I'm so so sorry guys but I don't own doctor who BBC does. Anyway, I was thought Clara would make a really interesting female master so I thought I'd write this fic.

I'd like to thank Cassandra Frey for making the awesome cover art for this story she's one of my friends on g + and an awesome writer.

I originally wrote this under my g + name that's why it says Alice Saxon , sorry for the confusion .

The plot will follow dark water loosely and there are brief mentions of torture but they won't be decribed.

Hope you enjoy the story , and please write a review and tell me what you think of it ,where the story should go ?

The Doctor placed a cup of hot cocoa in front of Clara and seated himself across from her.

For once in his life he was at a loss for words, what do you say when you find out your new best friend is actually your old best enemy ?

That you betrayed .

That hated you .

That tortured you .

That sacrificed herself to save you over and over again .

"I'm sorry"?

"I'm glad you're alive" ?

"Don't you dare kill anyone else"? None of them seemed proper right now .

Say the wrong thing and she might go off on a killing spree just to prove a point !

Clara stared out of the kitchen window at the rain coming down outside , she still hadn't spoken a word to him since she had 'changed'.

One moment she was Clara Oswald a happy little human companion the next she doubled over in pain and when she looked up at him again , he felt a shiver go up his spine as the doctor felt the master's presence in his companions intense brown eye's.

There had been no fob watch that the doctor could see , she wasn't possessed by the master , she was a time lord well . ...lady .

It was impossible .

She was impossible .

Clara bite at her bottom lip and studied the shapes of the marshmallows in her hot chocolate .

It felt wrong .

The master was many things, but quite was not one of of them .

The doctor was starting to worry about her, she seemed to be in shock!

It was like someone had turned a switch off in her brain ,putting her on pause .

The doctor kinda wished she'd yell at him , get angry with him, or tell him how naive and stupid he had been . Anything was better than this silence.

" So . ...do you still hear the drums?" He finally asked

Clara blinked and starred at the doctor for a long time .

"No,they're gone ... there's nothing there anymore" she said , her voice trembling a little .

The doctor let go of a breath he didn't know he was holding , maybe with the drums gone ,she would be Koschei again , maybe he would get his old friend back !

" That's good ! . . . Isn't it ? " He smiled at her , hoping she'd start talking.

Clara shrugged her shoulders a bit .

"I guess it is , hurts though ... The silence it hurts .I feel hollow inside like I was a made up story, like I wasn't real ...I'm real aren't I doctor? " She mumbled , looking down at her mug of hot chocolate.

The look on the masters face killed him, she looked so broken and confused.

" Of course you're real I'm talking to you and I don't make a habit of talking to people who aren't real " he joked hoping to cheer her up.

Clara looked up at him , her big brown eyes burning right through him .

" You talked to handles" she snorted .

"Hey! That's not fair , he was a good friend " he said crossing his arms .

"He was a disembodied head of a Cyberman " she pointed out .

The doctor tried to look cross which wasn't hard to do with his angry eyebrows .

Earning a small smile from the master.

She shifted in her seat trying to ease the burning pain that was creeping up her back .

The doctor was being kind to her .

Why was he being kind ?

Did he pity her?

Was it because she had saved his life ?

Or did he still care about her ?

Did she care ? Clara sipped on her cocoa , trying to figure that one out .

Was she even Clara oswald anymore ? Another good she didn't have the answer to .

And speaking of questions the doctor was bursting with to ask her some of his own .

They sat there in silence for a while ,drinking their cocoa.

Till the doctor worked up enough courage to ask her how she escaped from the time lock .

The master frowned , trying to remember , but all she could come up with was fragments and pain lots of pain .

" I'm not sure everything is foggy " she admitted .

The doctor frowned with concern for his ex friend .

He placed one of his hands on top of her's and squeezed it to reassure her it was okay ,the master reacted like she had been shocked by a live wire .

"Don't do that !" She glared at him .

"I was just trying to make you feel better, you needn't snap my head off"! He sighed .

Clara winced in pain as memories flooded her mind making her eyes tear up .

She dropped her mug of hot chocolate on the floor , shattering into a thousand pieces .

"Please excuse me for a moment " Clara said hurriedly exiting the kitchen

As quickly as possible with out running.

She shut the door to her room and walked over to her mirror .

Please don't be there

Clara pulled up her fluffy pink sweater , and looked at her back in the mirror , her hearts sank at the sight of the brand on her back , which still burned .

The doctor was pounding at the door by now , but shedidn't care anymore ,it mattered little to her now .

After getting no response from the master , the doctor decided that he couldn't risk leaving her alone and soniced the door .

He half expected to find her making a weapon of mass destruction , instead she was curled up on her bed crying silently .

The doctor didn't know what to do should he leave her alone ? Or try to cheer her up ?

This regeneration was rubbish when it came to comforting people but he couldn't leave her alone like that.

" What's wrong ? " He asked as kindly as possible .

"Look at my back" she whispered .

" its a good back master " the doctor told her not knowing what she wanted him to say .

The master tried to repress a growl at the doctors stupidity . Pulling up her fluffy pink sweater , enough for him to see the cursed tattoo on her back .

The doctor had heard of the mark of the damned when he was a young boy on gallifrey .

It was a curse used in the dark times to punish traitors , time energy was burnt into their backs twisting their time line to whatever the judge thought a fitting punishment .

Some could no longer be seen by anyone , or only speak in poems , and others lost everyone they loved slowly !

In the masters case she was fated to become the impossible girl and live a thousand million lives Full of pain and suffering and once her had met her she would slowly change back .

"I'm so sorry Koschei" he whispered .

She didn't look well at all she was gasping little breaths and was cluching the covers so tightly that her small nuckles had turned white.

Unable to watch her suffer any longer the doctor placed his hands on sides of her head to share her pain.

Sensing what the doctor was going to do Clara tried to put up some mental barriers to keep him from seeing her memories , all she succeeded in doing was triggering a flash back of her worst memories !

He didn't mean to see them , he only meant to calm her down ,he could feel her humiliation at him seeing her thoughts .

Her memories came crashing down on him like a tittle wave , ooh , how she had suffered ,Rassilon was very old and evil and knew just what to do to make her scream till she had no voice left !

The doctor eventually managed to induce a deep sleep easing her pain .

For a long time he sat there beside the friend who he had left for dead .

She was better off without him in her life ,he had known that for a long time but he was a selfish old man who didn't want to be alone .

She was different now, better , the drums where gone , she could start over have a real life .

But for that to happen he would have to leave and not interfere , let her choose for herself .

" goodbye old friend have a good life ...please don't make me regret this" he whispered to the sleepingtime lady before leaving.