So, this is my second attempt in Wolfstar. It starts few days after last chapter of Encounters - if you didn't read that, here's a summary: Sirius has been having crush on Remus for ages and one day, he gets drunk and tells Remus. Remus hesitates to believe someone could actually love him, but doesn't deny having feelings for Sirius and eventually gives up to him.

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1 - Doubts

It was early in the morning and Sirius was wide awake. That wasn't right. It was Wednesday and he didn't have any classes before lunch on Wednesdays, so he usually skipped breakfast and slept as long as he could. But not this day.

He was pondering on last few days. He and Remus have been sort of dating since their encounter in that classroom. Sort of. Neither of them had real previous experiences with these things and Remus was still pretty unsure and cautious, so it was mainly holding hands and secret dates. No kissing on lips - not that Sirius didn't try, but Remus always dodged, so he decided to give him some time.

He wasn't upset about this - he knew how insecure Remus was about himself. Few years ago, it wasn't easy for rest of the Marauders to prove that they were not scared or disgusted or anything by the fact that he was a werewolf. It took ages, but eventually, he understood and became the most devoted friend. Sirius was certain they would get through this too, if they gave it enough time. So that was alright.

But two days ago Remus started avoiding Sirius again - and that really was not alright. It came all of sudden - while they were amongst other friends, Remus acted as normal as he could manage without looking Sirius in the eye or talking directly to him, but every time it seemed that the two of them could be left alone, Remus sneaked away. Sirius even tried waiting for him in common room last night, but he dozed off and when he finally got to dorm, he found Remus sleeping - or pretending to be asleep.

He had thought that their relationship would improve once they had talked about it. Remus did tell him that he had feelings for him and even asked Sirius to make him believe someone could love him. So what the hell was going on?! Did he say or do something that upset Remus?

Sirius sighed and turned to his side, so he could look at sleeping Remus. He looked so at peace, so calm… But what thoughts were crossing his mind, what dreams was he living right now?

Sirius shook his head. Last time Moony was avoiding him, he took two months to finally confront him about it and it's been the most tormenting time of his life so far. He won't do the same mistake twice. He will corner Remus on first occasion and won't let him go until he got some answers. After all, he has right to know if he did anything wrong.

There still was the option that Remus had changed his mind and didn't want this kind of relationship with Sirius anymore - but being rational for once, Sirius decided not to think about it till he know it for sure.

His eyes were burning with tiredness, so he closed them just for little while...

Few hours later, sound of someone rushing into the dorm woke him. It was Remus, searching frantically for his homework for Ancient Runes. Even half-asleep, Sirius knew this was his chance. He sneaked out of the bed and to the door, where he stood with arms crossed. He tried looking more furious and less scared, but he was sure it didn't go well.

Remus finally found the parchment and turned around to leave, but stopped immediately as he saw Sirius. He blushed and quickly glanced away.

"We need to talk," said Sirius coldly.

"Could it wait? I really need to go now." Remus was looking at his shoes, obviously not wanting to meet Sirius' gaze.

"No, it couldn't wait. You're avoiding me again. I thought we were past that!" said Sirius, clearly upset. "What's going on, Moony?"

"Sirius, I will be in big trouble if I miss Ancient Runes today. Please, we can talk later," pleaded Remus. For few seconds awkward silence spread between them.

"Just tell me - did you change your mind? You don't want me anymore?" asked Sirius quietly, bowing his head and fixating on the floor. He felt his heart's pace accelerating and tears welling up in his eyes.

Remus jerked at the almost desperate sound of Sirius' voice. He quickly crossed the space between them and placed his hands on Sirius' shoulders.

"Padfoot," he said heavily. "My feelings haven't changed a slightest bit. It's just… My inner demons, I think. I need to tell you about them, before it's too late and this thing we have becomes too complex for you to back out without getting hurt. I just haven't found the right words yet. Please, just give me this day. I'll figure it out and we will talk, alright? We can meet in our classroom after dinner, agree?"

Sirius nodded, still looking at the floor. Remus cupped his face in his hands and gently stroked his cheeks.

"Hey, it's gonna be alright," he added softly. Sirius finally looked at him with watery eyes and covered his hands with his own for a brief moment. Then he turned around and disappeared into the bathroom.