..:Pointless:..

A Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction

By: The Darkside Incarnate

Something is pointless if it was never meant to be. Argue if you want, but it's true. I am pointless…because I was never meant to exist. I am a waste of space, life, and reality. I am a Nobody. Not an outsider, not someone who's ignored.

I'm a Nobody…born from the soul of someone consumed by darkness. When the heart leaves the body, it leaves behind the soul. I am that soul…Sora's soul. His heart left him for the briefest of instances. In the blink of an eye he became a heartless. Another blink later and he's human. That's why I have no memory…because he kept his memories, even when he left the body.

Cheating bastard.

I hate him…I hate him so much. I wish he had stayed a heartless, so that I had known who I was. I would have a purpose if I knew. I would have light if I knew…I would really be more then just a silver soul.

I was all alone.

That is…until I met "them".

Yes, the organization. An elite group of nobodies, destined to collect hearts, to reach their ultimate goal. To become whole…more then an emotionless shell.

I met Axel there, a red head, who became my best friend. He was the only one that really cared about me. The others only wanted my abilities. My power to wield the key blades.

He saw more in me.

He saw a boy…when the others saw a key bearer.

He saw a person, when they saw a tool.

He could see my heart…they could only see my shell.

When they took me—Diz and Riku—to restore Sora's memories, the only person I had left was Namine'. That tender angel that guided me through the virtual world that they created. I loved her.

That's the funny thing, they say that we Nobodies have no emotions. That we kill and steal hearts and feel no guilt about it.

I feel guilt.

I feel sorrow as I watch the blood drain from their faces…as I watch their hearts drift away.

I feel rage at Sora, for leaving me all alone in this darkness.

I love Namine'.

That's what hurts the most I think…to know that I'll never see her again. To know that I'll never hold her hand…never get to experience the feeling of her lips against mine.

I want her with me.

But then…maybe that's fruitless. To want something such as love in this abyss of sorrow. Maybe it's not clear why I want her so bad.

Maybe it's just pointless.

Whatever the case…I was never meant to exist…and now I'm merging with Sora. I'm going to lose my will, I'm going to disappear.

A silent, cold death. There will be no pain, I will not scream; maybe I'll feel myself fading. Maybe I'll fall.

Aw well…wondering is pointless. After all; my fate is at the other side of the room. To reach it…I merely have to cross the threshold, and let Sora absorb me.

I'm not pointless.

I have a meaning, I have a purpose.

I have to.