I knew what he was the first time I ever saw him. Trouble
I don't know what hold he had on me, but whatever it was it was strong enough to make me follow him and leave everything behind.
My family and friends. It was a mistake, I knew that! I knew he never really truly loved me, even when he always said he did.
When I came back it took my family a while to forgive me, my brother was the longest to ignore me.
A month after everyone came around and everything was back to how it once was.
For everyone else. For me it was never the same. Sit here and chat and carry on like everything was normal? It wasn't.
The things I had done, the things I had seen?! My opinion on the world changed. If these people could see me then they wouldn't believe who I had turned into.
It was his fault though, I was shy yet feisty Clarissa Morgenstern. He changed me. Made me something I wasn't but for all that I treasure the person I am now. I'm much stronger and so I should be after everything I went through. I'm married for Christ sakes. No one knows that though. I'm not going to tell them till the time is right. I can sit here and pretend everything is normal, but it's not.
I miss him.
I hate that I have to admit to even myself, his blonde curly hair and his golden eye's like the devils.
I should have stayed at Uni, I was just so tempted by him. It worked because we fled and we soared everywhere. I felt like I was on top of the world.
Probably the drugs I was on did that. His possessiveness was what scared me, the way he acted when someone so much as looked at me.
He would just kill them, his face never held remorse or guilt only to snap back into the happy chap he was after he had done it.
My life was well and truly turned upside down on a never ending rollercoaster.
I was a shy girl, I never really came out of my shell unless I was annoyed or had too. I think he saw that, when he looked at me.
That was why he choose me.