Chapter 1

BPOV

"Are you sure you're gonna be okay?"

"Yeah, baby. Go... I'll be fine."

Edward kissed me gently on the lips and smiled, "If anything happens, I'm just one phone call away okay?"

"Yes, Edward... Nothing's gonna happen, don't worry, I'll be fine." I said smiling and rubbing my small baby bump.

"Okay, sweetheart. Have a nice day." he kissed me one more time and left.

As soon as the door closed I started feeling bored and lonely. I would never confess that to Edward of course. He would just quit his job and stay here with me and that, as much as I loved having him here, is something I don't think I could handle.

Since I'm on maternity leave, I have nothing to do. And that's driving me insane. In these ten days I've been staying home I've washed and bleached every single surface of this huge house, vacuumed and mopped countless times, cooked a million different dishes that I ended up throwing away in the trash (no one would eat that much food), and spending every waking hour watching lame TV shows.

Don't take me wrong, I love taking care of my husband and I'm ecstatic about our new family member on the way, but this is so boring. My life is so boring.

There have been times when I felt blissful. Mostly after a nice, relaxing bath, using the help of my wonderful husband, or after a round of mind blowing sex (oh yeah, did I mention that this pregnancy has turned me into a horn dog...?) but apart from that, I feel useless. I just want to go back to work for a little longer, one more month wouldn't hurt. I mean, I'm only 5 months along. One more month is nothing. But of course Edward, being the thorough doctor, would never allow that.

Sometimes I feel guilty for complaining. I have everything I could have asked for. A perfect marriage with a perfect man whom I love tremendously, not to mention I'm head over heels with, a wonderful house with a nice garden and a beautiful view, a great job that I love, and I'm carrying my first baby. I live a life some people would kill for, but yet, something is missing.

Oh I know what's missing... my best friend; Jacob. We've been friends from diapers, I love him like the brother I've never had, but he doesn't love me this way. Jacob is in love with me. And he chose two days before my wedding to drop the bomb.

Yeah, it sucks, I know. Especially, when I pick up the phone to call him and suddenly I remember that I shouldn't be calling him. Because he suffers, because I got married to another man, because this is a sort of cheating on Edward, because things have turned upside down between us.

For one year now, I have lost my friend, I've lost my brother. But what can I do about it? I love Edward with every fiber of my being, and I don't want to lose him. Hell, I couldn't even risk losing him, he's my whole life. And he's oblivious to the fact that Jacob is in love with me. I can't even imagine how he would react if he found out that his friend is in love with his wife.

Yeah, Jacob and Edward are friends, and good friends for that matter. Of course Jacob revealed to me, that the only reason he befriended Edward was because he wanted to be close to me.

In the beginning I was mad. Incredibly so. I wanted to kill Jacob for never telling me the truth, and more so, for choosing to drop the bomb two days before my wedding. But now I feel empty, because I know that I've lost the comfort his arms offered me when I was sad. I've lost the right to call him funny names and make fun of him, the right to make jokes and take walks near the beach or riding his bike.

I felt a nudge from inside my belly. "Easy there, little one! You know when mommy is upset, don't you?" I said chuckling and rubbing my belly softly to calm her down. Yeah, she's a she. Edward and I found out three days ago, and we're both on cloud nine. He always wanted a daughter and I start loving the idea of a little girl with Edward's green eyes and bronze hair. I only hope she doesn't get my clumsiness. I could easily get killed just by walking on a straight surface.

My stomach growled, and this time it wasn't the baby. I was hungry, AGAIN, for the 4th time today I needed to eat something. I refused to eat something fattening, so I went for an apple. This would do for now.

After I ate my apple, I went back to the living room to watch some TV. There are moments like this that I miss Edward. We would sit together in front of the TV for countless hours, not really watching, but making comments about the TV people and commercials, or kissing and making out until there were clothes taken off. But since he became the head of the clinic his schedule is so busy, I barely see him.

When he gets home from work, I'm asleep. And when he leaves for work the next morning I'm still asleep. But it's okay, because I can still feel him next to me when I'm sleeping. I can feel his light, unconscious caresses on my belly and his content hums of happiness next to my ear as he holds me tight. That's what I love the most about Edward. He's so caring, and he shows me his love every moment of every day just like he promised on our wedding, just like he always did. With sweet words, with phone calls whenever he has a free moment, by taking care of me and make me feel loved.

The phone rang and distracted me from my deep thoughts, I recognized the ring tone, and I tapped my belly gently.

"This is daddy." I announced to my little girl. Yeah, I know it's weird that I'm talking to my belly but I'm still processing the fact that there's actually a baby in there.

I got up from the couch, which seemed to be my base lately and picked up my cell.

"Hello?"

"Hey, baby! How are you?"

"Good! Our little lady seems to be making her presence known." I said with a giddy smile, even though I knew he couldn't see me.

"Really! Did you feel her?" he said enthusiastically.

"Yeah, she's been moving around all day, and I felt several nudges."

"Nothing painful though..." he said warily.

"No, no pain at all. Edward, relax. I'm perfectly fine. How's work?" I asked changing the subject. I know how paranoid Edward could get.

"Good. The day is pretty uneventful. I've mostly been at my office. If it goes on this way, I'm gonna come home early." he said and I could hear him smiling on the phone.

