Thinking Out Loud
Laura POV
I feel like an idiot. They say you can't fall in love with someone you've never met before. But I don't believe it. Because if it's true there's no explanation for the way I feel. I see his pictures all the time. He is in my head all day. He is all I ever think about. I can't even get myself to think about dating boys because of him. And the most painful part about all of this, is that that he doesn't even know I exist. In my eyes, he is everything... But in his eyes I'm just another girl in the crowd and I don't want him to remember me in just another fan girl... I want him to remember me for real. For who I am. I want to have a true and real conversation with him. Talk about life and his point of view of things. I want us to have argument about things that matter. I don't wanna give him and the rest of the band a quick hug and a picture and then spend the rest of the evening standing in the front raw while my hands are holding out for him to touch. I wanna be remembered.
All of my friends laugh at me. They don't get it. I follow Ross on Twitter and Instagram and in any other social network account he has. It's pathetic. I know. I feel like I'm the most desperate person on earth. Right now I'm lying on my bed. Staring at the ceiling. I look at my guitar and made a decision. I'm gonna write a song. About him. Get my feelings out. Maybe it will help. I've been writing songs since I was 11. I gotta make this work. So I took my guitar and started playing some melody. After a while I had something so I started to write lyrics. I decided to write whatever's my heart. I wrote the first line.
It was a typical day of December
I've always like the summer though... So I continued:
Looking at my window waiting for July
It was raining. So I wrote it down as well.
It was a typical storm of winter and I had nothing on my mind
I decided to write about how my feelings towards Ross were so unexpected.
I wasn't expecting any wonder
I wasn't ready for a new life
But you hit me like a crush of thunder
And it's just so hard to pass by
Then I wrote the chorus
It was like a wave crushed into a shore
Like a tornado out of control
Like a rocket sent into outa space
Like my heart was out of its place
Like the music in my head was suddenly gone
And another just came along
Like an eclipse in a bright day
You blew my breath away
I sighed and continue writing the entire song. When I was done I was just so exhausted. I just fall asleep.
Then I woke up in the morning and got ready for school. When I walked down stairs I saw that my mom was preparing my breakfast. "Good morning, mom." I said while sitting down. "Good morning." My mom replied with a smile. Suddenly my iPhone made a ringing sound. I checked it and saw that it was a notification from the official R5 Twitter. I opened it up and read the tweet and then I just started screaming. My mom jumped and put her hand on her chest. "Dear lord! Laura! What happened?" She asked panicky. I couldn't speak. I've just figured out that R5 are doing a world tour and let us decide where they would come. I started shaking. "Wait, is this one of those R5 Family moments?" My mom asked rolling her eyes. I nodded my head enthusiastically. She chuckled and shook her had murmuring something about me being a lost cause. I could hear her laugh. There was actually a chance for me to meet them.
I started voting like crazy. I asked my friends to vote too. My best friend, Raini, she knows how badly I want this so she helped. I love her. She's awesome. And the impossible happened! They announced that they'd come to my city! I bought tickets as soon as they were available. I counted down the days. I nagged my friends all day. I was so annoying. But I didn't care. This is my chance. I have to be remembered.
Ross POV
We started our world tour. I love being on the road. Meeting fans. Doing what I love. There is no greater feeling than that. And I get to do that with my family and friends. It's literally a dream come true. We usually get to write a lot of songs on the road which is awesome and we get to have a nice time.
I meet a lot of fans. It's really awesome. I love our fans. They are the best. But, I'm feeling that.. This tour is gonna be different. I don't know how. Well, maybe I should let it start and we'll see.
Laura POV
I recorded my song and put it on a CD. I was going to give it to Ross in the Meet & Greet. I played it in my guitar. I really hope he'll hear it. I added a letter with my thoughts and my Twitter account.
Finally, the day has arrived. They are coming. I couldn't sleep the entire night. I feel like I'm gonna throw up. Help me. My mom took me to the concert and my best friend Raini came with me. For mental support. We stood in the line and waited until they'll let us in. I was SO nervous.
At last, they opened the doors. We walked in. I was the second one to meet them. I looked inside and I saw him standing there. I couldn't breath. "Hey, Laura" Raini waved her hand in front of my face. "Relax!" She said. "Take a deep breath " I tried but my lunges weren't functioning. Damn. My legs were shaking and I was about to cry. I felt pathetic. Then it was our turn.
Ross POV
We just started the Meet & Greet and the next two girls came. The first one looked nice, but the second one was stunning. She was obviously excited. She hugged Riker then Rocky then Ellington and Rydel, and finally she came to me. She looked at me for a few second and I gazed at her. "Hi" I said. She flushed and seemed a bit dizzy. She was about to fall so I caught her on the last second. I held her close to my body. "Are you ok?" I asked.
Laura POV
I can't believe this is happening! It's so embarrassing! I just fainted in front of Ross! Heaven help me! I'm in his arms. He held me to him and said something. I couldn't hear him. "What's your name?" He asked. "Amm.. La- Laura." I managed to get out. He shot a smile at me and I felt like my knees were about to give up. It's a good thing he held me. "It's nice to meet you, Laura." He said. "Are you good or do I still need to hold you?" He asked and I saw Rocky and Riker looking at us while chuckling. I flushed hard and got out of Ross's grasp. "Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry." I mumbled. "It's ok. " Ross said and winked. Why is he doing it?!
We stand for the picture and Rydel asked me if I wanted an interesting pose. The only one I could think about is Ross kissing me. Like he's read my mind Ross said:"I know." And took my hand while intertwining our fingers and kissed my cheek. This is not a usual thing. I mean... They hug you, hold your hand, but never and I mean NEVER kiss you... I was shocked of course, but I didn't push him away, because let's face it... I wanted him to kiss me.
When they took the picture I was about to leave when I remembered the CD. I gave it to Ross and said:"Please, listen to it." Ross gave me a confused look and was about to ask me something but Andrew told us to move. So we did. I looked back and I saw Ross watching me. I smiled a little, touching my cheek.
So, you guys I know it's short, it's because I want you guys to tell me whether or not I should continue this story or not. Please review and tell me what you thought!
Love you all,
Emily.