A/N. Hey! So this is going to be my first Brittana fic. It's going to be multi-chapter but be patient with me. It's my first real try at writing. If you have any comments I'd love to hear them!
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee, if I did Brittany, Santana, Rachel, and Quinn would be in one giant gay relationship. Nor do I own any songs I use from here on in. The song used in this chapter is Daylight by Maroon 5.
"You're my best friend." Once her lips were pressed to mine I knew I was gone. I watched her leave the auditorium and I felt my heart slowly break. I had to keep it together for at least a little bit. I let out a shaky breath and pull out my phone. I press number 3 on my speed dial.
"Santana what's up? Are you okay?" Quinn's voice rings out through the receiver.
"She told me to leave, to go to New York."
"So what are you going to do?" I feel the first few sobs break out of my body. "Oh honey…"
"She kissed me Quinn. After saying that she was my best friend. What does that even mean? It hurts Q, it hurts so bad." I spend a few minutes on the phone with Quinn before I calm myself down enough to function properly. So I'm going to New York. Brittany, she doesn't want me anymore. Damn Trouty Mouth. I take a steadying breath before leaving the high school and heading to my house.
After a long and difficult conversation with my parents I get the blessing to go to New York. I call Kurt and Rachel to confirm that the invitation to stay with them is still valid before I being packing. Everything from college is still packed and ready in boxes so now it's just grabbing more of the necessities and things I want from my room. It's my last night before I'm leaving. I'd spent the day with Tina, Finn, Sugar, and a few other Glee clubbers. They threw me a going away party, not sure why seeing as how I was a bitch to most of them but hey I wasn't complaining. Brittany hadn't been there.
I walk around my room and look at the pictures on my bookshelf. There's ones of Cheerio's, Glee club, tons of the Unholy Trinity, and then there's ones of me and Britt. I pick up my favorite picture of us. It was a picture Quinn took before she left for Yale. The three of us had been hanging out at the park and Quinn always had that damn camera with her. I had snuck up behind Britt and wrapped her in my arms catching her by surprise. She had thrown some of the bread she had for the ducks into the air and there was a giant grin on my face. Quinn snapped the photo quickly before either of us had noticed. She gave it to me the day she left and it became my favorite. "That one's my favorite too." My breath hitches and I freeze. I hear my door click shut and the shuffling of feet across carpet before long pale arms wrap around my waist. I close my eyes and melt in the embrace. The smell of strawberries fills my nose and I can feel a nose tickle the back of my neck. Britt. "I'm going to miss you. I love you." I swallow around the lump in my throat before turning in her arms.
"You can't say things like that to me anymore." I lock eyes with her. My chocolate brown gazes into the pale blue eyes in front of me and it steals more breath from me. I lift a hand to cup her cheek, my eyes never leaving hers. "Your eyes were one of the first things that I fell in love with, I mean it's hard not to. They're pretty amazing." A silly lopsided grin takes over her face. "I'll never forget the day we met." She chuckles and leads me over to my bed. We both sit facing each other.
"Neither will I. You tore into our teacher when you thought she was being too harsh on me. I don't think any other teacher has ever had a pair of scissors thrown at them before." We both laugh and she shakes her head at me.
"Well she was being mean and I didn't like it." I take her hands in mine. "Britt, I'm going to miss you so much. I need you to know that I still love you more than anything."
"San I know that. You'll always love me the most, remember?" I give her a small smile.
"I'm still in love with you Britt. I don't think I ever won't be. You mean, so much to me. Britt Britt you're the sun, the stars, the moon, the whole entire damn universe to me. I wish I never left, never had our "unofficial breakup" and let you go. You know I only did it for you right? Because it was what was best for you?" She nods and I cup her cheek to make her look in my eyes. "There is nothing I want more in this entire world than to spend the rest of my life with you. I know you're with Sam but, I want you to know that the second you aren't his anymore I'm going to be right there fighting for a chance again." She laughs smiling.
"I wouldn't expect anything less San." She kisses my palm and I feel a slow fire work it's way up my arm and settle inside my chest. She grabs my hands in her own and takes a deep breath. "Sannie, you have to go to New York. It's where you belong. Soon enough I'll be right there with you. You're my best friend and I don't think I could survive another year away from you. So just know that in a few months I'm going to be joining you out there." I allow a smile to work it's way across my face. "I love you too, so much." She catches me by surprise when she leans forward to kiss me again.
Except this time it's not a small peck. No, she grabs the back of my neck and I'm reminded of all the long nights we spent in my room together. The nights where we'd spend hours making love to each other. The fireworks are there and the slow burning that had taken residence in my chest is now a full blown blaze. Her lips move against mine in a practiced rhythm and her tongue sneaks it's way out to meet mine. We both moan into the kiss and once still hands are now put into motion. My hands grip at her shirt to pull her body close to mine while her other hand joins the one in my hair. Teeth bite at lips and tongues battle in a clash of dominance and passion.
