Title: Stellar
Disclaimer: I don't own YYH , and the title is from a song used by Incubus. :)
Summary: Mukuro has always prided herself on her discernment, but one apparition eludes her understanding. A series of drabbles on her conflicting relationship with the Jaganshi. MukuroxHiei, Hurt/Comfort
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She hates the left side of her body.
It is all cream and softness, like the skin of the humans on which she dined. The right side, now there's a beauty. She absently strokes a shriveled patch on her left knee. Years have not blurred the pain of acid on her skin, the feeling of it slowly eating her flesh. And yet, it gives her a feeling of triumph.
Mukuro. That is what she chooses to call herself .
In the first years, she felt like she truly lived up to her name. After the white-hot victory came the calm. The days and nights stretched before her, bringing nothing. She was dead to the world, and while she didn't like being unseen, it was better than what she used to know. Mukuro—corpse.
She must be the only corpse in Makai who dreams. When she sleeps, she sees it all again. Some days they're tolerable, her personal carnival of horrors.
Other days she screams in her sleep, and she punches her face to stop the screaming. This is one such night. Mukuro punches herself and wakes, and she sits in bed, looking at her reddened fist speckled with spit and blood. She wipes the fluids on her sheets and goes back to sleep.
In the morning, after her bath, she clothes herself in her usual pants and jacket. She uses a band on her titian hair, and drapes a cloth over the right side of her face. Her glass eye she never takes off, even in sleep. Today, Mukuro considers not putting on her bandages. She considers letting her kingdom see her for who she is, but she quickly gets over the impulse. She starts wrapping her head up.
The less discerning might say she wraps herself in cloth and strips of ofuda to hide her charred skin. To this, she laughs. She binds herself to hide her shameful right side. She binds herself, because those who are bound are infinitely stronger. And she binds herself for she is woman.
The world is kinder to men, she has figured. And so she becomes man.
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