A/N: 'Ello everyone! For those of you that don't know me, I am Mikari Haruno. This is my first Twilight fanfic, but if you'd like to see some of my previous Naruto fanfics feel free. For any of you that happen to know my stories, I hope this doesn't disappoint!
The days flow together - Why wouldn't they, when there is no sleep (no excitement) to set each apart? She drifts through life (death) on autopilot.
Her life becomes routine - Receive unneccessary education, breath unneccessary air, and put on an unneccessary act for the creatures (victims) around her.
Why should she, she muses detachedly, when they couldn't do anything about her existence anyway? It would be like rabbits trying to eliminate wolves.
He is her constant companion (captor), showering her with his affection and charm. At one point, this attention left her warm to her very core and begging for more, but each year (century) made the words duller, the kisses emptier. She has become all but responseless (zombie-like - it's a state he can cause all too easily). She knows why this happens - She knows all too well why her life is deteriorating.
It had been the wrong choice. She had had one simple choice, and had made the biggest mistake of her now-eternal life (hell).
Jasper can't go within twenty yards of her without the unbearable urge to break down into hysterics. Alice is forever plagued with her ideas (plans) of suicide, each more elaborate than the first and the list never-ending. Emmett's typical cheer is snuffed out by her very prescence (existence), suffocating even for the non-empathic. Rosalie glows (radiates) with the smugness of a cat who has caught the canary (the vampire that caught the human). Esme spirals (plunges) down into an inescapeable depression, forced to watch as her children waste away in every meaning of the word except physical. Carlisle throws himself into his work, almost never leaving the hosptial.
Anything to stay away from the eternal agony that is his home - his family.
And Edward - Edward is driven to near-madness (much closer than near), a permanent state of denial that is the only thread holding together their tapestry of eternal happiess and love.
He wraps his arms (chains) around her once more, and even though she is as cold as ice, his arms feel much colder. She shivers, and her dead heart aches (screams) for that which she will never see (feel) again.
The moon is nothing but a hunk of unbreakable stone without the light of the sun to make it glow.
A/N: For those of you shocked by the angstiness...You obviously haven't read my previous drabbles. If you're confused, allow me to explain:
This is AU from about the end of Eclipse. Bella has chosen Edward, and been changed (minus Nessie). An unmeasurable amount of time later, she realizes that she chose wrong, and mourns the loss of Jacob. The parts in parentheses may not make sense, but they show a less sane part of Bella, one that is creeping closer every day...sorry if it still doesn't make much sense.
Yes, this is Team Jacob. No, I am not solely for Team Jacob. I just don't like Edward. Much. At all. 'Nuff said. Good bye. Please review!!!
~Mikari, the authoress who may or may not have screwed up this fic but still hopes everyone enjoyed it
UPDATE AS OF 8/3/09: Just fixed a few errors, along with cleaning things up a bit. Hopefully it's better this way!
P.S.- Kudos to lozenges for being the first to review. -showers with sparkles and sweets- THANK YOU!!