Title: She Never Thought

Rating: Teen

Pairing: Ben/Adrian

Warnings: There will be real life issues in coming chapters.

Disclaimer: Am I Brenda Hampton? No. I do not own the characters, just the plot.

Summary: She never thought she would EVER let this happen. Be this stupid. Takes place in season two. Adrian must deal ride an emotional rollercoaster. Love, hurt, loss, trust, hope, family, comfort and dealing with life as a teenage mother.

A/N: Hey readers! I slightly revised the chapters, so forgive me if there is any mistakes. This story is not beta'd. Thank you for supporting me! OX.

No one starts a war- or rather, no one in his sense

ought to do so-without first being clear in his mind

what he intends to achieve by that war and how he

intends to conduct it.

CARL VON CLAUSEWITZ, Von Kriege

Chapter 1.

Mistakes

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Adrian Lee lay sleeping uneasily in her all too dark room. She finally stopped crying for the first time all day, when she finally fell sleep. She felt bad for sleeping with Ben. She had never felt so guilty in her entire life; not because she had sex but because she had it for all the wrong reasons…revenge.

The images of Ricky's face when she told him her horrifying secret kept repeating themselves in her mind, but what was hurting the most was the fact that Ricky left. She felt terrible about what happened, but deep down inside of her she knew it was for the best.

Ricky would come back and they would try to work it out if he was willing too, but she knew he would need time. It might even take more time then she wants to sort everything out.

The next morning she awoke to the sounds of her bedroom door being opened. Just when she thought her life couldn't get any worse, her dad uttered the words " I know about you and Ben.."

She wanted to run out screaming or just hide under the covers but she knew she had to take responsibility for her childish mistake and take ownership. She took a deep breath.

"I deeply regret it dad."

She could tell he believed her just by the look in his eyes. She wondered exactly what her dad thought of her. What he really thought and what he would never say to her face. "Adrian, I know you regret it but what's done is done. Nothing can change that. You have to take the consequences of your mistake. Revenge is never the answer and for you to stoop to that level Adrian is unacceptable. Imagine how Ricky feels…he opened himself up to you, he finally accepted the fact that you loved him and he loves you, but you went and stomped on his heart and possibly ruined a lot for yourself. I will always love you and never forget that. I will never judge you Adrian I just think you should have talked to him instead of trying to even the score. I love you Adrian and so does your mother and we're worried about you. Now I'll leave you alone so you can think and sort out everything. I'm going to the store…. Talk to you later."

He smiled and shut her door. She let go of a breath she never even knew she was holding. When she heard the downstairs door shut it was followed by silence so she finally knew she was home alone. She sighed and pulled herself out of bed to get something to eat and to take a shower.

She walked downstairs to find a note from Grace hanging from the door.

Adrian, I knew you wouldn't want to see anyone right now..

I definitely know you wouldn't want to see me after last night

and I'm deeply sorry.

Forgive me and call me sometime soon .

Love, Grace.

Adrian couldn't help but smile from the one thing that made her day. She put down the note and made herself a fast grilled cheese. After practically inhaling it from starvation because she didn't eat since yesterday morning, she dragged herself up the stairs and took a long, hot shower. The warm water hitting her skin made her feel more awake and energetic.

When she got out of the shower, she got dressed in jeans and a white tight sweater and made her way over to Grace's house. She knocked three times before being greeted by Mrs. Bowman.

"Hi Mrs. Bowman! Is Grace around?" Kathy smiled at Adrian's uplifted mood. She noticed something was wrong yesterday and after what Grace told her she finally knew why.

"I'm sorry Adrian. She just went shopping for a bit. I'll let her know you stopped by. Take care of yourself Adrian." Adrian couldn't help but smile, of course Grace told her about Ben.

Adrian walked out to the driveway and wished she would have brought her car…it was a long walk though she needed it to clear her head. As she walked, she kept thinking about her childish mistake. She listened to her father earlier and actually felt better about his words and worse at the same time. She kept telling herself it was a mistake and everyone will move on but she knew that wasn't true.

When she got home she saw her mom on the couch. She had a certain look on her face Adrian couldn't put her finger on. It showed mixed emotions. She looked mad yet disappointed with just a hint of confusion. She didn't want to deal with her right now and by the way she looked at Adrian, she could see it on her face she didn't want to talk.

She skipped right past her mom and jogged up the stairs. She finally made it to her room without being talked to which she was grateful for. She couldn't ask for better parents.

She closed her curtains and put on her sweat pants and tank top then tied her hair in a messy pony tale. She grabbed her book and crawled into bed turning on the lamp. She only read the first couple pages when she started playing the night she slept with Ben in her head. It made her sick thinking of it, but she felt she missed something important about that night.

Then it came into her mind…. she never used protection.

Cliffy? Yes. A little bit better? I hope so. (I wish I could have changed down I ended it to be truthfully honest, it does seem far fetched but I cannot change it now. I'm simply revising it a little bit.

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