Author's notes: Each chapter is named after and inspired by a Motion City Soundtrack song. I've had this list of songs that seemed to make a story in my mind for a really long time, but I just couldn't find the right characters. Then I saw the episode where Lilly and Oliver finally got together and I realized they'd be the perfect people to play out this story. This super doesn't follow how Lilly and Oliver got together on the show or even how Oliver and Joannie broke up so bear with me.

Sorry for deleting the story suddenly. I just realized there were some timeline issues which I had to fix so I changed some stuff in the chapters. I'll upload the rest soon.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Hannah Montana characters. Any resemblance between this story and others is purely coincidental.

HOLD ME DOWN

Oliver couldn't wait for Joannie to come over. They had been dating for a few months now. So far things were going great. He was looking forward to spending a lot more time with her. In fact, he finally realized that he had been falling in love with her all this time.

Just a few minutes ago, she called and said she had something important to tell him that she couldn't just say over the phone so she was on her way to his house. After a few more minutes, Oliver heard the doorbell. He ran to the door immediately, knowing who was on the other side.

"Hey Joannie!" said Oliver excitedly.

"Uh… Hey Oliver." Joannie answered rather nervously. Joannie's kind of out of it today. Why would she be nervous? Oliver thought. He let her in and they sat together on his couch in his living room.

"So what did you have to tell me? I bet you're just going to say you love me and that you want to be with me forever. I mean, who wouldn't?" Oliver joked, trying to lighten the awkward tension that was forming between them.

Joannie immediately looked at him, sadness forming in her eyes. "Well, you got half of it right." Oliver looked at her confusedly.

"What do you mean?" he asked. "Why have you been acting so weird today?"

Joannie sighed and looked down. "I'm not sure how to tell you this exactly, but I guess I should get it over with quickly."

She paused one more time then said, "Oliver, I'm so glad that we got together. You always manage to make me laugh. You're always there for me. You're the one guy so far who I've been serious and exclusive with. Basically, I'm in love with you. I have been for a while now. I wish that I had told you sooner."

"No, Joannie, it's okay," he reassured her. "Actually I'm glad you told me because I was just going to tell you that I think I've fallen in love with you too."

Joannie looked more upset after hearing that, which confused Oliver even more. "I wish you hadn't told me that," Joannie whispered. "It just makes this harder for me to tell you."

Oliver was starting to get worried. "Whatever you have to say, just say it."

"Okay," Joannie sighed. "I really love you Oliver, but I'm breaking up with you."

What?! Did I just hear her right? She loves me, but she wants to break up? What the? Oliver had so many thoughts running in his mind that he didn't say anything. She decided to continue and say everything as fast as she could. Just do it quickly. Like ripping off a band aid.

"You know that my parents are separated," Joannie reminded him. " I've decided to go live with my dad in Boston, and my brother will live here with my mom. I've always wanted to go and live there. I know it'll be really different from Malibu, but I think that I should do this. Plus, I want my dad to have some company over there.

You…well, this relationship will hold me down. I don't think it'd be worth it to try to keep a long distance relationship. Since I'm leaving later, you don't have to worry about seeing me. Please don't call me or contact me. We should just try to move on separately to make things easier."

Oliver finally found his voice. "Why did you tell me you love me if you're just going to break my – up with me?" He didn't want her to know that she had broken his heart.

"I just wanted to let you know that what we had really meant something to me," she explained. She stood up to leave and looked at him one last time. "Goodbye Ollie."

This goodbye made him realize that he really was losing her. Screw it, this is no time for pride. You love her and you don't want her to leave Oliver! Say something! Make her stay! His mind kept screaming at him. "Joannie, wait! Doesn't it matter to you that I love you too? You won't stay or at least try to make it work?"

She looked down and answered, "Oliver, I've wanted to live in Boston my whole life. I'm just trying to spare us from wasting time and effort which could otherwise be better spent and from a bigger heartache that would be inevitable if we prolong this relationship." When she looked up there were tears in her eyes. "I really love you, okay? I just have to do the smart thing here."

Oliver was exasperated. "Can't you for once just follow your heart and stop being so rational?!" he almost yelled.

Joannie looked tired and hurt and shook her head. "I'm sorry Oliver. I really have to go. I'm leaving in a couple of hours and I have to finish packing." She ran out the door, leaving Oliver standing with tears forming in his eyes as well.

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The next afternoon, Oliver was at home just staring at the walls. He couldn't seem to stop thinking about the previous day. Suddenly, he heard the doorbell. He walked slowly to open it and was surprised to see Joannie's brother Mark.

"Hey Oliver," Mark said hesitantly. "Uh, Joannie told me she forgot to get back her iPod. She said she left it in your room weeks ago."

Oliver remembered that Joannie had left it there telling him to put in his favorite songs so that she could remember him when she heard the songs. He had been busy, however, so he never got the chance to do so. A new wave of sadness washed over him again. It made him miss her all over again.

"Oliver?" Mark snapped him out of his thoughts. "Can I get the iPod?"

"Uh sure, hold on." Oliver went to his room and rummaged under piles of paper and trash to find the player lying on his desk. He looked at it for a moment then went downstairs to give it to Mark.

"Here," Oliver handed it over.

"Thanks," Mark paused and looked at him for a while. "Hey man. I just have to say I don't really agree with how Joannie broke up with you. I know that won't make a difference or make you feel better. I just hope that you're doing alright."

I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way
I love you, however,
You hold me down

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love.
How will I break the news to you?

The lyrics at the end of the chapter are just bits from the song that I feel capture the story :)

Oh! And I (try to) insert the song title somewhere in the chapter as well, so read closely and you'll find it.