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"The first cut is the deepest."
I always thought they were just cheesy song lyrics but it is completely true because it is a double cut. First of all you have the initial cut of what has been said and then it is deepened by the fact that it came from the one person that you believed, although you told yourself not to, would never hurt you. If anyone said those words you would be hurt but from one person, they literally take your breath away.
If anyone had dared to say it to me, I would have been angry, I would have yelled at them; told them exactly what I thought. But not her. I was in shock that someone I trusted to carry my heart could do that to me. I had just had a marvellous game of chess with the Headmaster, so I was in high spirits. I know most people wouldn't think it of me but I do have a playful side and it wanted to come out on that night. Once I had returned to my room, I sent an owl to Rolanda Hooch. We have been best friends since we were at Hogwarts together. Our journey to become best friends was a battleground. Friends were lost and enemies were made, just ask Sybil Trelawney. My pride, which I value the most, was lost many times but I do believe that when we found each other we were strong enough to last through anything. And we could, our relationship was incredibly resilient. Even Severus Snape thought our friendship was bizarre because we fought on an almost daily basis but then within ten minutes we would be hugging and laughing again. That was until the night she made me completely numb.
I haven't stopped talking to her completely but I am not who I usually am around her because I have been weakened by her lack of faith in me. She didn't mean to hurt me but she told me the one thing that would make me feel guiltier than ever. Yes, that's right, I feel guilty even though she was the one that hurt me. I must say, I do resent that. I know I'll go back to her; I just need to feel myself once more.