Ok me no own Harry Potter or the songs or whatever. I get it.
Songs: (in order of appearance) Unwell- Matchbox Twenty (20?)
Perfect- Simple Plan
Born in a Prison-John Lennon
"Ok, you seriously need to calm down," Hermione told Harry after he had blown up at her yet again, it was the week after Christmas and everyone was sitting in the living room at 12 Grimmauld place. "Here, take my cd player and a cd and go listen to it, maybe that'll calm you down." She said indicating the cd player she had next to her. Harry, who was still in a huff went over and flicked through Hermione's cds. "Hey I didn't know there was a band called Sirius." Harry said holding up one of the cds. " There isn't, I just put the names of the people the songs on the cd remind me of on there, I still haven't found enough songs for you. Harry took a cd and the player and went upstairs for a while. Sirius, who had been listening to the conversation, was burning with curiosity at to what was on his cd. He made sure he paid attention when Hermione explained how the cd player worked to Mr. Weasley and that night when everyone else was asleep he snatched Hermione's cd player and found the cd with his name on it. He did as Hermione had explained and suddenly heard music blare out of the earphones and Sirius almost dropped them in surprise, Harry sure liked to play the music loud. After turning down the volume a bit he settled down and listened to the songs.
Unwell matchbox twenty
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
Sirius realised that he had spent an awful lot of time in the room alone with Buckbeak.
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
'Tomorrow's good for what, cleaning more of this stupid house…' Sirius thought to himself
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
But he wasn't crazy, was he?
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public
Sirius could remember walking after he had escaped from Azkaban muttering to himself, "gotta find Harry before its too late got to find him…"
Dodging glances on the train
He could remember going down to the platform with the others, worrying that someone would recognise the big black dog.
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
People talking amongst themselves in the streets about him when he'd escaped from prison, "did you hear about that escaped convict, Sirius Black?"
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
" he's not James, Sirius!…" "I'm not sure you are…sometimes, the way you talk about him, it's as though you think you have your best friend back!" "But sometimes I think Ron's mum's right and Sirius gets confused about whether you're you or your father Harry."
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Sirius remembered the prison guard telling Fudge something "its always the same," he'd said, "he's at Hogwarts"
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
A picture of the dementors surfaced in Sirius's mind…
Yeah, they're taking me away
Sirius suddenly remembered the dementors taking him away from the blasted apart street…
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
Sirius was just about to turn the cd player off, thinking that there was only one song, when suddenly the next song started.
Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Sirius remembered the look of fury on his dad's face when he had told him he was in Gryffindor…Do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Sirius suddenly saw James and Lily in their ruined house…
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
'God, I wish I could go back and change things…'
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
Sirius remembered James and the others wreaking havoc at Hogwarts
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing' alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said
"I can't believe you betrayed them Sirius"
Nothing's gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
"Please Remus…you gotta believe me…"
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
The music stopped and it cut to the next song.
We're born in a prison
Raised in a prison
"yeah this stupid house…"Sent to a prison called school
We cry in a prison
We love in a prison
We dream in a prison like fools
Wood becomes a flute when it's loved
Reach for yourself and your battered mates
Mirror becomes a razor when it's broken
Look in the mirror and see your shattered fate
We live with no reason
Kicked around for no reason
Thrown out without reason like tools
We work in a prison
And hate in a prison
And die in a prison as a rule
Wood becomes a flute when it's loved
Reach for yourself and your battered mates
Mirror becomes a razor when it's broken
Look in the mirror and see your shattered fate
We live in a prison
Among judges and wardens
And wait for no reason for you
We laugh in a prison
Go through all four seasons
And die with no vision of truth
Wood becomes a flute when it's loved
Reach for yourself and your battered mates
Mirror becomes a razor when it's broken
Look in the mirror and see your shattered fate
Sirius couldn't help but agree with the song. 'These muggles do have some sense what life's like…' he thought to himself as he turned off the cd player. He quickly put it back in Hermione's bag and went to bed.
A/N ok I know only three or so songs. If you ever find a song that reminds you of any of the Harry Potter characters send the title and the artist to me in a review. It might be in the next chapters…
Thanx gopherisgood!
p.s. thanks to Elvira 379 for the one song… thanks jotta *slap* bad alien! (inside joke)
