In Case You Didn't Know…
I am not new to the fan fiction world, however, this is my first time attempting a Jamie and Eddie fan fic; as well as a Blue Bloods fanfic. Truth of the matter is I just had to. After the Season 8 finale, I was jumping up and down and was ecstatic. So many stories can stem from that one episode. I have seen You Tube videos with this song and wanted to say thank you for inspiring me to write for them. Alice Blue you rock! I may have never met you or been in contact with you but your videos have inspired me to write for these two. This story has spoilers in it of course. It will follow the season finale pretty much as it happened. I am just taking the liberty of inserting what I thought would be going through both of their minds. And also, quite frankly and a bit selfishly, what I wanted to see happen. Also, anything that is italicized is from the script of Blue Bloods verbatim and I am not taking credit for it. That was all the genius of the writers of Blue Bloods. And the song – not mine…just a song that I heard and loved the lyrics to. I will incorporate parts of the song in this chapter and subsequent chapters since this story will be multi part but thought that the name of the song would be a perfect title for this fan fic.
I don't own any of the characters of Blue Bloods nor do I want to. I just want to create stories for them in my head and share them with all of you.
My hope is that you enjoy the story. Feedback is always appreciated.
Adrenaline.
That's what was rushing through both Jamie and Eddie as they ran to the BMW. Pure adrenaline. No time to think about each other – well maybe for an instant Eddie prayed and thanked God that Jamie was running right behind her and that he was not bleeding out in the squad car – but for now she stopped those thoughts because they had work to do. No time to really ponder what was in their hearts, on their minds, in their souls. One thing was for sure for Eddie as she was running towards the car. Eddie was laser focused on ensuring that Jamie was safe and she was laser focused on making sure that scumbag behind the wheel would not shoot at Jaime ever again.
"Jaime?" she questioned as she approached the car slightly behind Jamie. She wanted to scream out at him to get away from that BMW door. She wanted to scream at him to take cover. To not approach. To not put himself in harm's way anymore. She just wanted to hug him and hold him to her and never let him go. But she couldn't. Her rational brain told her that she was a cop, not a girlfriend, not a wife, just a partner looking out for the one person she collaborated with for 8 hours of the day, sometimes more.
"He's DOA." Jamie responded. He turned to look at her briefly and then went to work. Handcuffing to the wheel the son of a bitch that shot at him and put him in danger. So many thoughts were swirling through his head but he wanted to make sure that he had the situation handled. Eddie was standing directly behind the car and he was not taking any chances with her life. He had come close to losing her not that long ago and that pain was still fresh on his mind and imprinted in his heart. He would never forget the terror he felt that day.
When he was sure the culprit was secure he turned around and looked at Eddie. "That was some shot." He uttered as he stumbled once towards her. Wanting to wrap her up in his arms and thank her not only for saving his life but for so many other reasons but he hesitated. "You saved my life." Jamie did get that sentence out. He had to. It was true. But it had so much more meaning than that simple one liner. He looked at her and there were so many emotions coursing through her and he noticed it.
"Jaime. It was like I heard a voice, I swear to God." Eddie muttered. There was no other way to explain it. It was exactly like that. Like she knew that he was in danger and she had to get to him before anything else. She ran in her mind all the people she pushed out of the way just to get to him in time at the coffee shop. She was running against the clock and all she knew in that moment was that she had to get to him. No matter who she had to mow over.
"That's called a radio." Jamie muttered. A lame attempt at a joke he knew. But this was it. It was now or never and he was at a cross roads. Either he spilled his heart out to her now or he continued as her friend and partner. And he didn't want to be only her partner and friend. He wanted so much more. Now or never.
"No. Serious. Like I knew – I knew you were in trouble even before you were. Like I was warned." Eddie continued. This was it. She thought. I love this man. Over and above everything else. Over and above the call of duty. She loved him and she didn't want to hide it anymore. She didn't want to circle around it and pretend it didn't matter or that her feelings could go away. She was done. She at least was going to admit it to herself and she was going to hug him right now. She had to. She needed to feel him close to her. Just to know that he was alive.
