Do you know when there's a time that everything seems to go wrong in your life? Well, that's exactly what's happening to me. First, my brother disappears for two whole months making me worried sick about him because he was off his meds. Then, when I finally hear from him, John's grandmother dies. I go to get my brother, I have to make sure he's alright and I come back to Chicago just in time for the funeral. I honestly thought everything would be ok, but nooo, this is Abby Lockhart's life. Something has to happen to screw up what's already bad. At John's grandmother's funeral, Eric just couldn't wait in the car. I don't even want to remember that.

Now Carter is pissed at me. Not that I blame him. But it's not
my fault either, damn it! Maybe it is because I'm such a screw up. I
don't even know how Carter and I lasted this long. He just broke up
with me. I mean, he told me to leave him the hell alone so I take it
he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. Maybe it's for the
better. He's better off without me. But still, it hurts. I just wanted
to help him, to be there for him and tell him that everything's gonna be ok. But I couldn't do that. Not after he told me to get out of his life. Eric's back on his meds and he's staying over night at County, which is good because I really don't wanna deal with him right now.

As I make my way to the station, I hear someone calling my name.

"Abby!" I turn around to find Susan. She runs to catch up with
me.
"Hey." I say trying to sound cheerful. It didn't convince her.
"What's wrong, Ab?" Ha! Everything's wrong.
"Well, to make a long story short, Carter and I have just broken
up." She looks surprised. I really don't know why. It was doomed from
the start and Carter and I both knew it. But we just had to go through
with it and get ourselves hurt.

"He's probably just upset about his grandmother's death. He'll
come around. He loves you." Where she got that idea from is beyond me.

"I'm not so sure of that, Suse. He sounded really sure when he
told me to leave him alone." Why the hell do I have tears in my eyes?
I'm not gonna cry, I'm not gonna cry. Damn it! I'm already crying! I
brush the tears off my cheeks as Susan engulfes me in a hug.

"It's his loss, Abby." Nah, he's better off without me. "I have
an idea. Why don't we make a girl's night in? We can rent some movies,
pop some popcorn. What do you say?" It's not exactly what I had in
mind but it sure looks better than mopping around.

"Ok, fine." Besides, I know she won't take no for an aswer.
"Great!" She sure looks excited. Oh well, if there's anyone that
can cheer me up now, that someone is Susan.

We have just gotten home, after staying for almost an hour at
the video store arguing over which movie we're gonna watch. After
that's out of the way, we come to my apartment. As soon as the popcorn
is ready, we'll get this movie started.

Ok, the movie was sort of useless because we've talked through
the whole thing. Susan is now ordering some Chinese while I clean up
the mess we made with the popcorn. I guess a popcorn fight wasn't such
a good idea after all. But it sure seemed fun at the time. At least it
cheered me up a little.

"Hey, Ab, they'll be here in fifteen minutes." Susan calls from
the living room.
"Ok, great!" The delivery guy had better come fast because I'm
no hungry right now!

Exactly fifteen minutes later, the doorbell rings and Susan goes
get the food. We sit in the kitchen and start opening the packages.
When I open mine, it smells great but why am I feeling nauseous all of
a sudden? Ok, this doesn't look good at all. I'm really nauseous.

"Abby, are you ok?" Susan asks. I must look really sick because
the concern shown in her face is scaring me.

"No." I manage to say just before I run to the bathroom and
empty my stomach down the toilet. I lean against the wall trying to
calm down and stop myself from shaking. Susan sits next to me passing
a wet towel on my forehead. "Ugh, I hate puking!" I say trying to get
up but a wave of nausea passes through me again and I fall back to the
floor. "Do you think it's the flu?"

"It can be. Or food poisoning. Did you eat anything out of
normal?" Susan asks.

"No." Well, not that I can remember anyway. Unless... nah, that's
highly unlikely. "Uh, my period is late." Susan's eyes widens.

"Do you think you're pregnant?"

"It's a possibility." I say quietly. I thought it could be that
when I didn't get my period in the last two months and I've been
feeling sick almost every day, even though this was the first time I
threw up, but I just brushed this thought off. Carter and I always
used protection. Except for this one time, about two months ago.

"Did you have sex without protection?" Susan asks turning to
face me.

"Just once." I say trying to blink away the tears. It hurts to
think about him. "I can't believe it!" I shake my head but soon stop
because it hurts. "What if I'm pregnant, Suse? What am I gonna do?" I
ask her panicking. Geez, talk about bad timing!

"Only one way to find out" she says smiling sadly at me.

A/N: ok this the first ER fanfic that I summoned up the courage to post. So pls tell me what you think and review. Pls?