'Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice, shame on you.' She thought bitterly.
Once again, she had been a victim of the most self-absorbed man she thought she loved.
Her thoughts plagued with his memory. Happier times. When they were still one.
'Just you and me against the world. Once upon a time.' Her tears threatened to spill.
She didn't want to remember or reminisce, her heart would long and then hope would begin to build and her heart would be crushed again. No. It was too much pain for her.
She couldn't go through it. Not again.
"Kagome. Kagome! Earth to Kagome!" Sango yelled. "Anyone there? Knock knock."
Kagome snapped out of her trance and looked up at her best friend staring at her.
"Huh? Sorry. I was just thinking. So where we going after this?" she tried her best to force a smile.
"You sure you're alright? Well…if you're up for it. We can do a bit of shopping and maybe catch a movie and head to a bar or club after?" Sango looked unsure.
"Yeah. Sounds great. Do we need to change for the club though?" Kagome bit her lip, it was a habit she didn't know she even had.
"Of course we do! We have to look our best!" Rin giggled. "We want all eyes on you!"
"Let's start by shopping for a new outfit for you, something that says I'm hot and you wish I was yours." Sango grinned. Shopping was her thing.
"Yeah sure, let's go." Kagome couldn't disagree, not when she could see her friends trying so hard to distract her from her own mind.
'I feel so alone. I'm never someone's priority. Forever their option. Sango has Miroku and Rin has Sesshomaru. They have their own lives to lead. Who do I have to be there for me when I just want a hug?' Kagome sighed.
Two hours later, Sango had found the perfect dress for Kagome, a dark blue halter neck. It was beautiful. Held together with a diamante encrusted snake just between the breasts, the material flowed down just above her knees. Kagome had tried it on and she couldn't believe her eyes. It really was the perfect dress from top to bottom; all she needed now was the heels to match.
"Damn Kagome! You look so hot! All eyes had better be on you tonight!" Rin squealed happily.
"Let's skip the movie and hit the bar first." Sango suggested. "We have to pick up your heels first and look all sexy for the club anyway."
"Alright, hi ho hi ho it's off to home we go!" Kagome sang.
"Bit more chirpy now aren't you?" Sango smiled.
"Well, how could I not be all crazy and hyper around you two?!" Kagome joked.
'Weird. I'm suddenly so hyped up to go out. Probably just those two's influence.'
Later, at the club.
"Hey let's go dance! I think we've had enough to drink girls." Sango downed her shots quickly.
"Alright alright! I'm going! Where's the floor?" Kagome snapped back.
"Woah. Calm down Kagome, do you want to drink more?" Rin looked shocked.
"Oh fuck. Shit. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you guys." Kagome felt hot. Too hot.
"Come on, let's dance this alcohol away." Sango wasn't fazed by Kagome's moment of anger. 'Probably just the drinks talking.' She thought.
10 minutes later.
"Wheeeeeee! Let's bring the house down! Ooooh baby I like it when you touch me there-e-ere." Kagome was on cloud nine and it seemed like nothing could bring her out of her elated mood.
'If only he was here, I would fuck his brains out right on this dance floor. Oh. He's with her now. I forgot.'
Kagome stopped moving her hips and made her way back to the bar.
"Hey, can I get 3 shots of vodka please?"
She looked onto the dance floor; it was just a blur of lights and limbs. None were her silver haired saviour. None were him.
The bartender gave her the shots. She downed them all, one after another. Her misery was slowly seeping into her mind and body again. Her body sagged, leaning against the bar; she tried hopelessly to keep herself up.
"That'll be £15 please miss." The bartender flashed her a huge smile.
Kagome reached into her bra and handed him a twenty. She was about to tell him to keep the change when her phone buzzed.
"WHERE ARE YOU?! I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR YOU FOR THE PAST 20 MINUTES!" Sango was livid.
Kagome hung up. She stumbled out the club to get some fresh air.
'What am I doing here? There's no one like him. At least no one that knows me like he does.'
She was wallowing again. She hated this feeling. So desolate. So alone. So empty.
'He abandoned me. I'm such a mess without him.' She let the tears flow this time. They started out slow but soon were in full flow.
Sango and Rin finally found her, crouched in a corner looking as shattered as she felt inside.
"She's still broken." Sango whispered.