but the captain remained seated.

"What for?" she asked warily. She couldn't even imagine the reason why her pilot was asking this of her.

"Please! Just do it!" Luna cried desperately, taking a few more steps towards the captain. Hearing the woman's urgent tone, the captain reluctantly stood back and watched as Luna lunged for the metal seating, ripping the top off and revealing a vile with a few drops of some kind of yellow substance.

"Yes! Thank the Lord!" she cheered as she stood from her kneeling position to sprint back out of the door. Each of the three people in the room gave the other a nod to follow the pink-haired woman. The three found themselves at Shinn and Rey's room.

Luna mearly pushed everyone out of the way to find a collapsed Shinn leaning against his bed. Sharing her feelings of panic with everyone she cried out an anguished "no", before plunging the few drops of the vaccine into his arm.

Silence consumed. All anyone could do was stare at the two on the floor in shock and confusion. Finally, the captain, regained her bearings asked, "What's going on, Luna?"

Well, that was the first chapter. I hope that you liked it!

Reviewing would be appreciated! :)