Disclaimer: I don't own FFVII not even its character, and also I don't own the lyrics of the song

Chapter 1: TIFA'S CONFESSION

As Tifa walks into her room, the radio caught her eyes, and without even thinking of what she was doing, she put a tape and started recording these words.

--- Hi...Um...Well... Honestly speaking I don't know what the hell came into my mind, that I started doing this thing. I know it's very corny but you can't blame me, I just wake up and finally found the courage to do this, I don't even really know what would I say to you, I don't even know where should I start... Okay, straight to the point "I'm leaving" I know it will meant nothing to you, all you know is that I'll be back... it doesn't matter to you if I leave, right?

Well, I think the day came that reality finally hit me... all along I never knew that no matter how hard I try just for you to notice me, you were too blind to see, all along I thought things will slowly find its way to make my dream come true, but this day I realize that not all dreams do come true. I realize that there's no way for you to love me, the way that I love you... "I love you??" oh I finally spill it out... yes I... Love you. I'm truly in love with you... and I badly need you now!

Just the thought of you leaving me tore me into million pieces. I've been in love with you even through your ups and downs, I'd stayed with you through thick and thin, just for you to get the hint, but to you I'm a friend, always there for you. Didn't you ever notice the way I look at you? I know you don't, because loving me is next to impossible, right?

But I understand... yeah I do... because of the way you looked at her, I know you're in love with her, in the sense that you would do anything for her, you don't have to deny it, I know, cause the way you stare at her is the same way I stare at you, funny ha? But between her and me, I know I've always been the second best, yeah, I am... because she's your damsel in distress and you're her knight in shining armor, and me? A dreamer with no future in sight. Hey! I'm happy for the both of you, you found each other, um, not that happy maybe a little sad for myself.

Because I was the first one that made you smile, but you know it hurts that the smile you gave to her is way too different from the smile that you gave to me. No ONE makes you smile that way like she does. But do you really want to know the reason of why I am leaving? Because I've had enough! Sorry for the selfishness, I know that you're still grieving for her death. If ever I could wash those pains away, whatever the consequences, I will do it. But you won't let me. I've had enough of you always thinking about her and ignoring me as if I don't exist at all.

If only I could turn back the time, I would gladly want to be there in her place being slash by that sword. At least it would be a great help. All the pain will vanish forever. But destiny always leads me to pains. Since childhood pain are always there 'till now, pains still haunts me. The pain of losing someone special to me. Sometimes I asked myself "Did I do something wrong?" I understand that all your life, you wanted to have someone that you can call your own. And I know she's the one.

But now that she's gone would you let me take her place? But I'm sure you wouldn't want me to. I know every night you cry yourself to sleep. But didn't you know I also cried too? TIFA LOCKHEART is crying? The optimistic, the brave, the cheerful, the energetic one is also crying... yeah every night because I lost two people in my life again. One is her, hey! She's my friend too; don't think that I hate her because she's the one that you love. I also felt the lost when she died. And number two is YOU, yes you, I lost you even before the fight has been started. I know whatever I do, whatever I give up, or sacrifice, it would only do nothing.

But don't worry, I'll be okay because I still have the memories of our childhood days, it's enough for me to move on with my own. Maybe now I know the reason why I did this, just for you to know that I'm also hurting. It's not for you to feel pity for me that was not my intention. I just want you all to know that, I also felt loneliness, sadness, & hurt, I'm not brave...I'm a coward, coward that my true feeling's will be shown. Now... There's so many "what ifs" rushing through my mind... what if I did tell you earlier that I'm in love with you, maybe I still have the chance, do I?

What if I was the one who died, would you also grieve for me the way you grieve for her?... oh, these questions unanswered because I did let the chance pass me by. But look at the bright side, I did learn lot of things right? I've learn that even though I've given you my best, still, it isn't enough. I've learned that giving up is much easier to do than holding on... holding on to impossible. And the most memorable thing that I've learn today is that the most difficult words you'll ever have to say is goodbye! Because to me, it really meant everything.

Goodbye friend, goodbye my dream, goodbye to you, my love. Maybe, if ever, someday, our paths cross again, maybe that day, I had moved on with my own life, maybe the feeling that I've had for you now will be gone, but I doubt it. Will you ever recognize me? Will you still be my friend? I hope so... and from this day I have only one favor to ask you. Please don't ever forget me...even though I don't hold a special place in your heart...please don't ever...ever forget me... And for the first and probably the last time..."I love you" I've had always love you, and will continue to love you forever...Bye! Good luck!!!

To be continued...