Category: O/E, Olivia's POV and Elliot's POV
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I am really worried about Elliot. This case, he practically lost it at the search of the house.
Since the separation, he has been really out of it. I have been so worried about him. I take extra time with him when he struggles with a case, or a certain aspect of it.
I have never been married, so I can't say really, but if I were married to man for 20 years, had children, I wouldn't be able to walk away.
From the first day I met him, his family was everything to him. They were his sounding block, his strength, his break away from the job.
They were there for him when the going got tough, he could go home, and they would be there.
I don't know how Kathy could be so cold, so willing to throw this man away.
I wouldn't do that.
So as I watch my partner, my best friend, confront the wife of what we thought was out perp, I thought he was going to put her through the wall.
His hands were shaking, he couldn't see straight.
I saw this.
When he turned to run, that's what he did by the way was run, out of the house, I was caught in between, should I go after him? Should I let him cool off?
His attitude had been escalating since the beginning of this case. Every little detail just seemed to enrage him more.
I knew I had to keep my eye on him even more.
We had dinner together a few nights ago, he spoke to me about some of the things going on with him.
Kathy moved out, she took the kids, I knew that. She let him have the house. I don't know if that was some sort of revenge on her part or not. A laughing gesture, saying that I have the kids, and you are left with an empty shell of a family.
Now that I look back, Kathy changed, not that I could ever say anything to Elliot about it, but she blames the job, me…and probably a number of other things as well.
Elliot told me that he feels lost, well he really didn't tell me, but he did, if that makes any sense.
He doesn't like being in the house alone.
I don't blame him at all. He spoke about selling it and getting a place in the city. I will support him in whatever he chooses to do.
I find Elliot up in the crib a lot these days, I feel so bad for him. I wish there was more I could do for him.
He didn't even shave today, I noticed.
But then again I notice most of everything that this man does.
His birthday is coming up, well its tomorrow actually. I want to do something special for him, especially after this case.
God I hope it's solved before his birthday is over.
I have noticed that he has been standing closer to me lately, not that I mind, but I think he is trying to borrow strength from me. Some sort of calmness always follows.
I can't explain it really.
I really thought he was going to quit, he said he couldn't do this anymore. In that moment I was scared that I was going to lose my best friend, my partner. And in that split second, my world was going to come apart.
I guess that is how Elliot feels.
You don't know how much I just wanted to take him in my arms and comfort him that night.
I would have though.
We went back to the house, after that I went home.
I thought he was going to follow me out the door, so I went home. If I knew he was going to stay at the house, I would have either stayed, or taken him back with me.
He told me that the house is empty, that he can't stay there.
I got home showered; and changed then decided to call him. I wasn't surprised to find that he didn't answer the phone at home, so I called his cell, which was turned off. I thought he might have stayed in the crib, and I went to bed.
Went to bed, didn't sleep though.
I got up earlier then usual and went in.
I found him there; all he wanted to do was to be left alone. I can understand the feeling. He didn't know how to deal with this case on top of losing his own family.
Everything was coming down in front of this man.
God, the feeling to sit next to him and comfort him was over powering, but I couldn't do that here.
Sigh.
He wasn't feeling as he was doing any good at all. In everything, life, family, work…everything.
Before he came downstairs, I dialed Maureen's cell phone. I had an idea.
Feeling more at peace with myself, knowing that I did something that would help Elliot in the end, I got coffee for us and waited for him to come down the stairs.
We have to solve this case
Before this case solves a lot of Elliot's problems, and he quits.
He can't quit. He helps so many people.
He is a good man.
We finally catch a break, a high school kid.
Can you believe it?
I can.
There is so much I have seen, that nothing surprises me anymore.
That scares me.
The kid confessed, he copped to killing the first girl and raping the other.
Maureen and her brother and sisters came in a few minutes ago. I told them to get a cake and lots of candles for Elliot, and I would pay them for it when they got here.
I am just glad he was still in the interrogation room when they came in.
The smile on his face, I couldn't have asked for anything better.
He looked back at me with tears in his eyes.
And when Maureen told him that I called her, the look he gave me…wow.
His kids have always been nice to me, have always understood.
It's like they accept me.
Which is nice.
I wasn't sure how after everything that happened between Elliot and Kathy, that his kids would ever talk to me again.
We sat there at our desks with his kids and had cake.
Maureen eventually had to get her sisters and brother home, but promised to bring them over on the weekend to spend time with him.
She mentioned to me that her father didn't look to good. I had to tell his daughter that he wasn't good.
I felt terrible doing so, but I think Maureen needed to know.
After I cleaned up the plates from the cake, and boxed the rest of it up, I turned to see him standing behind me with this look in his eye.
"You did this for me?"
Why do I blush when he says something to me like that.
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"Cause Elliot, I am worried about you, and I wanted you to spend your birthday with your children."
"Thank you."
"Your welcome."
"I don't know what to say Liv…"
"You don't have to say anything Elliot. You are my best friend; I would do anything for you."
"Yeah."
"You going to go home?"
"Umm…"
"Elliot, please don't stay here…not tonight, it's your birthday."
"I don't have any place to go Liv."
"You are always welcome at my place…" I look up at him, pleading with him to come with me.
I don't want to be alone either.
"Yeah, I know." He replies and looks me straight in the eye, we are this close.
"Come on, let's get out of here." I say as I rest my hand over his.
PS: should I do a part 2 with Elliot's POV? Let me know what you think