"Jamie." She softly said almost in a sob. She also saw him approach her and that was all the incentive she needed. She almost ran to him and embraced him as she let all her pent up emotions take over. She was never letting him go.
"I'd spend the 5 million on you." Jamie said. Making a decision right then and there. He was going for it. He was sick and tired of fighting his emotions. He felt for Eddie more than he had ever felt for anyone. He simply loved her. And he was tired of fighting it. And wrapping his arms around her felt perfect.
Eddie heard him and had to chuckle. Leave it to Jamie to tell her something like that at this moment. It was so Jamie.
I can't count the times
I almost said what's on my mind
But I didn't
Jamie and Eddie held on tighter as they heard the other squads approaching. But neither wanted to let go and neither of them were going to end the hug. It had been too long since they had hugged in this way. It had been too long wishing and hoping for a day that would bring them to this exact moment.
Just the other day
I wrote down all the things I'd say
But I couldn't
I just couldn't
Baby I know that you've been wondering
Mmm, so here goes nothing
"I'm done fighting this." Eddie heard Jamie say. "I love you."
Eddie froze and was about to respond but she hard Jamie say: "This is not the time. But I just had to tell you. I love you. I'm in love with you" He finalized as he separated from her and looked at her with such adoration that Eddie was transfixed.
"Jamie…" Eddie started but Jamie held up his hand and said: "Four guys are approaching us. We will finish this conversation after we leave here." He then let her go completely and turned to the other officers. But before he could advance towards them she inched towards him and lifted her head. "I love you too." Eddie said as she quickly squeezed his hand and let it go. Jamie closed his eyes and smiled inwardly. He knew that but hearing it out loud was music to his ears.
In case you didn't know
Baby I'm crazy 'bout you
And I would be lying if I said
That I could live this life without you
Even though I don't tell you all the time
You had my heart a long, long time ago
As they wrapped up at the scene and got into the squad car with two of the other police officers both of them looked at each other and smiled – huge grins lighting up both of their faces in the back of the detective's car. "My place or yours?" Eddie whispered silently.
"Mine is closer." Jamie said just as softly. "Leave your car at the precinct." A statement not a request from Jamie.
As they both laughed, Eddie reached out and squeezed Jamie's hand. "I know I can't touch you when we're at work. But I just had to." She said, sheepishly.
As they grabbed their jackets from behind their desks, Eddie looked at Jamie and stated: "If you're driving you better hurry up. Don't drive like a grandma."
"10-4 Officer Jenko."
As they made their way into Jamie's apartment, Jamie reached out to hold Eddie's hand and it was incredible how comfortable it felt. And how there was no awkwardness in that grip. It was almost as if that's the way it should have been for forever.
"I am not sure what's happening right now. All I know is that something shifted and I am hoping that finally we are both on the same page." Jamie said.
"And what page would that be?" Eddie asked.
"You and me. Together. Making a go at this. I mean it Eddie. I have known for a long time how I feel about you. But I was stupid and stubborn and quite frankly scared. But seeing you with that guy – I just couldn't. It killed me each and every time."
" Barry." Eddie said as she smiled.
"Whatever his name is." Jamie rolled his eyes. "I was jealous. I don't even want to mention his name."
Eddie teased him "Barry. His name is Barry."
As she saw Jamie roll his eyes she laughed and said. "I'm just kidding. You have always been the only one I wanted. Everyone else was a placeholder in the hopes that you would change your mind. I was in Jamie. Always in. I just needed you to be in."
Jamie pulled her close to him and kissed her. For all the times that he had wanted to these past years. For all the times that he had dreamed of holding her. He was kissing her because words could not do justice to the love and devotion he felt for her.
They were both done waiting. "You're mine." Jamie uttered not quite sure where this possessiveness came from. "And I am yours." He finalized. "There will be no one else for me. Ever. You're it."
"So this shorty stole your heart huh? Eddie teased as she got up on her tippy toes and pecked his lips one more time.
"About four years ago." Jamie winked.
"And yes Jamie." Eddie started. "I am yours as well. So completely yours…"
Jamie pulled her to him again and kissed her passionately. "Bedroom?" he winked.
"Oh yeah…" Eddie said, as she pulled him towards his bedroom.