Total one shot, super short. Just a moment in time when Lily thinks of her life.

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To Be Muggle

"Do you want to try some of this chicken?" He looks at me and for a moment I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

"I don't know if I want it…" and I feel guilty because he has spent hours sitting by the stove making the skin crispy. I'm a fool. How could I dismiss things James Potter put himself out for? Failure. I hear my mother yelling at me and still I take another long look at my family portrait on the wall. My mother sits in my fathers lap and she looks happy. I'm happy too, aren't I?

I look at James again and sigh.

His cooking just seems so out of place right now. Dumbledore had said it would be gone soon. All the hiding. All the torment. All the worry. Everything. How soon? How could I keep it from him and pretend it was ok?

"Well do you want beef then?"

His voice cuts through my daydreams and as I stare up from the couch I can't help but laugh. He's beautiful. So beautiful, and even when my baby kicks my stomach he is right there holding me and telling me it will be ok. I agree with him. Even when my heart says I'm a liar and the depths of my heart say I am lying to the man I love.

"I'm just hungry." I stifle a laugh.

I am. I'm so hungry, but I don't know how to tell him that the hunger I want is only his love. So I lift myself from the couch and saunter into to kitchen. He's still frying chicken and I still have that smirk pressed against my lips.

"Lils?" He says, as I wrap my arms around his torso.

"Food can wait."

It's just a moment in time, but I just don't want to eat.

James places the spatula down and turns to me. "I'm trying to do this whole muggle things you know…"

And I almost cry because I know he is doing it for me.

"I know"

I whisper, and then grab his hand and lead him to our bedroom.

"I just want one simple night with you…"

I curl into the blankets of our bed and feel him crawl in beside me. When his arm wraps my frame I feel safe. Safest I think we will ever be. Nothing else even matters.