life in hell
preface
Not observing where I am .Not recognizing what I've done .Not knowing who I've hurt.
All the pain is still there .Still haunting me. Exactly like it was just yesterday.
The images keep replaying themselves in my head. they're not going away.
Well(grins)…. At least not until I make them leave.
chapter one :the beginning of the end
"wake up Jayne!"
"why cant you ever shut up!"
"you better get your fat ass off of your fucking bed young lady!"
"you cant tell me what to do you devil mother!"
"your not going to be late for school. again!"
"I don't give a crap about school!"
"get off of your bed now! You better be up before I come back!"
"yeah whatever"
She slammed the door shut and I gradually stood off the bed. I hurried my pace and went on a scavenger hunt for clothes.
I ended up with a black leather tank top,A blurry smeared-on red skinny jean's, And my pair of white and black converse all stars.
I got dressed and grabbed some accessories such as a longish necklace-a hollow skull with guns melded to its sides-that hangs over my breastbone, silver, black, and white bracelets, and my favorite earrings-red and white lightning bolts.(I saw a pair of those at hot topic but in blue!=D)
I grabbed my handbag which contains just my agenda, a few notebooks, paper, and a pencil. I don't do good grades. now shut up!
I walked out the room and into the living room where Silvia-my mother-was sitting lazily on the couch watching that crappy American idol.
"where's my breakfast!"
"go make it yourself."
"fuck you bitch!"
All I hear is silence. of course. she doesn't give a shit about me nor do I about her. why?
I might know. maybe ill confess later on. for now my mouth stays shut until I say so. got it!
Open. close. open. close. open. close. nothing to eat.
I guess I have to buy something from the schools breakfast club. again.
"I'm leaving"
Silence.
Some how, I have a car. its hard to believe since you would see that me and Silvia never get along. but she bought me a car so she didn't have to take me everywhere all the time. I wish she could just get a life or grow up or something.
I took out my keys got in and brought the car to life. did I mention that my car is a mitsubichi eclipse?
I cranked up the music to WJRR the greatest station to listened to rock, metal, screamo, and everything Inbetween. I love to listen to death core, emo core, heavy metal, screamo, gothic stuff. my favorite music is screamo and heavy metal.
This song came on called 'human connect to human' by tokio hotel. I love this song!
I really don't listen to pop rock but they are so addicting.
I live in key west,florida where a very scrappy place called high school lives. and I have to go there for about seven hours straight.
whoop-dee-doo…
Tokio hotels intro began…
And my long day of hell was about to begin…
I got to school ten minutes late. as always. I parked on my usual parking space. people here know I'm a freak and that me and my mom constantly fight. they say they can literally here us when we scream. plus, they think I'm some sort of a devils child because of what I wear. this isn't even horrible. you should see what I come to school with most of every other day.
I reached the office and signed in.
"late again ms carter?"
"as always ms Renton."
"here's your sign in. now you better hurry before coach Logan yells at you again !"she laughed.
Oh how I love ms Renton. for some reason she sees the good in me unlike everyone else.
"bye Lena!"
"have a good day Jayne!"
I walked to my first class which would be gym class.
Here's another hour of another miserable day.
(authors note :I hoped u guys liked it! please review it!thanks!i love you all!)