Title: Memento Mori Remember Mortality (Chapter: 1/??)
Rating: M/NC-17
Category: Drama, Angst, Romance
Pairing: Edward/Bella
Summary: Alice only sees the future. True. Yet, Alice sees the past. It is Bella's future too.
With the Volturi on her mind, a marriage too soon, and a death - her own- to plan. Bella disappears the day before her wedding night. To the past.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, nor the awesomeness of them. They belong to the devilishly deviant mind of Stephenie Meyer.
But, I do own my… my…. well, nothing really.. Lol
A/N: Please, Tell me what you think! My first story here on
Rated M for later chapters!
"Bella?" Alice turned to me. Her spiked pixy hair bounced as she danced over to me and placed her hand on my forehead. "Are you feeling alright? You look pale. Well, paler than the normal albino."
"Yeah, Alice." I practically moaned out the words. That's my joke. "I'm fine."
"In two seconds, Bella, you are going to regretfully retract that statement." Alice mused, thoughtfully.
I groaned. She was right. Never bet against Alice. My head hurt, to say the very least. It pounded, like my brain was trying to force its way out through my eye sockets.
The rehearsal dinner went wonderfully, thanks to Alice. Rosalie attracted much attention, but Emmett's bruit kept the men at bay. For the most part, the night was… entertaining. It was still too much to endure. How could one person go through all this willingly. Still, I promised Edward to marry him before he changed me. I wish it would all hurry up. Human experiences, who wanted those. Not I, not when I can have Edward all to myself.
There was not just the wedding tomorrow to worry about, the Volturi sent a rather unexpected letter to the Cullen address. Very nicely - for the Volturi, as Edward explained, - worded letter ordering my immediate change or death by there hands. Edward surmised that the Cullen family would come into harm with that threat too. All the better reason to change me, I think. Though, Edward does not think so. He sent them back a reply stating the date of our wedding and our plans for the change- well, his plans. He refuses to tell me when and how it shall happen.
With the Volturi, the incident with the new born vampires must have set the thirty year time restriction to one month. Strangely, just enough time to when the wedding was happening. And with all this to prepare, my own death needs to be planned! Preferably one that does not draw too much attention towards the Cullens. Ugh. All this would make anybody's head hurt! "Tylenol? Please, I have a -"
"Bad headache. I know that." Alice finished for me, as I dropped to the couch. I was tired, it was a long day. It is to be expected. Everybody mooning over you and the repetitive questions! How does Rosalie and Emmett do this every 'lifetime'?
"Yeah, you telepathic freak." Alice beamed at me. I smirked back. "Charlie should be back anytime now from the airport with Renée."
Alice sped around in the kitchen and was back. Now, if only Edward was this fast when hunting. Anxious did not even begin to cover what I was feeling when he was away, even for the slightest moment in time. But he wanted to take no chances tomorrow. With Jasper especially. My heart twinged at the thought of Edward. Tomorrow is going to a day to remember. With that thought, the ring on my left hand grew hot around my finger as I thought about it and its meaning. Bound to Edward, eternity. I smiled at the thought of that, as I took the glass of water and medicine from Alice and gulped it down.
"Once I am 'dead,' I will not have to think about stupid headaches anymore." I sighed and waited for the effects of the medicine to take over the pain. Musing over my death, trying to find a way to die without causing too much pain to Renée and Charlie.
"So, how are we going to 'kill' you, Bella? Have you decided yet?"
"No, Alice, I do not know how I am going to 'die.' Perhaps you do?" I closed my eyes at my silliness. Of course Alice will know how I died. Right now I chose to let her choose and that is how I will die. Well, until I change my mind at least.
"In a brilliant plane crash and lots of flames! Of course Edward would have to die with you. That way he does not have to play grieving new husband and we can just easily move out of town. It reminds us too much of you. It will be so great, not even your dental records will identify you!" Alice chimed, grinning with all her razor sharp teeth. Somehow, the smile did not reach her worried eyes. Did something happen in the kitchen? Did Alice see something? Something that was not my fake death?
