ok ppl that love yaoi and smut! i have doughts about this story but im goin to try my best ok? Muh Friend Inukitsy (chelsea) helped me write this...wait she is muh BEST-friend!!!! well this story paring is with Ichigo Kuorosaki and Uryuu Ishida (sp) yes muh spelling sucks, but hey thats why we have 'spell check'! woot woot! i don't kno how long this will be but i can try to make it all worth your while! The characters maybe OOC because helloooo?! their gay?!
P.S. sorry if my grammar is bad or anything else, i was in a hurry.
diclaimer: don't own, because if i did most ppl wouldn't enjoy what i would do the characters...:::grins Evilly:::...
rating: M like always and there might be lemons in the next few chapters.
I Am EMOtioanlly Unstable (you'll see why i called it this in the next few chapters!)
ch. 1
-Telling Him...-
-Uryuu's P.O.V.-
Why? Why does it have to be so hard? Why do I Always have these feelings for HIM?! It kills me to think that he will never retun them...not even think twice about it...not even think about me...i don't want to think about him. it hurts to...love him the way i do then realize he doesn't even...care. But i don't know if he cares though he'll problablly hit me if i tell him, so whats the point? i don't want to be around him, not because i don't want to, just cause i can't stand not being able to love him.
Ichigo...
Uryuu sat quietly on his bed in the corner thinking of a way to tell ichigo that he loved loved him. no there was no way to tell him. Ichgo was the straightest guy he had ever seen. Ichigo didn't look like the gay type. but Uryuu couldn't get over him. Uryuu didn't even know why he liked Ichigo, he was obnoxis and irittating!! Maybe because of how he grabbed Uryuu by the wrist when he called him thoese things and right before he was about to hit him, he didn't, he just let out a sigh and let him go, that was when Uryuu fell in love with Ichigo, never did he know that would happen. Uryuu shut his eyes tight and tried to reppress a tear from comming out. He couldn't cry. He slamed his fist against the wall with a loud 'thud'. Why did it have to be him? He was tired of these feelings that he knew would never be returned no matter how hard he wished for it.
Silently Uryuu stood walking to a small desk in his room and pulled open a box on top of it. In it where several sharp objects folded neatly into a bandanna. Right as he rose one of the blades to his wrist, there was a sharp hallow cry fairly close to his house. Hoping to get a glimpse of Ichigo he ran out ready for battle. As the soul reaper aproached the Quincy threw the same insults at him like always as to hide his feelings as he shot at the hallow. Only thing wrong was the hallow didnt go down. Uryuu shot a few more arrows only to be dissapointed as nothing seemed to hurt it.
"IDIOT!! MOVE!!" a sudden force against Uryuu's body pushed him outta the way as the hallow swung a heavy paw at him.
When he got himself together he realized that force had been Ichigo. Who was now on the ground bleeding heavily. He felt tears threaten to come as he ran to the dieng soul reaper.
"IDIOT!! I DIDN'T ASK FOR YOUR HELP, NOW YOUR DYING!!(sp)" Uryuu cried onto Ichigo's robe(ok i don't know what they call his robe thingy!!!).
"Yo..your heavy uryuu...get...off" Ichigo demanded as he coughed up blood.
"I HATE YOU!! YOU CAN'T DIE!! YOU CAN'T!! I LOVE YOU ICHIGO!!" Uryuu cried harder as he felt Ichigo's body go frigid.
Pissed and filled with sorrow He stood facing the hallow and with a single blow shot it down. Then nothing everything went black and he was warm and content.
"Should you at least try to wake him up?"
"Tsh he's fine if you hadn't nocked him out he'd be dandy"
"Well it was nock him out or let him run around crying like a baby and most likely trying to give you a funeral when I have it under control"
"Psh whatever..."
Uryuu heard these voices as he started to come to. He rose up startled. Ichigo was dead wasn't he? Then how come he had heard his voice? He turned to face a bored looking Rukia.
"Bout time you woke up"
"What happened to Ichigo?"
