No one shoot me please!

I know, I know I've done you all injustice by not updating any of my stories. But you have to know how much I've been suffering with all the crap that Med school has been throwing at me...

sorry!

Give me two months, I swear I'll update everything! Pinky promise :P

Until that, hold onto this :)

UNSPOKEN

SYNOPSIS : Annabeth writes Percy letters that he'd never get to read.

Dear you,

They say people fall in love with the most unexpected person when they least expect it. Back then, it sounded absurd to me that you should be driven by feelings into something as foolish as love. I guess irony had the last laugh at me.

I fell in love. I fell hard, so hard that every bone in my body felt the jarring vibrations right through my flesh and blood. So hard that, when common sense slapped me in the face, I had the nerve to conveniently ignore it.

I fell in love with you and it was the most beautiful feeling ever. I still can't figure out how a simple crush had morphed into something that would steal my sleep and haunt my dreams. You got through to me, past the defences that I'd so carefully laid out. You annihilated my doubts, got under my skin and somehow wiggled your way into the footholds of my heart.

I fell in love with you and it was also the most painful feeling ever. It kills me to know that you'd never see me the way I look at you and that you could love me, but never be in love with me. You would wield your smile at me innocently, a smile so drenched with your old school charm and debonair presence. But do you know, how much that smile hurts me inside? It leaves me yearning and crying with pangs of pain when I realise that that curve of your lips will never be mine to claim. Oh no, I could never claim any part of you.

I fell in love with you and it was stupid of me. I knew I was diving headfirst into the river Styx, knew that the dark water would drag me down, fill my burning lungs with despair, crash my body like a rag doll against rocks and burn away every ounce of self esteem I had. And yet, I dove in. Call me an idiot, but love had me blinded.

I knew you'd never love me. I knew I was testing dangerous waters, that in the end it would all just come back to haunt me and leave me gaunt. But I fell for you anyway. I fell so hard.

And what hurts the most? You'd never know how much you mean to me, you'd never have imagined that I've instilled every second of your memory in the nooks and crannies of my heart.

You'll still grin at me the same way, hug me the same way and never know why I cling onto you longer than I should, inhaling the sweetness of your scent and why I hold you harder against me like I'm never going to let go of you. And trust me, if I could have it my way, I'll never let you go.

But then irony is a bitch and she's there taunting me, laughing and needling the fresh wounds. I'm going to have to let you go… not just physically but spiritually. You've blended with my soul, made me vulnerable and now I have to let you go because I failed to do the same to you.

It wasn't supposed to happen, you know. It was only supposed to be a few flirtatious texts, eye batting and hair curling. It wasn't supposed to venture into something that involved tears and hearts and other sensitive crap. But that's love for you.

So story of my life. I fell in love. I fell hard and I fell for you. You, who would never love me the same way. And that'll kill me, but that's alright.

I love you. I love you so much that it physically hurts me to hold all my affection for you in my tiny shell.

I love you. But I'm going to learn to veil my feelings better. You can't know how deep In trouble I am.

Sincerely,

Me.

P.S : Love is an open door? Shut it! Shut it immediately.