Sadly, love isn't a decision. Sometimes I really wish it would. But that it's like taking away its unpredictable magic.
I've always been from the ones that never let love in, so I could keep my heart from hurting…But the longer that I lived with this idea, the more I sinked in…
It's a wretched miserable existence when you're in love with someone who doesn't love you back, but I didn't know that… I didn't even know what love was, when all this package of strange emotions hit me like a train out of nowhere.
I just knew that love was something you didn't want from me. So I was forced to remain my heart silent. My feelings were a song that I must struggle not to sing, a music that I must dance without motion, and a poem I must never read out loud.
It was hard for me to accept my feelings toward you, but since then, explaining how much I love you has become too hard, just as hard to explain how water tastes. This makes me believe that when you really love someone, you can't put in words how they make you feel.
The thing that annoys me the most, is that even thought you were hurting me and causing me so much pain, my love for you never stopped, it grew with in each day.
Every time you walked by, I wondered if you could tell that I couldn't breathe
You have no idea how much it hurted when I saw you in the hall, and I had to stop myself from running towards you, and just tell you what I feel.
But love is like that, a constant force driving our actions, wanting to reach out and just touch you, only for an instant, just the slightest brush of my fingertips against your face. Sometimes I think the endless bliss of such a thing would be enough to stop my heart.
And that's the hardest things about unrequited love, being unable to hold in my arms, to send you love letters, being unable to brush that curl of hair back from your face, and to smile at your beauty as I do it.
¿You wonder what's Unrequited Love? Well, unrequited love is, simply put, the illusion we grant ourselves as a reward for rejection.
Unrequited love is the understanding that you need someone almost as badly as life itself, and even when they say "NO", you still need them near you.
Unrequited love is that pain between your stomach and your heart, that painful agony of loving someone who doesn't love you back.
I tried so many times to runaway from that agony, to runaway from that feelings, to runway from you, but I realize that I've never misses anything or anyone so badly in my life. It was like taking away a piece from me. Breathing was getting harder and harder everyday; because the pain I felt with every breath I took proved me I couldn't live without you.
I cried so many nights, because of you, that it's even embarrassing to tell. I went through so many pain, in so little time that now, you've taken all that's left away from me. I don't feel anything, anymore
I'm a waling corpse, because you pushed off the edge so many times that I just couldn't climb back up anymore.