Chapter 1

The wind was blowing softly that night but felt harsh against her bare arms. It was the middle of winter but all she had on were a pair of jeans, shoes and a light t-shirt. The cold seeped through her shirt and into her skin making her tremble inside, sending sharp pains through out her body. But her mind was numb to those feelings. All she could feel was the heavy pain that was in her heart. There she was, with her feet planted firmly at the edge of the cliff. Her heart was heavy and her tears steady. She wasn't aware of how long she had been there or how she even got there. All she knew was that she could no longer take the pain and guilt.

"You killed your brother." A voice whispered.

"No…. I didn't!" Tears streamed down her face.

"I would never do anything to my brother. I loved my brother?" She cried out.

"You knew something was wrong all along and did nothing." The voice continued. "Your brother is gone because of you. You're whole family blames you, his girlfriend and his friends blame you. Why can't you finally admit the truth?"

Tears still streamed down her face.

"Because I didn't." Her voice cracked as she spoke. At this point she felt weak. She seemed to have no more energy left in her to argue.

"How can I blame myself for something I didn't do?" She said faintly.

It didn't matter how many times she had said those words out loud. Deep inside she knew differently. She knew that she was to blame for her brothers death, but she just wasn't sure how. All she knew though was that her brother was gone and she was a part of the reason why. How could she let something happen to someone she loved so dearly.

"Sweetie you're in denial. How can you go through life acting like nothing happened? How could you actually live with yourself after knowing what you did? It doesn't matter how many times you tell yourself your innocent, you know it's not the truth."

She stood there steady at the edge of the cliff, at this point sobbing uncontrollably.

"Fine!!!!" She yelled out at the top of her lungs, almost making her loose her balance.

"I'm to blame!! I did it! I killed my brother! Is that what you wanted to hear?"

"Good. I'm glad you finally acknowledged your reality. So what are you going to do about it?"

She stood there motionless with her eyes closed, contemplating. It was the first time she had admitted out loud what her thoughts and heart already knew. She felt weak and light headed and for a moment felt out of her own control, as if someone had taken power over her. She began to sway back and forth and the next thing she knew she was falling forward. An arm reached across her stomach as she arched frontward, pulling her. Both fell back on the grassy cliff.

She lay there motionless.

"Lady are you ok? Hey, can you hear me?"

Her eyes were closed and she was unresponsive.

"She's out cold and her pulse is weak. Sam get the car!"