My Greatest Fear
The fear of losing you to the darkness. When there is so much light.
The fear of regretting every decision I ever made. Because it lead me to losing you.
The fear of my whole world collapsing. Because you were my Atlas.
The fear of being another love and loss story. Without the full experience of love.
The fear of missing the little things. Because those made you, you.
The fear of walking away now knowing there will never be a yes, or even a maybe. So the only option we have left is never.
The fear of seeing you turn your back. When you said you never would.
The fear of dark and nightmares that will now haunt me. Because you were the light within my heart.
The fear of never knowing what could have been. When we had so much time.
The fear of knowing I'm alone and cold. Because it was your presence that warmed me.
The fear of knowing that without you there is no me. And knowing it is the same for you.
The fear of realizing you still hold onto a piece of me from wherever you are. Even if you're next to the moon.
The fear of seeing you for the very last time; and how much things have changed since the first. Because we grew together as one.
The fear runs deep inside me that we are an, us without being an us. Because you own my heart like no one else can.
The fear of knowing you've borrowed a piece of my soul. Never to be returned.
Is Not scarier than knowing, feeling, and experiencing your love.
…and that is my greatest fear.