***A/N** You must read this!!! Kay, This is my first fan fic soo it may start out kinda funny. oh yeah and I cant spell at all soo just ignore it, Kay?, thanks! Okay this story starts at one place in time and the goes back in time then it goes forwards and the back to the original time frame....so most of the story is kinda confusing....just thought you would like to know.

Distribution: Yeah I dont own any gilmore girls (not that I haven't tried, though) But if you really feel the need to sue me I have got bout $4.53 in the bank so, yeah good luck!!
Title: Losing Hope




These people I have known all my life are lining up to look at her. My best friend in the whole wide world. They are lining up like its some show, like its a museum of freaks and they just cant wait to get in. I have the urge to scream at all of them. Tell them to leave her alone and let her rest in peace. Cant they tell she wouldn't want it this way? Cant they tell she wouldn't want them all staring at her? Why do these people who were supposed to know her so well do this? How can they just stare? Why dont they love her like I do?
As I look around the room I see him. The love of her life. The only other person in this whole room that understands her like I do. I never noticed that before. There is no expression on his face but his eyes tell a whole different story. Even at a quick glance you can see the pain in his eyes. They truly were ment to be together no matter what she had said before...before she....before she died. Every body knew she loved him. Now they will never get the chance to be a happy little couple.
The thing I hate most is that she was mad at me when she died. Its my fault shes dead.

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I cannot believe she is dead. The girl or woman, I suppose, I love is dead. How am I supposed to live when she not there to live with me? When she not there every morning, in the diner, for her second coffee of the day? When I never get to see her or tell her how sorry I am? I dont think I will ever be able to get over this. I feel a pain inside so great that its causing my physical and emotional destress. When they told me she was dead I felt... I dont really know how to explain it... empty... just well, empty. It was horrible. I need her. I loved.. no...love her. Now she will never know. And to make it worse she died mad at me....maybe even hating me... I cant live with that... I cant believe its my fault shes dead....but it is.
(N/A) Okay I know its like really short but at this moment in time (its like 3am) I cannot for the life of me think of a reason for Lorelia and Rory to fight. (see how I did that?? I said it in a mysteriously so you still dont know who died. Oh yes I am evil....well not really but pretty close anyway.) So If you can help I would thank you...but if you hate my story (its a little early but ya never know) please tell me or if you like it tell me that to. Thnx!!!