"Hmm? Oh I used a healing potion before he died all the way."
Uryuu sighed in relief but quickly became flustered as he remebered what he had confessed to the dying boy when he was on the verge of death. He quickly stood as he left without a word to head home. What was he supposed to do now? His secret love was exposed and surely Ichigo was disgusted in him. No way would it be any other way. He could probably avoid him for a while I mean the other boy would be glad to have distance from him correct?
As he reached his house he noticed the front door was open panicked he walked in grabbing an unbrella as protection totally forgetting he was a quincy. He lurked around his own house carefully looking for anything gone or any traces of anyone still there. Which sadly he found muddy shoe prints heading towards his room. As he drew closer to his open door to his room he raised the umbrella over his head.
"He-" Uryuu swung forcefully down where he head the voice of the intruder which sounded alot like...
"ICHIGO!!"
"WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR!! THAT HURT LIKE HELL!!" Ichigo cried rubbing his head and glaring at the shorter boy.
(lets pretend he's shorter.)
"WHAT KIND OF PERSON ENTERS SOMEONES HOUSE WITHOUT PERMISSION YOU THEIF!!"
"I WAS JUST HEAR TO GET YOU SOME MORE CLOTHES BECAUSE RUKIA TOLD ME TOO!!"
Quieted by this he dropped the umbrella quietly apologizing.
"Well thanks but as you can see I'm fine and well you can leave now"
"Nuh-uh I'm not done here. I need to ask you something. I'm pretty sure I distinctivly(sp) heard you pronounce your love for me when I was dying." Ichigo raised his eyebrows.
"Y-You must have heard wrong!"
"Then how come your getting all defensive?"
"I-I'M NOT BEING DEFENSIVE THATS JUST ABSURD!?" Uryuu tried to redeam his pride as to making it all seem like a dream.
"That's to bad..." Ichigo said backing Uryuu into a wall as he slammed his hands beside his head to block him from escaping.
"Because I was fully ready to accept that with a few problems to work out but still." he said smirking and leaning in till his nose touched the flustered boy's nose.
Uryuu corned like a rat was frantically racing through his mind trying to figure out how he could get out of this. This was most likely a trap and a way to embarress the quincy as payback for Ichigo's near death that had to be it.
"well?" came a hot breathed purr into the quincy's ear.
Closing his eyes while trying to ignore the stirring in his stomach Uryuu replied with a studdered breath.
"I-Ichigo p-please just l-leave..."
"Why? I want you..Uryuu" Ichigo wispered into his ear.
He let his hands down from beside Uryuu's head to rest onto the raven-haired boy's hips, then wrap around the sleek back to give embrace.
"Is he hugging me? Does Ichigo Kurosaki really want me?
The person I have dreamed about for the longest time is doing this?!Am I dreaming, too?!
Uryuu, though shocked as he was, too, hugged back. Ichigo felt the warm response(sp?)
from Uryuu , then let go to look at him. They stood wraped up in each others arms, staring into the others eyes
in silence for some time untill the quiet air was broke.
"Uryuu..tell me...tell me you love me..." Ichigo pleaded to Uryuu. Ishida couldn't deny his feelings any longer.
"Ichigo...I love you..." At that, the small distance between the Quincy and shinigami closed as their lips met.
The kiss was tender and passionate, loving in a way.
Uryruu couldm't belive that telling some one you loved them could lead to this?! That wasn't hard, now was it?!
Sooo yea that was the first Chapter?! I guess i didn't end it too early...right?! well i like the story how it is so you'll have to deal with it. Also Inukitsy (Chealsea) hepled me ALOt on this cause i coulnd't fiure outa way for them to ya know...the sappy love stuff...BEFORE THE SMEX!!! gawd you ppl just want them to do it right then and there...don't you? yes im right and i would love for them to do it too, but you'll have to wait till i update, kay?! pwease don't get mad
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REVIEWS ARE WELCOME!!! ( if you write me just to bitch then fu-- off! kay!) constructive criticizm(sp) is fairly ok.