Relena sat alone on the sandy beach. Days like this always reminded her of Heero. The breeze softly caressing her skin and causing little tangles in her hair. The sun shone brightly, as it always did, except clouds had caused the sunshine to dim. Funny how the weather described such a person so perfectly. Heero was sometimes the best thing to run into her life and sometimes it was that pain she wanted so much to forget.
"Sit still, take a trip into my eyes
You're unstable still to my surprise
Be honest but never catch my lies
Don't say you're the one who always tries'"
She had gotten on with her life. If that's what you would call it. Relena had a wonderful new boyfriend and continued to live her life the way it was before. Life was kind to her after Heero had abruptly departed. Edward, her boyfriend, was sweet and very kind to her and she cared very much about him. Her friends were still the same they had been before; sometimes annoying but stuck by Relena. Yes, life was grand.
But the name Heero still cause a knot in her stomach. Then again nearly everything reminded her of Heero and Relena forever had knots in her stomach. It was years since Heero left her and yet feelings never really changed. From a distance it was almost like she had gotten on with her life but to her she had lost her life. 'Oh Heero see what've you've done to me.'
"Now my visions gone to hell
I keep it in a box... with my memories
Don't bother with me... I can't take it
I'll be on the road with less a load
You're feeling used..... a little bit confused"
Standing up Relena brushed away the sand that had gotten on her. She walked towards the ocean and dipped her feet into the water. The icy temperature caused her to gasp but she didn't draw her feet away. After a while Relena would get used to the cold, like she did with losing Heero. Relena had grown accustomed to the lonely days and tears. But she had also learned to laugh and love. Perhaps Relena did love Edward.
"Ready to go Relena?" Edward called out to her.
"Almost," She replied and put on her sandles.
Relena did love Edward, but not the same way she loved Heero. Somehow Heero remained locked up in her heart, no matter how much she tried to leave him behind. But Relena learned to hide these things. She had a life, and Heero was in the past.
"And don't say...
Really are you in this
'cause I can feel you pulling away
Not to mention all the things you'd never say"
Closing the door to her apartment Relena staggered to her favorite chair and turned on the TV. Large spacious mansions didn't suit her anymore and she had excused Pagen from his "duties" of tending to her every need. Things had changed. She thought about Edward and how wonderful he had been to her lately. But everytime she thought about Edward, Heero came into view. She thought of what'd she say to Heero when she'd see him, if he'd ever come back at all. The last Relena heard of him was from Quatre who said he had left to some private place and didn't want to be disturbed. This was quite obvious and didn't serve as much of a use.
A loud knock came from her door startling her. Whoever this person was sure didn't like waiting. "I'm coming!" She yelped getting up from her chair. Relena opened the door to find a strangely familiar face.
"Heero?"
Heero stepped in her apartment with no resistance from Relena. He had startled her all right if not scared the living daylights from her. His hair remained windblown and unruly and his azure eyes remained cold and distant. But he had also grown taller and switched to jeans instead of spandex shorts. "Relena."
"What are you doing here?" Relena managed to choke out.
"I came to visit. Quatre gave me the address. I hope you don't mind."
'No come right in and smash my heart into tiny pieces like before.' Relena thought. "No I don't mind."
Heero ignored the forged smile she had given him. Relena sure had changed. No more pink and those annoying two bits of hair tied in the back. Instead Relena was replaced with a young woman in a bun, worn shorts and a weary smile. He walked into what he suspected to be the living room and sat down on the couch. Relena dazedly followed suit and sat in a different chair.
"So how have you been Relena?"
"Okay, and you?"
"I've seen better days."
"Is that so?"
Heero watched as Relena stared thoughtfully out the window. This mindless chitchat bothered him. He wanted to kiss her and apologize for every stupid thing he had done, not talk like idiots acting as if nothing had happened. Relena raised an eyebrow at Heero as she caught Heero looking at her.
"Relena I love you." He stammered.
"More than a little bit confused about this 'n that
Can I have back all the things we lose
I wish it were that simple, yeah I really do
I'll be on the road with less a load
You're feeling used again"
"You love me?" Relena repeated in disbelief.
"Yes and I'm sorry for what I did to you. I really am."
Relena remained silent. Heero loved him? This wasn't exactly what she needed. She was perfectly fine secretly loving him from a distance. But now Heero was only a few feet away from her and just admitted that he loved her.
"You can't love me, you can't!"
"Why? I thought you loved me."
"Oh Heero I don't understand you! You abandon me and hurt me terribly and just when I've finally gotten on with my life you barge in here and tell me that you love me."
"You've gotten on with you life."
"Barely. But why can't you just leave me alone! Can't you see I'm trying to get over you! I hate you so much! I hate myself for loving you! I can't believe---"
Before Relena could continue Heero gently pressed his lips over hers. The kiss caused Relena to gasp but she made no objection and put her arms around his neck. Relena ignored the phone and let the machine get it. Her knees had already turned to jello there was no use in attempting to walk over and pick it up.
