Human Existence
Human Existence
I watched out the window as Edward's Volvo started moving out of sight. Bella Swan soon-to-be Cullen was most likely in the passenger seat. Bella just doesn't realize how hard it is to know a person who has the one thing you want the most, and is willing to throw it all away. My name is Rosalie Cullen, and I am a vampire. And I have to watch Bella give her human existence away.
When I was not doomed to eternal damnation, all I wanted was to start my own family. Seeing my used-to-be best friend she may be dead by now hold a beautiful baby boy in her arms just strengthened my want.
But unless I am heartless figuratively speaking enough to change a newborn baby into a vampire, and be forever stuck changing diapers, this will not happen.
I would give so much to be in Bella's shoes, but I would keep living. A human life, that is.
Then again, it's not my fault that I became the super-beast I am today. When my fiancé and his friends beat me and left me on the street to die, CarlisleCullen came to saveme. Because of him, I lived. And will continue to live forever. Oh the joy.
So here we've been living together yet apart for multiple decades: Carlisle and Esme, me and Emmett, Jasper and Alice, Edward and, well, Edward. Up until Bella Swan waltzed into Forks and stole Edward's non-beating heart. That's when she decided to give her life, and future, away to become a lifeless monster.
Even though I don't sleep, I tend to daydream. Sometimes, the fact that you aren't really alive escapes you. Usually when I daydream, Emmett or Alice wakes me up. Emmett mostly, since we are basically in love. Or as much love as two vampires can be in.
But nothing prepared me for this one. This one daydream that still haunts me.