A/N I want to thank My best friend Megan, for helping me with this book. I want to tell everyone the pairing will change throught out the book with bella so will everyone stop freaking out!!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in this book they all belong to the Wonderful Stephenie Meyer!
BPOV
Today was like any other normal day. Ever since Edward and I had told Charlie we were engaged to be married, Charlie couldn't help but be happy for Edward and I. I had always thought he hated Edward with a great passion. At certain points he even begged Alice to let him see the plans. I think he had an ulterior motive, just wanting to be around Alice more; he adored her like she was his own daughter.
Edward and I were up in my room, now that Charlie allowed him to be there as long as the door was open. Edward was holding me in the rocking chair in the corner. He was just watching me think, caressing my back. When all of a sudden I could feel a question burning inside him.
"Are you absolutely sure you want to go through with marrying me? Are you sure you can live with me the way I am?" Edward said Of course I could, I loved him. Who else would I want? JACOB! But wait a minute, Jacob did prove that I loved him, I couldn't deny that and Edward also knew. But, why am I all of a sudden second guessing myself now? I'm pushing it a little close to the wedding to second guess. Do I love Edward or Jacob more? Is there another love out there for me? I've been telling myself and everyone around me that I loved Edward unconditionally, and Just Edward. But is there a slight chance I love Jacob just as much, or even more? Maybe, I should just sleep on it.
"Edward, I've told you a million times I love you, and I want to spend the rest of entirety with you, trust me on that, okay?" I wanted it to be the truth I really did.
"Of course Love, I just want you to be absolutely sure." Edward replied I decided it was time I go to bed so I told Edward I was going to take a few human moments and then I would be back out. I went into the bathroom and on the counter was note from Alice.
Dear Bella,
I had the vision. I'll stop planning the wedding until you decide. I just want you to know no matter who you choose I still want to be your friend. The whole family adores you and wouldn't blame you, if you choose Jacob. You are my best friend and I will be there for you no matter who you choose. So don't make your choice because of us but because of whom you love more, Edward or Jacob. Decide who you want to live with for the rest of eternity and I will help plan your wedding if need be.
Love,
Alice
I shook it off and took my shower. Then my mind started wandering uncontrollably. Did Alice know who I was going to choose? Does Edward know I'm second guessing my self? Would Jacob take me if I decided I loved him more? Then I heard Edward ask "Are you ok, love?" I didn't notice I had been in here so long.
"Yeah, I'm okay. One minute and I will be out." I turned off the shower, got dressed into my monkey pajamas, bushed my teeth and hair and then went back to my room. Edward was still sitting in the rocking chair when I entered my room. He ran over to me at vampire speed and carried me bridal style to my bed. He did that almost every night now, he was so ecstatic we were getting married. Then he kissed me goodnight and left so Charlie wouldn't worry. He went home and changed then when he knew Charlie was asleep for the night he came back in through the window. He came in and kissed me goodnight and lay next to me humming my lullaby waiting for me to fall asleep.
EPOV
I went home like any other night. Entered the front door, and saw Alice pacing back and forth in the Living room. I have no idea what she was worried about though because, yet again, she was blocking her thoughts from me, only this time she was singing the sesame street theme song, in her head. I asked her what was wrong, but she wouldn't tell me. I wanted to get back to Bella as soon as possible so I just went upstairs to change my clothes. Then I came back downstairs to see Alice STILL pacing. I just blew it off and went to go stand outside my loves window waiting for Charlie to start snoring. Then it was safe to enter. I climbed up the wall and in the opened window. I went to go kiss my love good night and she was tense but I just blew it off. I lay next to her singing her lullaby waiting for her to start dreaming. She started dreaming, it seemed to be a good dream, so I let her sleep. She started saying HIS name. She said "Jacob...My Jacob...What about Edward..? Tell him... Please Jacob...I want...you..." that's where I got up and went to go sit in the rocking chair. I couldn't stand it. She couldn't mean she wanted Jacob more then me could she?? No it had to mean something else. I started dry sobbing. I had to get out of here, before she woke up! I found a piece of paper and a pen on her desk and started writing. I folded it in half and set it where I usually lye by her.
BPOV
I woke up, and I wasn't cold. I was actually warm. I opened my eyes and stretched. I looked over to where Edward is usually laying when I wake up, and all I saw was a note, addressed to me. Dear Bella,
I love you! I don't want to stand in the way of you and Jacob If you want to talk either come by or leave the window open!
Your love,
E. Cullen What? What was he talking about? Why would I Oh shit! I must have been talking in my sleep again! What could he have heard? Did I say too much? I must have talked about Jacob. But what did I say?
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