A big thank you goes to Sandygirl who encouraged me to translate the story from German into English.

The story might be a mass.

Every statement could help to avoid mistakes in the upcoming chapters.

Anyway, I hope you like it either.

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„Why aren't you talking to me?"

Kelly looked at Erin in a concerned way. Lindsay turned her back, unable to speak.

„Erin, we're dating since two years. We share a room together. As soon as it comes to your childhood or teenage years you're completely different. What is it? Don't you trust me anymore?"

Nervously Lindsay touched her own shoulder before she prepared for dinner again.

Nevertheless Severide wouldn't give up. He gently touched her shoulder, only stopped when Erin made her way to the living room.

"I have been honest to you. Always", he insited with a hurt voice. She did a good job to fight back tears.

She had to tell him. He had the right to know.

„Kelly I'm not sure if I really want to talk about it now"

But he didn't care.

„You don't have to be ashamed."

She resignedly rolled her eyes. Now it was there. The moment where she had to stop lying. She had to tell him the truth.

Erin moved to one of the chairs and took place.

„You have to make a promise", she said with a shaky voice. Not able to looked him in the eyes.

Kelly silently nodded.

„Keep it for yourself. I don't want the whole firehouse to know what I have gone through."

He lifted his hands to swear an oath.

Quietly Erin started to speak.

"Voight isn't my real dad. I lived on the street for 4 years before I got to know him. Things were never easy for me."

Kelly looked at his girlfriend, still in a state of shock. He didn't feel it coming. Speechless he took place next to Lindsay.

Erin continued when she noticed his encouragement.

„My mum is a junkie. My Dad is in jail since I know about him. I never got to meet him before.

I started dealing when I was 10. It has been a downhill since then. I started smoking weed, became an addict myself. At the age of 14 I have been arrested for 5 times. Finally my mum got kicked out of therapy after living in different shelter homes. She stopped coming home. After that I was brought into foster care, but I ran away, became a missing kid. I used to sleep under bridges, started stealing, dealing, until I got to meet Voight."

She stared at the ground unable to look at Kelly

„I worked as a CI. Later Voight made a deal with the social worker which allowed me to move to his apartment. He and his wife gave me a home when I was around 16. He treated me hard but it was the best way to get my life straight."

Erins voice started to shake. It was one of the darkest chapters at her life.

She didn't even flinch when Kelly squeezed her hand.

„I became a student at this catholic high school. It was good, until someone found out about my past. It's been like hell on earth. But I ate it , never told Hank about it. I was to proud. I didn't want him to be disappointed. At the age of 20 I started working as a Cop. With the help of Voight contacts I became a member at his unit."

Severide nodded, still looking like someone died in front of him.

„When did you see your mum for the last time?"

Lindsay smiled with a sad look.

„Ten years ago. She slept in front of a Wallmart. I don't know if she's still alive today."

Her eyes filled with tears.

„Without Voight I wouldn't be here."

Kelly stroked her back.

„To me he has been the father I've never had before."

Her voice broke at the end of the sentence.

„A few month ago I met this teenage girl. Her name was Nadia. Streetkid, no home, no place to live. Her arms punctured by needles. Every time I saw her I felt like being 14 again. She seemed like a copy of me. And that hurts, you know?"

She started to cry quietly. Immediately Kelly took her in his arms.

He rocked her like a little girl, while she let her tears flow, crying like she never had before until she was calm enough to reach for a tissue.

"It was hard to grow up like this. I don't want to continue my mums mistakes", she whispered while biting her tongue. Severide looked at her in a way of understandment, still not knowing what she really means.

Erin took a deep breath. It felt like the right time.

Normally she would have told him earlier. But she never passed the defining moment.

"Kelly, I have to tell you something."

Still not knowing about the news Severide got nervous, while she gently stroked his hand.

"I'm pregnant."

Kelly stared at her, made a surprised face, which changed into a bright smile.

"Since when? You're sure?"

"8th week", Erin whispered, while she reached into her pocket to show him the sonographic image before he pulled her closer to back into a passionate kiss.

In spite of her tears she started to smile…