His breathing got heavier and more frantic as his hands tugged at the back of Edgar's head with need. He hated this. This disgusting feeling that sweltered inside of him, making him beg and need it more. What was happening to him?

"No use fighting it. Fighting makes the pain worse. Ignoring it makes the need grow."

Edgar's hands frantically searched the shape of Johnny's body, gently tracing over the bones that were visible in his skinny frame, kissing whatever spot he could find. The usual hatred of touch was fading with every second and Johnny found himself wanting to feel more of Edgar too.

What I'm doing... is terrible, but with him

Nny gasped loudly as Edgar's hands brushed against a sensitive nipple, circling around it while kissing his neck.

it feels... right.

Edgar pushed Nny onto a nearby sofa and forcefully kissed him, making Nny moan with pleasure, gripping his shirt tightly and pulling it towards him.

"You can't seriously think that he cares about you. All humans are like this; selfish. He's only using you for his own animalistic desires and is making you give into yours!"

No. That's not true!

Edgar's hands slipped underneath Nny's shirt and pulled it up, reluctantly releasing his lips to pull it over his head.

"You haven't changed Nny. It's all downhill from here. You should 'Immortalize the Moment'. Suffering is inevitable if your still alive, but if you really care about him, you should kill him too"

The expression on Nny's face changed and Edgar stopped suddenly.

"Nny...?" He asked softly. "What's wrong? I'm sorry."

Always apologizing. He's scared of me, so maybe he really is only using me, but for some reason...

"Johnny, if you don't want this, I understand. I want you to be happy." Edgar raised himself off of Johnny to give him some breathing space, but was pulled back down suddenly. His heart pounded loudly. he wasn't used to Nny's sudden mood swings, but then again, he wasn't entirely used to anything about him really.

"I think..." "You have to kill him now." Johnny hesitated. The voice in his head wouldn't stop. He didn't know what he thought, or what he wanted.

I don't want this to end.

"I'm really happy right now." Nny said, and Edgar couldn't help but smile at Johnny's words.

After a few moments of admiring the boy beneath him, he replied.

"I'm so glad."

"You can..." keep going, please, "If that's alright..." Johnny whispered quietly, with an unusually nervous feeling. He didn't want to ruin this, not like all the others. He was scared.

"Of coarse," Edgar said calmly.

"Johnny, you have to do it soon. You're going to hurt him and then he'll hate you forever! He'll never want to see you again!"

"...aah..." Edgar slowly traced his hand down Johnny's stomach, leaving a trial of hickeys to follow. When he got down to his pants he slowly undid the buckle.

"E-Edgar..." Johnny gasped out. Edgar stopped immediately.

"What is it?" He asked, unwillingly raising his face from Johnny's stomach.

"I.. want to kill you right now... or me... preferably both." Edgar's heart sunk, but he took a moment to think it over first. Johnny's sense of logic wasn't the same as everyone else's, and in this case, he meant the statement to be a compliment of sorts. He spoke, but failed miserably at trying not to sound so scared.

"W-well, why would... I mean... you really shouldn't, but why?"

He knows. He's just dancing around the topic, but I can't change.

"I... I just don't want to... to hurt you, but I want to stay like this." Johnny managed to say. He looked away from Edgar's face. He didn't want to see his expression. He could feel a weight lift off of him more. Edgar was starting to stand up, taking away the warmth Johnny was feeling.

"See? You can't have happiness Johnny. The only way to stop this misery is to end it. A knife or a gun. Go over the stars! Be free from these chains."

"I can't be happy." Johnny whispered.

"because you ruin everything. You can't trust anybody. All humans are worthless garbage, killing and using each other to fulfill their own needs. You are no exception."

"I ruin everything." Edgar looked at Johnny with concern, but didn't dare interrupt his outer thoughts.

"There's nothing you can do but end it all now, stop trying to change the impossible! You weren't meant for love! Nobody can save you from the pain in your heart! Not even Edgar can save you from y-"

"E-Edgar."

"No, wait! HE CAN'T! HE CAN'T-"

"Edgar, save me."

Edgar leaned towards Johnny's face, barely gliding his nose over the boy's before locking their lips together.

"NO! STOP!"

Johnny tried to push him away, but Edgar kept going, more passionately than ever, his tongue reaching every part of Johnny's mouth and gently biting on his lips, making him surrender completely. They both gasped for air when the kiss ended, their faces staying close.

"I'll save you." Edgar softly uttered in Johnny's ear. "Even if it kills me."