"Sweetie, it's me Edward."
To be continued…
The song's called "Are You In This." By Stroke 9, one of my favorite bands.
"Sit still, take a trip into my eyes
You're unstable still to my surprise
Be honest but never catch my lies
Don't say you're the one who always tries'"
She had gotten on with her life. If that's what you would call it. Relena had a wonderful new boyfriend and continued to live her life the way it was before. Life was kind to her after Heero had abruptly departed. Edward, her boyfriend, was sweet and very kind to her and she cared very much about him. Her friends were still the same they had been before; sometimes annoying but stuck by Relena. Yes, life was grand.
But the name Heero still cause a knot in her stomach. Then again nearly everything reminded her of Heero and Relena forever had knots in her stomach. It was years since Heero left her and yet feelings never really changed. From a distance it was almost like she had gotten on with her life but to her she had lost her life. 'Oh Heero see what've you've done to me.'
"Now my visions gone to hell
I keep it in a box... with my memories
Don't bother with me... I can't take it
I'll be on the road with less a load
You're feeling used..... a little bit confused"
Standing up Relena brushed away the sand that had gotten on her. She walked towards the ocean and dipped her feet into the water. The icy temperature caused her to gasp but she didn't draw her feet away. After a while Relena would get used to the cold, like she did with losing Heero. Relena had grown accustomed to the lonely days and tears. But she had also learned to laugh and love. Perhaps Relena did love Edward.
"Ready to go Relena?" Edward called out to her.
"Almost," She replied and put on her sandles.
Relena did love Edward, but not the same way she loved Heero. Somehow Heero remained locked up in her heart, no matter how much she tried to leave him behind. But Relena learned to hide these things. She had a life, and Heero was in the past.
"And don't say...
Really are you in this
'cause I can feel you pulling away
Not to mention all the things you'd never say"
Closing the door to her apartment Relena staggered to her favorite chair and turned on the TV. Large spacious mansions didn't suit her anymore and she had excused Pagen from his "duties" of tending to her every need. Things had changed. She thought about Edward and how wonderful he had been to her lately. But everytime she thought about Edward, Heero came into view. She thought of what'd she say to Heero when she'd see him, if he'd ever come back at all. The last Relena heard of him was from Quatre who said he had left to some private place and didn't want to be disturbed. This was quite obvious and didn't serve as much of a use.
A loud knock came from her door startling her. Whoever this person was sure didn't like waiting. "I'm coming!" She yelped getting up from her chair. Relena opened the door to find a strangely familiar face.
"Heero?"
Heero stepped in her apartment with no resistance from Relena. He had startled her all right if not scared the living daylights from her. His hair remained windblown and unruly and his azure eyes remained cold and distant. But he had also grown taller and switched to jeans instead of spandex shorts. "Relena."
"What are you doing here?" Relena managed to choke out.
"I came to visit. Quatre gave me the address. I hope you don't mind."
'No come right in and smash my heart into tiny pieces like before.' Relena thought. "No I don't mind."
Heero ignored the forged smile she had given him. Relena sure had changed. No more pink and those annoying two bits of hair tied in the back. Instead Relena was replaced with a young woman in a bun, worn shorts and a weary smile. He walked into what he suspected to be the living room and sat down on the couch. Relena dazedly followed suit and sat in a different chair.
"So how have you been Relena?"
"Okay, and you?"
"I've seen better days."
"Is that so?"
Heero watched as Relena stared thoughtfully out the window. This mindless chitchat bothered him. He wanted to kiss her and apologize for every stupid thing he had done, not talk like idiots acting as if nothing had happened. Relena raised an eyebrow at Heero as she caught Heero looking at her.
"Relena I love you." He stammered.
"More than a little bit confused about this 'n that
Can I have back all the things we lose
I wish it were that simple, yeah I really do
I'll be on the road with less a load
You're feeling used again"
"You love me?" Relena repeated in disbelief.
"Yes and I'm sorry for what I did to you. I really am."
Relena remained silent. Heero loved him? This wasn't exactly what she needed. She was perfectly fine secretly loving him from a distance. But now Heero was only a few feet away from her and just admitted that he loved her.
"You can't love me, you can't!"
"Why? I thought you loved me."
"Oh Heero I don't understand you! You abandon me and hurt me terribly and just when I've finally gotten on with my life you barge in here and tell me that you love me."
"You've gotten on with you life."
"Barely. But why can't you just leave me alone! Can't you see I'm trying to get over you! I hate you so much! I hate myself for loving you! I can't believe---"
Before Relena could continue Heero gently pressed his lips over hers. The kiss caused Relena to gasp but she made no objection and put her arms around his neck. Relena ignored the phone and let the machine get it. Her knees had already turned to jello there was no use in attempting to walk over and pick it up.
"Sweetie, it's me Edward."
To be continued…
The song's called "Are You In This." By Stroke 9, one of my favorite bands.