As I realized she had walked out of my life for good the only thing that I could think was fuck I love her I guess that I really lost out. As I walked back in to our two bedroom house I began destroying the living room throwing things around, basically I left a tornato of distruction in my path that started at the front door and didn't end until I found my self screaming in agony in the bed where so much time was wasted and love was made.
I can't believe that I'm still surrounded by her things... The good memories, the bad memories. As I sit there and hug her pillow to my chest
*Flashback*
I hear Kagome laughing as I turned my head to see the goregous raven haird girl running towards me, with a smile that did illuminate the sun and eyes that would challege the oceans for beauty themselves.
"Baby I found a great place for our picnic!" Kagome exclaimed breathessly "Come on follow me and you'll see it!"
I followed grinning wondering where she had found the most wonderful spot for a picnic
*End*
I cried so hard that day wondering what I had done so wrong? I mean it was a one time thing not like it would ever happen again. Where had I gone wrong? Its not like what I did was a huge deal
*Flashback*
"I hate you you fucking bastard how could you!" Kagome screamed in my face "What did I do to deserve this? I can't believe you! Get out I never want to see you again!" Kagome had said with a cold venom in her voice while glaring daggers at me...
*End*
As I lay in our bed I kept thinking of that day so so long ago... Where had I gone wrong she was supposed to be at her sister's with the baby for that day and night everything had been so carefully planned but for some reason the excution didn't fall threw...
I was offically dead inside what did the outside matter? As I watched the silver blade glint in the moonlight I brought the peach flesh of my wrist to shine in the moonlight. As I slashed and watched the river of blood fall from my wrists I had one last thought that crossed my mind.
"I hate everything why do I love you love you so"
With the letter Inuyasha had to be given to me I cried my eyes out realizing he was forever gone I wouldn't be able to ever say I was sorry the letter went as such.
"Kagome! I still fucking love you this is a song I wrote just for you!"
Pain by Inuyasha in this story but really by Three Days Grace
"I Hate Everything About You"
Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake By every sigh and scream we make All the feelings that I get But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you Why do I love you I hate everything about you Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you Why do I love you I hate everything about you Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think About you, I know Only when you stop to think About me, do you know
I hate everything about you Why do I love you You hate everything all about me Why do you love me
I hate You hate I hate You love me
I hate everything about you Why do I love you