She's gone?

CPOV (Connor point of view)

The feeling of guilt pains me and my eyes fill up with up with tears as I hold her in my arms.

Her blood seeping into my flannel yellow shirt, I scream for her but she just lye's in my arms lifeless.

I know I shouldn't have left her alone, even for a second.

I feel hands pulling my arms up and I know what they want. They want me to get away from the body. But I can't leave her, even in death.

The hands finally pull me to my feet, and they lay her on the rotting forest floor. I felt horrible, I felt as if someone ripped my star trek collection to shreds…but worst then that, I felt god had stripped me of the only thing I loved.

Like her tore her away from me and was laughing at me in the face. He took Abby out of my life for good.

I could barely see anything through the water in my eyes. The tears ran down my face and burned like acid. I knew I wouldn't ever forget anything we did together, but I couldn't let this stop me.

I glanced at cutter and jenny, jenny had her arms thrown around cutter and she wept in his shirt collar.

Stephen stood next to them staring at me with a look of hate.

Of all things he could be mad at me for, I think this tops it all…

The paramedic took me to the ambulance that sat close to the now dead body of Abby Maitland.

I sat on the hard metal and thought, thought of all the things I could have said. All the things I could have done. The thing that matters the most was…gone.

"Connor" said a familiar voice.

I looked up a little. "Yes Stephen?"

"I believe you are to blame for this?"

"I guess I am…what does it matter to you?" I said standing up in front of him

He squared his stance and tensed up. "I just think you made a bad call is all, and if you would have done the right thing maybe she wouldn't be lying there in the dirt"

"How dare you! I thought you were a friend! And by the way, Abby liked you a lot! And it hurt me everyday to see you cut her down again and again! You never noticed the little things she did to make your life better at the ARC! I loved her! I was in love with her and she never noticed because she was to busy worrying about if you liked her! So you know what, you can take your insults and shove them where the sun don't shine!" I screamed.

He shared a shocked face with Cutter and Jenny.

I frowned and stormed out of the woods to my mini cooper. I put my arm down on the hood and I buried my face into my sleeve where Abby's back had once been.

I started to weep as I thought about her being gone for good. I thought about never hearing her voice again, about never feeling her soft dainty hands against mine in an attempt to get the remote away from me.

I finally got into the cooper and started the engine and drove to the flat that I couldn't stand to look at.

I walked into the front door and put down my messenger bag on the couch.

I strode over and opened Rex's cage and let him out to explore.

He looked at me and all I could think was of Abby bleeding away to nothing on the forest floor.

I took a shower and changed into my pajamas. I lay down and knew I had to do something to get my mind off of Abby…but what?

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