Breathing

Lyrics from Lifehouse's "Breathing"

I'm finding my way back to sanity again

Though I don't really know what

I'm gonna do when I get there

You're gone. You're gone and with you, you have taken all of me. I cant think, eat, sleep or even breathe without you. I'm trying to get over you and find my way back to sanity but what will I do even if I get there? My life has no meaning, no purpose without you. I miss you so much, Sydney.

Take a breath and hold on tight

Spin around one more time

And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

I feel your presence again. I feel it every second of every day. So I close my tear filled eyes, take in a deep breath and turn around just one more time. I see you…your beautiful angelic face calling out to me so I rush towards you and crash into your arms weeping, only to find myself on the ground, alone-without you.

I am looking past the shadows

Of my mind into the truth and

I'm trying to identify

The voices in my head

God, which one is you

There's so much darkness and madness in my head that I have lost myself in the chaos. The worlds of the present and the imaginary have merged together and my grasp of reality is slipping from me. I search frantically, trying to find your voice again. Sydney….don't leave me….I need you.

Let me feel one more time

What it feels like to feel alive

And break these calluses off of me

One more time

Come back to me, just once please. So I can remember what it feels like to be alive again. Just so I can see you, hear you, touch you, smell you and taste you one more time and awaken my dead senses. Sydney….you and only you can heal me for you are my very soul. Otherwise I will simply fade into oblivion.

I don't want a thing from you

Bet your tired of me waiting

The people around me move on and the world moves forward leaving me behind. I don't want a thing from anyone else…I just want you. I'm sure if you were here you would want me to stop pining and move on. But I can't. I love you too much to ever give up hope. Ill never stop waiting.

For the scraps to fall

Off of your table to the ground

Cause I just want to be here now

So I just sit here…lingering…waiting…holding on to whatever scraps of you I have left. I don't care anymore…I just want to be with you now.

I am hanging on every word you say

And even if you don't wana speak tonight

That's alright, alright with me

Your words to me are like a drop of water to a man dying of thirst and I cling on to them as if they are gold. For they are all I have to give me hope. I remember every precious word that was uttered from your perfect lips. I remember how beautiful you looked the last time I saw you in the car. I remember how sweet you felt the last time I kissed you. God, Sydney, I love you so much and even if I don't hear your voice tonight, that's alright coz I wont give up. You mean everything to me.

Cause I want nothing more

Than to sit outside heaven's door

And listen to you breathing

That's where I wana be, wana I wana be

I'm physically alive, but my heart mind and soul all died with you. Id rather die too and be with you than continue living out this meaningless life. Even if I am deemed unfit to enter the gates of heaven, I would be content with just sitting outside heaven's door so I can listen to you breathing-the most peaceful sound in the world. There's no where else in the world id rather be than with you. I just want to be with you….forever.

P.S   If you play the song while reading this…..its even better.

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