Before I could open my mouth, a growl emitted out of thin air. Alice giggled and stuck her tongue out at Edward, who swung me into his arms. I swooned at the slight vertigo after-effects of vampire fast movements to a human.
"Edward, not that I personally mind being here in your arms, but I do have a headache. Actually, I can already feel the painkiller high coming on. Just wait until I can start drinking alcohol ." I muttered the last part, as I was set right side up on the couch. "Thank you."
Edward looked at Alice briefly. Something flickered across his face in response to the silent message he received. But, before I could identify it, he carefully composed his features into a mask I knew well. My breath quickened. Relax, the little voice in my head said over and over. It cannot be that bad. We have survived worse -James, almost going crazy and hearing voices, the Volturi, Victoria and new born vampires. What can be worse than all that? Another voice in my head argued. Losing Edward. Again. That shut the first voice up. I swallowed. Edward eyes flicked over to mine.
"I have a way to take Bella off the endangered species list." Edward sullenly spoke and leaned in to hug me "Marry her."
This made me laugh. "Edward, that is not much of a death sentence. Well, I guess it is, in a way. However, it is not a death, if I am living the rest of my li- existence with you." I replied to his dark look.
"I know." Edward was beside me, kissing me. Alice pretended to gag a bit and roll her eyes. "However, Bella, we must wait and sleep."
"You know you cannot sleep. Plus, I told Charlie and Renée I was spending my last night here, while I am still single." I reminded him. His eyes turned mischievous. My eyes narrowed. "Alone."
"I can take a hint. 'Night, Bella." Alice waved and was gone.
Edward looked dejected, if only for a moment. Then, he smiled that same crooked smile that I love. "I love you."
"I love you, too." I smiled back and reached up to embrace him. He complied my wishes with even more and pulled me standing up into his arms. His lips came softly down on mine, dancing in time to some far away music. Then something changed. His movements became more frantic and searching. His lips were more forceful, urgently pressing upon mine. His hands, one at the small of my back and the other twisted in my loose hair, grew desperately tight. I felt a chill upon my spine, creeping low.
"Edward," I breathed, tears welled in my eyes.
"I'm sorry, Bella. That was… stupid, really." Edward held me.
"What's wrong. You never kiss me like that. Except when-" I gasped. I knew that kiss. "No. No, you are not leaving me. Not again. Not like last time. You can't, Edward. You can't!"
I clutched onto Edward, desperate. I could not lose him. Not now. Not when we were to spend the rest of our immortal lives together. He was my everything. I could not go on with out him. And I was not about to prove that again.
"I am never leaving you again, Bella." He agreed. "Never again. That was the most idiotic, childish thing I could have ever done. Just, Bella, promise me something."
"Anything," I vowed, my voice wavered with the tears spilling down my cheeks.
"Never you leave me." He pleaded, desperate. His face close to mine. His eyes soft, molten deep topaz, smoldering. I had no choice but to comply. Alice's face came back to me. Just what had she foreseen?
I grew scared and nodded. "I will," I whispered. "Always, will I stay by your side."
And I meant it. I never wanted to lose him. Nor did I ever intend to.
He seemed to relax a little. Though, just barely.
"Edward, what did Alice see."
"It was nothing. Just potential problems with the plane crashing. Easily taken care of."
"Oh. Ok, then." I was not one hundred percent convinced. Something was nagging at me, telling me that it was not true. I pushed that to the side. Edward was not going to leave me. The wedding is tomorrow. He promised to stay with me. And I believe that he will.
"Bella?" Edward kissed me, softly.
"Yes, Edward?" Breathless, I tried to kiss him again, with no avail. I'll admit, I pouted a little.
"Don't you want to stay human just for a little longer?" His eyes pleaded gently. "Just a few more years?"
"What no, Edward! A few years for me is a long time! It is not as if I can just throw them away." I furrowed my eyebrows. This argument was starting to sound familiar. In a few short moments, Edward will go on about how he is not good enough for me.
"Bella," Edward looked pained. "Don't you want better? Better than me? Better than what I can give you. Or can't?"
