He Saved Me
Raven's POV
"speech"
thought
Chapter 1:
I had known from the beginning that it was a dangerous thing to do. It was risky, but Robin's life was in danger. His body couldn't take the stress his mind was putting on it. He was going to end up killing himself if I hadn't done anything. And there was only a chance of it happening. I was pretty sure the nothing had happened. I had been careful, and now a few days after the whole incident nothing seemed wrong with the Boy Wonder.
I was meditating up on the roof one evening, deep in concentration. No one usually bothered me, so when I sensed another presence I went on high alert but didn't show it. As soon as I realized who it was my mind relaxed again. I could feel his eyes on me, but I didn't turn around or even acknowledge that he was there. I just continued chanting my mantra. It didn't really bother me that he was there. I guess I could go as far as saying that I liked having Robin nearby. I knew that I was safe whenever he was around. I knew he had something on his mind. The emotions pouring off him were strong, almost overpowering my own.
I heard his near silent approach as he asked "Raven?" Landing on the roof I turned to face him asking "Yes Robin, do you need something" even though I already knew the answer. I watched him hesitate only a second before answering me. "Ever since you were, umm…in my mind I have been experiencing these emotions, that aren't mine. I was hoping …uh…you could help me understand it better…?" I took a sharp breath. Crap! "And you don't know whose they are?" I asked hesitantly. "No" He stated. "Like now I can feel…worry, stress, fear, and something else….but they aren't my feelings" Sighing I said "Robin, you said this started after I went into your mind?" putting emphasis on the 'I'. He nodded at this. "You're the great detective here, put the pieces together" I said in a well-practiced monotone voice hoping he would pick up on my subtle hint. Robin stood there thinking for a while about what I had said to him. Muttering "Whatever" under my breath I turned and headed for the door. I could feel Robin's eyes boring into the back of my head as I went back into the tower.
When I finally got to my room I was fighting back tears. I was hoping that he would and wouldn't figure it out at the same time…But I stubbornly refused to let even one tear fall, knowing that if just one fell I would lose all the control on I had on my hated emotions. The idea of Robin knowing what I feel….that I love him. He could never love me though. Robin likes Starfire and Starfire loves him. Deciding that I will only be hurt in the end from this I tried thinking of ways to change how I feel about a certain masked leader in the tower. Hmmm maybe if I can stay away from him I will fall out of love with him. Thinking it was worth a shot I decided that I would only leave my room for missions and in the middle of the night for food when I would be sure that no one would be awake to see me.
The days would pass slowly for me. There weren't any missions and the team never left the tower. I was getting more and more depressed the longer I was in my room. By the end of the first day I didn't even feel like sneaking out for food since I hadn't eaten lunch the day before. I had almost wished that someone would come looking for me…maybe Robin? But he never came. It was four long days before someone finally came to my room looking for me. but it wasn't who I had hoped it would be.
There was a knock at my door. It was Starfire; I knew it before she even said anything. Her presence was different than the others. "Raven…Raven it is I Starfire" I sighed, doubting she would leave "Raven can I com-EEEEEEEP!" I attacked her with my black magic. Her scream echoed down the hall behind her, she flew as fast as she could away from my room. I didn't want to see or deal with the others today. Throughout the day both Beastboy and Cyborg both tried to get me to come out of my room. But I didn't bother to tire myself out chasing them away with my black magic. I knew they weren't determined. And instead they were chased away by boredom of standing outside of my room in front of a locked door for too long.
I couldn't take it anymore. The pain of him knowing my emotions, but not realizing how I feel about him or that said emotions were mine to begin with. I had definitely been too depressed to bother sneaking out at night for food. I can feel the concern he has towards me. But he has to be concerned, he's the leader and I'm just a team mate. I thought depressed. Maybe if he had come to see me…I don't know what I would have done. I'm not sure if I would have ignored him or sent my dark powers after him. I mean he does know me better than anyone else on the team. Ever since the whole incident with Dr. Light Starfire Beastboy and Cyborg have been afraid of me, even if they won't admit it to my face. They can't change the way they feel, even if they try to hide it. But Robin is not afraid of me like the others are either. I can trust him… I love him.