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Summary: Vincent talks to Lucrecia. I wrote this in about 10 minutes.
Vincent's POV
Lucrecia...How many times have I had to block my tears from flowing out of my devilish eyes?
Each time I try to move on, I realize how hard it is. I know what I need to do in order to fully live, but I want you instead. I keep trying to find salvation, but the only thing I find is comfort in beating myself for what I did to you.
...If only you could see what I would have done for you. What would I have done?
...I would have died for you. Instead of being so naive as to fight and stay alive, I should have died. For everything I've done to make you feel the way you did, I should have died. Why didn't I? Maybe I was too selfish as to pray for life. I wanted to be able to see you everyday, but all I did is bring both of our lives into an endless spiral of eternal damnation...
What was it that I fought for? I already lost so much. You, my human form, everything I had hoped for our future. The reason why I fought is still a mystery to me. Still, I failed to make you see how much I would have given up, should have given up instead of living.
I should have made myself die. Instead I put you through the trouble of fighting for my life. Damn it all...
Sometimes I wonder why I'm still alive.
If only you could see that maybe if I had just given up living, you'd be alive. You'd be happy, and you'd be living life to the fullest without me to drag you down.
But now...
You're gone. And I'm forced to live in this hell. I force myself to live through it everyday, thinking there might be a light at the end of the tunnel. But there never was...I don't think there ever will be.
I'm forced to live through my eternal damnation, while you have already lived in yours. What could I have done...?
...I could have died.