Author : Katiyana
Summary : Just some thoughts first thing in the morning.
Disclaimer : I obviously don't own the copyright for these characters.
I'm in a hospital room and I have just opened my eyes. It must be fairly early in the morning and no one has come in yet. I know that this time to myself will be short. I'm sure that soon someone will come in and the day will begin. I'm glad that I have a few minutes to myself.
I look over at the small bundle of white encased in a tiny bassinet beside my bed. There appears to be no sound or movement yet. She must be soundly asleep. I wonder if she's dreaming. I wonder if she can dream yet. She's barely a day old, I think. While I vividly remember the sequence of events that led to her appearance, the timing of them escaped my notice. I had more immediate things to focus on.
As my eyes are irresistibly drawn in the direction of that bassinet, my thoughts start to wander. I think that I would prefer to skip past the more recent events within my experience. I'm in no doubt that the result is worth it, but maybe I'll revisit those memories when the impressions of agony are not quite as fresh in my thoughts.
I have a baby daughter. I blink reflexively upon that thought. It is almost unbelievable. It is incredible. It is fascinating and scary and a million other things all at once. I gave birth to a perfect baby girl. Who would have thought that would ever happen to me, Sara Sidle?
She's an absolute marvel. I already love her more than I thought it was possible to love someone. Such an amazing blessing. I really hope that I don't screw her life up too badly. I mouth an apology at her in advance for the times I will get it wrong and say a silent prayer that it won't be too often.
The best part of this and one of the main reasons that I'm not completely freaking out of my mind right now is the fact that I won't be alone. She's definitely going to be a daddy's little girl. She had him wrapped around her little finger the instant she arrived. Actually, it was quite possibly well before that. Even when she was literally just 'a bump'. I do sincerely hope that I won't always have to be the one to get her to toe the line.
I close my eyes with a smile as I think about my husband. He's gorgeous. I have no idea why he picked me but he did. Apart from looking fantastic, he's amazingly wise and level-headed. He does have his faults but then nobody's perfect and I absolutely love him just the way he is.
He'll probably be in as soon as they let him. I wouldn't be surprised if he were waiting outside right now. I hope he went home to sleep for the night. I'm sure that Catherine would have made him. She's good at taking care of people that way.
I can't imagine my life without him now. I'm forever grateful that he broke through my barriers. And we have a beautiful little girl. Life couldn't be more perfect.
If anyone had told me roughly two years ago that I'd eventually be happily married to Warrick Brown and then subsequently have a baby with him, I would not even have bothered to call the person crazy. I was convinced it would not have been worth the effort to do so.
But here I am. Blissfully happy and in love. You just never know what can happen.
The End