"I do not care! Edward, I do not care about any of that! I do not care if you think Mike or Jacob would be better for me. You are what's good for me! Not them. Nor what they can give me. I don't want a 'normal' life. I want you!"
"Bella, love, don't you- don't you want all the human experiences?"
"I can have them all with you. Maybe not right away, but someday. It does not matter when."
"Not all of them. You cannot have all of the human experiences." Edward's topaz eyes were soft, faraway. In his time, he was ready for his life. To marry, work, go to war, have children, all of those things, he was ready for.
I gasped. "Edward, you - you want children, don't you?"
Edward looked at me. The pain evident in his face. For once, I read his mind.
"I mean I am not old enough but it is nice to have the possibility. But, there is no way. We- you can't. Vampire's cannot have children."
"No, I can't. But there are others who can. There are ways nowadays. Bella, think of it -"
"No. Edward, no. If I was to have a child it would be yours." I was firm. There was no way I could sleep with someone else. Or have part someone's child. Not knowing who's it was. With my luck, it would turn out as messed up as me. "Plus, Edward, I cannot become a vampire and a mother all at the same time. What if- if I attacked my own child? Then what?"
"I would not change you then."
"Edward, is this a way to get out of me becoming a vampire. There is no way I am not. I am marrying you tomorrow and you promised. Plus what would the others think? That we are getting married because I am pregnant? No, you heard Charlie. That was the first thing he thought. He could thin we just lied."
"Bella, I do want a child only by you. Think of Esme. She always wanted children. Adopting can only fill the void so much."
"That settles it then. No kids, we can adopt. I like a large family anyways."
"Bella." Edward chuckled.
"Edward," I imitated his stern tone back to him.
"Fine, it is alright. No children. But I am not letting you go ever. That was my mistake."
"What brought all this on?" I asked, reminding me of what started this conversation. The tears started to well in my eyes.
"Nothing, Bella my love. Ah, Charlie and Renée are back." He mused. I pouted.
"Goodnight then, Bella." He reluctantly let me go. "Till morrow, my wife."
The door opened and Charlie and Renée stepped in. Edward was gone. Renée took one look at me and dropped her bags. She ran up to me. "Honey, Bella."
"Marriage is not all that bad!" She misinterpreted my tears, not that I would correct her. "Come now, Bella, you need rest. Tomorrow is a big day, July eighth. You need sleep. Alice'll be over to help you in the morning. God knows, she can help you with this more than I can! She practically planned the whole wedding for us. Not that I did not try."
She lead me up to my room, muttering more reassuring things. I had finally stop crying to placate Renée. I was left alone then. I turned over and stared at the clock by my bedside, too tired to sleep.
Tonight is my last night as human. Edward has never had these human experiences. He wants me to enjoy them, because he could not. He wants children, too. I cannot give him these things. These were my last thoughts before I closed my eyes and drifted asleep.
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When I woke up the next morning, things were not as I expected. I was not where I expected. It was a beautiful sun rise. I was laying in a dirt rode in front of the Cullen house. Although. This house looked different. Newer almost. Suddenly, the front door opened up.
"Excuse me? Are you alright, miss?" Edward asked. "I happened to walk by the window and see you collapse here."
"Yes," I replied, taking the hand he offered to me. Miss? I am Bella. Edward knows that. This was Edward, but not my Edward. This Edward had striking green eyes. Not the liquid topaz I knew. Also this Edward was dressed differently. As if, from 1918 - But no. Still, I had a hunch. "E- sir, I am sorry. I don't- what is the date today."
Edward ran his hand threw his bronze hair and threw me a weary look. "It is July, 8th 1918."
A/N: Please review! This is an idea I had before BD, but I never had a chance to write it. Rated M for scenes coming up! And the Chapters 1/? Just means I do not know how many chapters I will be writing. Many may not be as long as this one! Six pages!
However, this is my first fic! Please treat me kindly! (and I do not mind bad reviews either! They will help me with my writing!) Thanks so much!!
P.S. Yes the tile and chapter titles are in latin.