not my boys, no money, no sue
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this story is inspired by another fic I read that is still haunting me long after I read it
this is a prequel of sorts
if the writer likes it and gives me permission I'll say which one
but if you're perceptive you can figure it out
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He thinks I don't notice how he looks at me
how he holds my gaze just a bit too long,
how he watches me out of the corner of his eye
when he thinks I can't tell,
how he can't look away
and I feel his eyes on me,
penetrating me,
seeing right through me
he protects me,
I once thought just from others,
but now I realize also from his own desires
he'll never ask,
so I must go to him
I know what he wants,
how he hungers for me,
I know he will use me as so many others have used him
I will give him what he wants from me,
what he desires
my body,
my purity,
my naïveté,
my innocence,
my soul
things that were robbed from him
so long ago
I don't want what he wants,
but I will give him what he needs,
what he craves
I will take his abuse,
allow him to do with me what he will
even though all I want is a brother,
a family, a friend
maybe that's what this means,
this is what brother, and family, and friend have done to him
his sacrifice was not given by choice
but I offer myself up to him
I shudder to think how others have touched him,
how I will allow him to touch me
it's not what I want,
but he matters more
this sacrifice will show him
how much he means to me
I would die for him if he asked me to,
follow him to the edge of forever,
give up everything I am,
and everything I could be
if it would bring him release
so I will allow him to violate me,
to consume me,
to penetrate me,
to take what he needs from me
I need to show him I can be his brother,
his family, his friend,
everything he'll ever need