Mikan was sitting on the stair case of our porch when I arrived home she was staring into space until she felt my presence and jolted upright her wide hazel eyes and gaping mouth clearly showing that she had so many things to say, but didn't know where to start. I looked away from her and started walking towards our door wanting nothing more but to get away from her, and all the guilt that I felt.

"Was it for Aoi?"

I just reached the front of our door when I heard her whisper and felt my whole body stiffen stopping me from my tracks. I turned around to face her. It was starting to rain and the wind was picking up blowing away some of the tendrils of auburn hair that fell loose from the bun that it was tied in, and met her eyes that were looking beseechingly at me asking me to tell her the truth, to explain why I have done the things that I did.

"Natsume please answer me" Mikan pleaded as she took one step towards me.

"No" I lied, as I successfully stopped myself from looking away from her to make my deception more convincing.

Mikan flinched from what I said, her heart break clearly showing in her eyes, " So it was all lie then, nothing you said and done were true?", she asked with a brittle voice.

I knew that what I was about to do would clearly crush her but I would rather crush her now with the knowledge that she will be able to let go of what we had and move-on, than having her hanging on to something that would leave her broken and irrevocably damaged later.

"Yes it was all lie", I smirked at her and continued," I can honestly say that I had fun stringing an idiot like you along."

I heard Mikan sobbed as she looked away from me. I was expecting her to shout and hurt me for everything that I have done, and I would have gladly taken all of it just to lessen down the remorse and hurt that I was feeling, but she surprised me by roughly wiping away at her eyes and taking out an envelope at the back pocket of her black skinny jeans.

"Here" she said as she took my hand and put the envelope in it, "this is for Aoi".

I frowned at her and opened the envelope, inside it was a cheque with a moderate amount of money written on it, but it was large enough that it would complete the amount of money that I needed to solve my problem with Aoi. I sharply looked back at Mikan my eyes clearly showing my confusion.

"Tsubasa told me" she said answering my unspoken question as to how she found out about Aoi.

I pushed back the envelope towards her saying, "I can't accept this ",but she pushed my hand back at me.

"Don't. It's not for you it's for Aoi because no matter what happened between us she is not part of it."

I was about to insist that she take back but I was rendered speechless with what she said next.

"Besides even with the money I won't be able to get my mother's locket back."

I looked at her neck and found it bare. The locket which was her only memorabilia from her mother before she passed away was no longer in its usual spot. I was torn between wanting to hug her and apologising or shaking her in frustration because she was so nice, but I knew that if I did any of that there is a chance that she would take it as me caring for her so I did what a hardcore bastard would do. I put the envelope in my pocket and looked back at her, and smiled.

"You really are an idiot aren't you?"

Mikan laughed bitterly a few tears escaping from her eyes, "Yeah I guess I am", she whispered as she wiped her cheeks. She turned around and left.

I watched her go until she was out of my sight, all the while convincing myself that the tears falling from my eyes weren't because of the fact that I just drove away the one woman I'll ever love.