Summary: Draco is now going back to school for his "8th" year of Hogwarts. He is fighting the demons of his past and what he did during the war. This will end up having a threesome between harry Draco and Severus!

"Draco!" Narcissi called from bellow the stairs. "Have you gotten your trunk pack the portkey leaves in five minutes."

Draco was in the bathroom a blade pressed against his flesh his veins hurting just waiting for his blood to be spelt out. He hated doing this he never wanted to become a death eater he never wanted this damn war! All he wanted was to die now…..the dreams oh the dreams which haunt him every night as he sleeps. The only on that could ever understand his was Severus…the man that he has come to love.

"SHIT" Draco said rather loudly while he watched the blood run down his arms.

"God fucking damnit…I thought I was over this!" he throws the blade he had been using to create the 5 new cutes that now grace his arm right on his dark mark.

He quickly moped up the blood that had fallen onto the floor he was cursing under his breath. How could he have done this again just think of what mother and Severus would do if they found out…just think of what everyone would do.

"damnit" your already a piece of shit to everyone else but Severus and your mom why am I giving them another reason to pity me and say I'm just wanting attention.

His mother had heard him cursing and had come up to his room. "Draco honey what's wrong" his mother asked very worriedly.

"Shit" Draco said under his breath. "Nothing mother I just dropped some glass on the floor".

Narcissi didn't believe that for once second but wasn't going to say anything about it. "Draco I need you to get out of that bathroom now and come down stairs to leave you're going to miss your portkey and then the train!" she said hurriedly while dragging Draco's trunk down the stairs. "Where's a damn house elf when you need one!"

Draco ran down the stairs and kissed his mother good buy and just got ahold of his trunk when the portkey started to leave making him appear on platform 9 ¾ just on time. Blaise was waiting for him at the train. He hadn't see blaise since the final day of the war. He knew that unlike him blaise was going to be accepted back into Hogwarts with no problems, Draco on the other hand being an ex-death eater and all was going to have some problems.