AN: Alright guys! Here's my first story in a while and my very first for Glee! I'm kind of a new Gleek, just started following the show as of this year (January) I think. Anyways, I run the fYeahCurtMega twitter so I kind of got inspired to write something Niff. So here it is. I was originally gonna right this as a one shot but it started getting really long and I hadn't originally planned on Jeff singing. But as any other writer knows characters have minds of their own and I think Jeff sent a little birdy to my followers on twitter and tumblr to give me two songs that I really wanted to use. So, I'll probably have this chapter, one for Nick's song, one for Jeff's song, and one for what will happen after class. For now, here's chapter one, follow the rest after, reviews are like crack and will make the rest come faster.. I might even get chapter 2 out by tomorrow if I get enough feedback.
I don't remember when, how, or why it happened. It just sort of did. No one really plans to fall in love with their best friend, but I did. Yes, I'm admitting it: I, Nick Covington, am in love with my best friend, Jeff Wetmore.
If it wasn't already obvious by that last statement, I'm gay. Most people wouldn't think I am until I tell them or let something slip about hot guys and stuff like that. I'm not even sure Jeff really believes it. I mean I'm a total guy: video games, comic books, video games, science fiction, action movies, sports... The whole bit. The only difference is that I go to the action movies not just to see stuff blow up but to check out the gorgeous shirtless guys on the screen. I've only really told a few people and not many have found out for themselves. I've told my parents of course and Jeff, but that's about it, not even any of the other Warblers know. My parents were pretty easy going about it, they just said it was a bit of a shock but they'd get used to the idea. Jeff was a bit harder to tell, seeing as I already had a bit of a crush on him when I told him. His reaction was a bit strange, he looked shocked and almost frightened, but then relaxed and cracked some joke about how we'd had sleep overs in the past and I could have molested him in his sleep.
BANG! The door to my dorm room flew open making me jump and jolt to attention, broken from my train of thought, but no one was there, I stared sort of confused, slowly walking towards it. Of course I should have been expecting exactly what happened next. When I got about 2 feet away, Jeff's large figure jumped into the once empty door frame.
"JEFF! What the heck was that for?" I exclaimed jumping backwards. This statement simply caused him to fall into hysterical fits of laughter while I just stood with my arms crossed and a stern look on my face.
I could tell he was really trying to stop laughing long enough to talk but it just didn't seem to be working so he tried to push the words out through his laughter. "I... You... look... face... priceless!"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah; the look on my face when you scare me is always priceless..." I just turned back into the room to go sit back on my bed again.
Jeff finally found his composure and followed me giving me a sympathetic sad puppy look. "Come on man, I know I'm over the top sometimes but you just need to loosen up.." I shot another sharp glance in his direction. "You know I love you dude, but sometimes..." That made me stiffen. I know he meant like a brother or a close friend but there was that piece of me that wished it was more than that.
I really do wish that he knew how much I love him... but I don't even think Jeff's gay. I mean, he could be like me where no one knows but I really don't think so. Telling him would just make things awkward between us. He really just got used to the fact of knowing I was gay but knowing I'm in love with him would make things worse. "I know Jeff, I'm just a stick in the mud."
"That's not what I meant and you know it." he chuckled shoving me a bit. "Anyways, what are you doing for that project in music class about the messages behind music or whatever we're supposed to do?" Crap the project, we were supposed to be ready to perform in 2 days and I don't even know what to sing yet.
"I totally forgot, what am I supposed to do?" I know what I want to do, I want to find the perfect song to sing about my feelings for Jeff, but I don't know if I can do it.
He shrugged casually, "Well, just do what I did, look inside yourself and find something that you really want to get out and find a song that fits those feelings." I'm kind of shocked at him actually being serious about this, but at the same time, I swear that boy can read my mind sometimes.
"Well yeah, maybe, it's just finding a song to fit what I'm feeling that's the hard part. I know what I want to express, just not how." I really do feel defeated, now that I'm thinking about it I really can't find a song that perfectly fits how I feel about Jeff. I do need to start looking.
"What do you want to say?" His voice was innocent and questioning. I know Jeff means well but how am I supposed to put it without giving it away. Well, he expects some answer so I have to think fast.
"Um, well, I kind of like this guy and I want to tell him but I'm not really sure what to say or how to say it, so I was hoping to find a song." I really love you, I corrected in my head. I watched Jeff's face intently to see every reaction that he made.
"Ooh, who's the lucky guy?" Jeff genuinely seemed excited.
Nervously and quickly I answered without thinking, "You don't know him."
That made his face drop, only for a second before he recovered his smile, but hit had. "Oh, okay then. Well, I hope I get to meet him sometime." that made me laugh inside, how can anyone meet themselves? Gosh, I just wish sometimes that Jeff would make this easier for me and realize how much I love him... Well, that thought just made my life a whole lot easier; I've got my song choice.