Hey all you Rushers. Okay, so this is a poem, spoken from Kendall's point of view. Just thought you should know that.

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Listening to the unforgiving rain,

Hearing the sounds, feeling the pain.

Why is it harder every day,

Remembering the moment you walked away?

Going through the motions, shutting down,

When all I want to do is let it out.

The day you left drives me insane,

Trying to wrap the idea around my brain.

Why'd you have to go and leave me like that,

Without so much as one glance back?

I saw your eyes; I heard your breath,

I watched until there was nothing left.

You're out of my life, like you wanted to be,

Why is it I can't make you see?

I need you here, in my arms,

Protecting you from any harm.

I saw the way you moved, the tone of your voice,

Suggesting to me I had no choice.

My darkest fears now in light,

Wondering if I should've tried to fight.

The days pass by in a jumbled blur,

My thoughts are cloudy, my words slurred.

Watching you walk was pain that knocked me dead,

And now I can't get it out of my head.

The best days of my life, started with you,

And all the things we promised to do.

Now your gone, my head swims,
why'd you have to go and end it like this?

Remember this, my sweet, you had my heart,
my head, my thoughts, from the start.

And while it may be the end of us,

Never forget I held you close.

I saw your tears, I held you tight,

I stayed with you throughout the night.

You said to me, your deepest fear,

Was watching the end come near.

You made it easy; you didn't wait,

I never got a shot at fate.

Now my heart's in two, my chest aching,

Something deep inside me breaking.

James, my love, you promised me,

We'd always have eternity.

Who knew eternity would come so fast,

Laughing at the fact we didn't last.

I fought long and hard, but could never win,

I watched helplessly as you gave in.

You said goodbye without a backward look,

And every single part of me shook.

Yearning for what I couldn't have,

Knowing you'd never come back.

I saw the signs, I promptly ignored,

I waited patiently while you explored.

We never did seem quite right,

Regardless of that one good night.

I swore to God Almighty above,

That you will be my first and only love.

I miss you James, with all my heart,

And it tears me inside to be apart.

No matter where you are or what you do,

Remember James, my forever, I will always love you.