This is the first in my "Golden Oldies" series – A group of episode based
stories that are based on episodes from the early seasons of the show
they're about.
This story popped into my head after watching "Nothing to Fear" (first season) on DVD. A word of warning – if you haven't seen this episode, then some of this story might not make sense...regardless, enjoy! This begins just after the end of NtF, I guess within a few days or so.
Disclaimer: As I've seen on other writers' disclaimers, 'if it's on the show, then it's not mine'. Although I have to admit I wouldn't say no if you offered! ;-D
CHAPTER ONE:
Emma's point of view: It's weird. I know in my head that it wasn't Brennan who threatened me, but Henry Voight, but every time I look at him, I see that moment – the scowl on his face, the demeaning tone of voice...Ugh...
I can tell that he's noticed my attitude towards him. Every now and then, I'll catch him looking at me with the strangest look on his face, kind of a cross between confused, hurt and angry. I so wish I could tell him what's going on, why I'm so tense around him...I know if I do, though, he'll go on a major guilt trip about something that was totally not his fault. I don't think I could do that to him. Cause him that much pain.
A soft voice interrupts my thoughts – "Emma? You in there? It's just dinner's ready and everyone's waiting for you...you haven't come out of your room for ages, not since Hen- well, not for a while. What do you say? Come and eat with us, please!" I know he's right. In my quest to avoid him, I've ended up avoiding everyone. Adam picked up straight away on my behaviour, probably because he's the only one of all of them who knows what happened. I doubt somehow that Shal and Jesse don't see it. He's such an innocent spirit he probably thinks he's the one who's done something wrong. Shal...Shal probably thinks Henry's powers affected me more than them. Being a psionic and all that jazz.
The voice is back: "C'mon Em, you know you gotta come eat eventually...Look, if it's 'cause I'm there, then...I dunno, I'll go eat somewhere else or something! Please? For us?" Yet again, he's right, but still I find myself refusing, telling him that I'll "grab something later", that they "shouldn't worry, I'm fine" Even as I say the words, my mind tells me I'm lying, that I can't go on like this forever.
Brennan's point of view: Realising that there's no way she's coming out of that room, especially whilst I'm standing by the door; I begin to head back to the kitchen. I hate this! I hate it so damn much! I don't even know what I've done to her. It must be pretty bad – I caught her looking at me once just after Adam woke up like I'd just attacked her or something. God! I'd give anything to know what I'd done. At least then, I could try to fix it, or at least apologise! I'm so confused I've even started to wonder if she's sensed the change in my feelings towards her...I had an awful moment when she gave me that look where I thought that she'd sensed some of my *ahem*, less angelic thoughts about her.
As I reach the doorway, the others all look up, to see if I've brought her with me. The instant disappointment on their faces when they see that I'm alone just serves to make me feel even worse, like just Brennan on his own isn't good enough. I know that's not the reason, but Emma's behaviour has me so...so...argh! I don't even know anymore!
"Maybe if I go and talk to her...?" Sweet, sweet Jesse. Sometimes I forget how protected and sheltered his upbringing was, and get caught unawares by his innocence and naïveté all over again. I almost wish I could have some of that. Maybe life wouldn't seem to complicated...
"No, she's made it clear that she needs some time alone, so I think the best thing we can do is give it to her. We can always leave a plate of food in the fridge for her to come and get later" Trust Adam to be the voice of reason.
"Yeah," I find myself saying "she said she would grab herself something later." Way to go Brennan, now you sound like you haven't noticed what's happening! Forget this, I think as I head over to the table and start filling my plate with food.
This story popped into my head after watching "Nothing to Fear" (first season) on DVD. A word of warning – if you haven't seen this episode, then some of this story might not make sense...regardless, enjoy! This begins just after the end of NtF, I guess within a few days or so.
Disclaimer: As I've seen on other writers' disclaimers, 'if it's on the show, then it's not mine'. Although I have to admit I wouldn't say no if you offered! ;-D
CHAPTER ONE:
Emma's point of view: It's weird. I know in my head that it wasn't Brennan who threatened me, but Henry Voight, but every time I look at him, I see that moment – the scowl on his face, the demeaning tone of voice...Ugh...
I can tell that he's noticed my attitude towards him. Every now and then, I'll catch him looking at me with the strangest look on his face, kind of a cross between confused, hurt and angry. I so wish I could tell him what's going on, why I'm so tense around him...I know if I do, though, he'll go on a major guilt trip about something that was totally not his fault. I don't think I could do that to him. Cause him that much pain.
A soft voice interrupts my thoughts – "Emma? You in there? It's just dinner's ready and everyone's waiting for you...you haven't come out of your room for ages, not since Hen- well, not for a while. What do you say? Come and eat with us, please!" I know he's right. In my quest to avoid him, I've ended up avoiding everyone. Adam picked up straight away on my behaviour, probably because he's the only one of all of them who knows what happened. I doubt somehow that Shal and Jesse don't see it. He's such an innocent spirit he probably thinks he's the one who's done something wrong. Shal...Shal probably thinks Henry's powers affected me more than them. Being a psionic and all that jazz.
The voice is back: "C'mon Em, you know you gotta come eat eventually...Look, if it's 'cause I'm there, then...I dunno, I'll go eat somewhere else or something! Please? For us?" Yet again, he's right, but still I find myself refusing, telling him that I'll "grab something later", that they "shouldn't worry, I'm fine" Even as I say the words, my mind tells me I'm lying, that I can't go on like this forever.
Brennan's point of view: Realising that there's no way she's coming out of that room, especially whilst I'm standing by the door; I begin to head back to the kitchen. I hate this! I hate it so damn much! I don't even know what I've done to her. It must be pretty bad – I caught her looking at me once just after Adam woke up like I'd just attacked her or something. God! I'd give anything to know what I'd done. At least then, I could try to fix it, or at least apologise! I'm so confused I've even started to wonder if she's sensed the change in my feelings towards her...I had an awful moment when she gave me that look where I thought that she'd sensed some of my *ahem*, less angelic thoughts about her.
As I reach the doorway, the others all look up, to see if I've brought her with me. The instant disappointment on their faces when they see that I'm alone just serves to make me feel even worse, like just Brennan on his own isn't good enough. I know that's not the reason, but Emma's behaviour has me so...so...argh! I don't even know anymore!
"Maybe if I go and talk to her...?" Sweet, sweet Jesse. Sometimes I forget how protected and sheltered his upbringing was, and get caught unawares by his innocence and naïveté all over again. I almost wish I could have some of that. Maybe life wouldn't seem to complicated...
"No, she's made it clear that she needs some time alone, so I think the best thing we can do is give it to her. We can always leave a plate of food in the fridge for her to come and get later" Trust Adam to be the voice of reason.
"Yeah," I find myself saying "she said she would grab herself something later." Way to go Brennan, now you sound like you haven't noticed what's happening! Forget this, I think as I head over to the table and start filling my plate with food.