I moan and push her back against my bed. Her legs wrap around my waist and I rock into her. My hips roll against hers and I know I hit the right spot when she moans into my mouth. I know all her moans, motions, everything about her, yet it never gets old. She never gets old, I can never get bored with Brittany's body. Her hands sneak their way under my shirt, tickling over my abs to play with the bottom of my bra. I moan against her mouth and pull back when I feel her grip at my shirt. She tosses it to the side and before we can dive back into each other I stop her with a hand to her chest. Her heart is pounding underneath my fingertips and it causes me to take a large breath of air. "What about Sam?"
"Tonight is about us and me showing you that I care about you. I don't want to think about him. I just want it to be you and me. That's what matters." I nod and I rip off the Cheerio's top before crashing out lips together again. We moan once skin touches skin. Hands grab at whatever they can and I can feel the need and desperation in her touches and kisses. I can also feel the love and caring in them as well. With a quick motion of my hand her bra is discard on the floor, mine joins soon after and one by one the clothes get pulled off.
Once everything is gone we take a second to stare at the other. It's been a while since we've been together like this, it's been a while since I've had sex period. In fact she was the last person I had sex with. Her body has a little bit more muscle and definition than it did last time. Her eyes rake over my even more well defined abs before she leans forward and licks them. I moan and grab at the mess of blonde hair. I swear her tongue could make a saint become a sinner. Not that I was ever a saint.
We take some time to appreciate what we've missed over the past few months before we start to rebuild the physical connection between our bodies. I take her first, it's always been that way. I always made sure she was satisfied first and then let her take care of me. I don't know how many times we take each other until she finally falls asleep. My arms are wrapped around her, protecting her from the rest of the world. I've always done that. Our legs are intertwined underneath the covers on my bed, her body half covering mine, arms wrapped around me and her head on my chest. I run one hand through her long blonde locks while my other arm is wrapped around her body. I kiss her forehead and watch her sleep.
Her face is completely serene and I feel calm. I know the feeling won't last but I'm trying to hold onto it for as long as I can. I know that as soon as it hits 6 she'll have to get up and go to school and I'll be getting ready to leave for the Big Apple. But right now, in this moment, everything is how it should be. I have Brittany in my arms and we just spent hours on end making love. I look at my bedside table and look at the clock. 4:27 a.m. I'm not going to let myself fall asleep because I know that once I get up this spell will be broken. So I'm going to hold onto it for as long as I can.
"Here I am waiting I'll have to leave soon,
Why am I holding on,
We knew this day would come we knew it all along,
How did it come so fast,
This is our last night but it's late,
And I'm trying not to sleep,
Cause I know when I wake I will have to slip away,
And when the daylight comes I'll have to go,
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close,
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own,
But tonight I need to hold you so close,
Oh-woah oh-woah oh-woah,
Oh-woah oh-woah oh-woah,
Here I am staring at your perfection,
In my arms so beautiful,
The sky is getting bright the stars are burning out,
Somebody slow it down,
This is way too hard cause I know,
When the sun comes up I will leave,
This is my last glance that will soon be memory,
And when the daylight comes I'll have to go,
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close,
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own,
But tonight I need to hold you so close,
Oh-woah oh-woah oh-woah,
Oh-woah oh-woah oh-woah,
I never wanted to stop because I don't wanna start all over start all over,
I was afraid of the dark but now it's all that I want all that I want all that I want,
And when the daylight comes I'll have to go,
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close,
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own,
But tonight I need to hold you so close,
And when the daylight comes I'll have to go,
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close,
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own,
But tonight I need to hold you so close"
I stare down at the warm body lying in my arms and sigh. I love her so much, I wish this wasn't goodbye. I wish I could stay. I have so many things I want to say and I have so many things I wish I did differently. This perfect person lying in my arms deserves so much than I can give her, but I'd give her the world if it meant that I got to wake up to her every morning for the rest of my life. I tighten my hold on her once more before I press a kiss to her head. Sooner than I'd like she wakes up and it's time for both of us to leave. She has to go to school and stay in this godforsaken town for 6 more months while I'm going to head to New York to start the rest of my life. I walk her to the door and we face each other, hands clasped tightly. "You know when I imagined beginning the rest of my life I always thought it'd be with you by my side. That we'd be doing it together." A tear slips down my face and she whips it away before gathering me in her arms.
"Don't think like that. Soon enough I'll be joining you out there and we'll tackle it exactly like that." She pulls away gripping at my biceps and shoots me her award winning smile. "Together."
"Promise?"
"I promise." She gives me one last kiss before she walks out the door. After I close it I slide down the wall next to the closed door. I hope she keeps that promise.