Alone.
The day I left him stays in my mind forever. I know I shouldn't care, I should be glad I did what I did, but there was something about him. Something... Different. Maybe it was the fact he murdered for fun. But that seems like a turn-off to me. Maybe it was how he never took people's crap. I think that was what I liked about him. The fact that he stood up for what he believed in. Even though the way he did that would scare your typical artist-working-at-a-stupid-bookstore, but I didn't really know about how he did it at first. But when we were on that date at the point, I probably could have figured it out. He went crazy when he lost his ability to paint. And god, I would to. But I don't think I would go on killing sprees whenever I felt depressed like he did.
When he pulled the knives out on me, that was it. It all started to make sense; I realized I was on a date with a Homicidal Maniac. A person who, about 5 seconds before he tried to kill me, I was in love with. But what he did scared me, as it would to anyone, but he had good intentions. He only wanted to 'immortalize the moment'. In his world he could never keep anything happy, and he wanted to keep me. But I was terrified. I left him there bleeding without anyone to help him. He was all alone. And now I only have Tenna to talk to, and even she thinks im overreacting about this whole thing. Its almost like she can tell I see good in Nny, and that it was different than it was with all the other guys before. I knew I left him alone and I didn't want to be alone. So I went with what Tenna said and called Nny.
"Hi Nny.. I" then I heard a gunshot.