Take My Hand

You are Karkat Vantas, and you are currently standing off the edge of a bridge, looking down at the rushing, murky water below you.

You were never one to think of doing things like this. In fact, you completely resent the thought of suicide. Yet, here you were. Honestly though, who could blame you. Your life was a mess and an embarrassment to the human and Alternian race. If anything, people would be cheering you on.

Your hands are getting cold from holding on to the metal railing. If you're not careful, the numbness could get to your hands, and you'll fall sooner than planned. You can't die sooner, nor will you die later. At exactly six o' clock, that is five minutes away.

The wind is chilling, which isn't helping. Perhaps would should have worn gloves, but it doesn't really matter now does it. You just need to hold on for five more minutes.

You look up from the water and look ahead to the beautiful sunrise. The sky morphing from darkness to bright colors of life. Oh, wow. Look at you pulling off some sappy poetry. It seems the cold is getting to your head as well. Or maybe it's the depression. Or the fact that there is only a few minutes left before your death.

You can't help but think about the others. How they might feel about this. Well, you're not sure. But you're pretty sure they could care less. They're too busy and focused on their lives to even glance your way. Ever since the game ended, everyone kind of went their own way. But they still contacted each other.

Vriska and John had been becoming extremely close, to the point of being Matesprits. Terezi visited Gamzee often, them being black for each other and all. Kanaya and Rose lived together; rumors going around that Kanaya was going ask Rose to human marry her. Eridan and Sollux still enemies, not kismesis though. Eridan and Feferi were matesprits as well as Sollux and Aradia were. Feferi and Jade were best friends. Nepeta and Equius were still, and will be forever, morails. Tavros and Gamzee were red flirting with each other, but haven't made it official. Dirk and Jake are together, from what you've heard. John, Jade, Rose, Dave, Dirk, Roxy, Jane, and Jake were practically the inseparable group of friends.

The game made this universe different but similar from the old. Earth and Alternia exits as one whole planet. The alpha trolls are alive, along with the Ancestors. In fact, lusii didn't exist in this world, because troll reproduction was similar to humans now. In which case, the ancestors were parents and the alpha trolls were older siblings. So, the Signless is your father, and Kankri is your brother. And it's the same with the others.

However, there was one thing that was certainly different. Since humans and trolls started having interspecies love making, T-humans came into existence. A mixture of troll and human. Turns out, the game wasn't done with tormenting you, since it made you T-human. Making you more of an outlier than you were before. You blame you mutant DNA.

T-humans didn't have grey skin and their life span was similar to humans (good thing for low blood T-humans, bad for the high bloods). They still have horns, though some have been none to not have any. The different blood color still existed. And their reproduction systems were the same as trolls: bulge and nook. T-humans aren't like grubs when they are in infancy, they're like humans.

The thing about the reproduction was that there was no such thing as gender amongst trolls or T-humans, everyone had the same junk. Female humans could get pregnant when in a taking part in sexual actions with a t-human or troll, whereas when a male human can get the t-human or troll pregnant. When T-humans or trolls take part in sexual actions with each other, the lesser dominant one ends up pregnant.

Anyhow, Kankri, Signless, and you were T-humans. Your grandparents were human and troll. Your mother, as you've been told, was T-human as well. However, she died of cancer when you were a child.

Basically, the game had everyone be reborn, into a different yet still somewhat similar life. You all didn't remember the game until you all turned thirteen human years old. The alpha kids and trolls were reborn older, therefore they remembered before the rest of you all.

Everyone was all together as most would see it. However, if people were to take picture of it. You wouldn't be in it. The only people you've been in contact with so far was Kankri, Signless, and, unfortunately, Dave fucking Strider.

You have no idea why he pesters you. All you know, is that he is an annoying douchebag, that just wouldn't leave you alone. It makes your blood boil. Yet, at the same time you can't help but feel glad. At least someone hadn't written you out of their lives. However, the only reason why was so he could use you as a punching bag. Then again, you use him in a similar way. It lets you get out all that pent up emotion, which only converts to anger when to speak to him.

It hurts still. Even with Kankri, Signless, or Dave, it just won't stop hurting. Eventually, they'll write you off too. Dave will get tired of you and leave, move on with Jade, John, and Rose. You know Kankri only speaks to you because you live together, but once he finally moves in with Cronus he'll cease lecturing you (you treat him like shit, so it's expected). You have no idea what Signless would do. You two rarely speak to each other anyway, so it wouldn't matter.

Seeing how things are, it wouldn't matter when you jump. Things would be the same. You cease to exist to others anyway. Though, you deserve it for being a failure.

It's getting colder, and you swear your pale hands are getting blue. You would expect it to get warmer with the sun rising and all.

You hear you phone go off.

It's six o'clock.

You let go.