"Oh, that's great. Maybe we could go somewhere for dinner. Please?" I asked almost too desperately. I wanted to get out of the house.

"Of course sweetheart. We're going out tonight. Where do you want to go?"

"To the Italian we went a month ago, remember this place? They had the most amazing Fettuccine!"

"Yeah, sure I remember Bella, I'll make reservations later, when I make sure I'm leaving early."

"Thanks babe. Now get back to work so you can come back to me." I said giggling.

"So eager to get rid of me..." he laughed "Okay baby, I'm gonna go, dad needs me in his office anyway. I'm gonna call you when I make the reservations. Love you babies." he said affectionately.

"We love you too." I said smiling. "Bye."

"Bye". And he hung up the phone.

My face broke into a goofy smile. His voice and only could work miracles to my mood, one moment I'm upset thinking about Jacob, the other I'm smiling like a fool cause I heard Edward's voice. Willitalwaysbethisway? I asked myself. God, I hope so. I feel so powerful when I'm with Edward. He makes me feel so safe and confident.

I decided to take care of my looks a little. If we were to go out I wanted to look good. I went to the master bathroom and filled the tub with hot water. I took a relaxing bath and shaved my legs, then I started working on my face, I did my eyebrows and I blow dried my hair. Then I dyed my nails and toenails and I applied a peeling mask on my face. I was sitting on the bed waiting for the mask to do its job when my phone rung.

"Hey, Ali!" I said trying not to smile too much in case the layer of the mask broke.

"Hey Bells. What's up?" she asked with her always exuberant voice.

"Nothing really, I'm just taking care of myself a little bit. Actually you should be proud of me. At the moment, I'm wearing a peeling mask and I have already done my eyebrows and my nails."

"Wow, I'm impressed! What's the occasion Bella?" she said sounding suspicious.

"Well nothing really, Edward will be home early today and he's taking me out for dinner. So I decided to do something, in order to look at least decent."

"Oh Bells, that's so romantic. I always admired my brother for his romantic skills, I wish Jazz would be a little more like him. Not that I'm complaining. Jasper is amazing." she said with a smile in her voice. She is deeply in love just like me.

"Hey I have an idea. Why don't you guys join us, it could be a double date! What do you think?"

"I don't know Bells, maybe Edward wants to be just the two of you tonight. I wouldn't want to ruin your date."

"Oh don't be silly Al, I'm sure he'll be fine with that. Besides, if he wants to get some romance, we could always go somewhere on our own after dinner." I said encouragingly "Tell you what? Talk to Jasper, I'll talk to Edward and I'll call you back. Okay?"

"Sure Bells, thanks for the invitation. This will be fun, where are we going?"

"There's this Italian restaurant we discovered a month ago. It has amazing food Ali, you'll love it."

"It sounds great Bells, I'll tell Jasper, he loves Italian."

"Good. I'm gonna call Edward. Bye-bye Ali… see you tonight."

"Bye Bell, see ya!"

I hung up and dialed Edward's number.

"Dr Cullen."

"Hey, Dr Cullen." I purred.

"Why hello to you too. Who is it please?"

"Someone who wants to see you as soon as possible, cause she's desperate for you to make love to her." I purred.

He drew a deep breath. "Well, I must inform you that I'm happily married with a beautiful woman and a child on the way miss. So I'd have to disappoint you I'm afraid." he said playing along.

"Oh that's too bad. However, I think that your wife is the luckiest woman in the world." I said softly.

"Do you really believe that?" he asked seriously now.

"Of course baby, you're everything I could ever wish for." I said smiling but a little surprised from the change in his voice.

"I try my best Bella. I want you to be happy."

"I am happy baby. I've been happy since the moment I met you."

"Well, Mrs Cullen, that's good to know." he said with a smile in his voice.

"So, you never called me back, I want to know what's the plan for tonight." I said cheerfully.

"Well I'll be home in like 3 hours honey." he answered.

"Great!" I said enthusiastically "Did you make reservations?"

"No not yet, I was about to do that, when you called me."

"Good, cause I need you to book a table for four. Jasper and Alice are joining us. Is it okay with you?" I asked.

"Well, I was hoping it would be just the two of us tonight, but it's okay baby, some other time." he said a little disappointed.

"Aw baby, don't worry, I have many plans for when we get home." I said, trying to fix his mood. I didn't have any plans but I could always improvise.

"Well that gives me strength to deal with the dinner night with my crazy baby sister." he said jokingly.

"Oh shut it, Alice is great." I protested playfully.

"Well as a friend she's great I agree, but when you have this little monster as a sister, it's a nightmare." he continued.

"Agreed, Alice is very… energetic." I laughed.

"Yes, that she is." he said.

"Okay baby, I'm hanging up, I'm gonna try and get some sleep after I remove this peeling mask."

He chuckled. "Good honey, I'll see you in a while."

"Can't wait to see you. I love you." I said softly.

"I love you too, baby. Have a good rest."

"Thanks, bye."

After hanging up, I went to the bathroom to wash off this terrible stuff I put on my face, when I got out of the bathroom, my phone chirped on my nightstand informing me that I have a text message.

I flipped it open and it was from Edward.

Just made reservations. 9 o' clock. I'll be home around five. Tub filled with hot water appreciated. My wife naked in said tub highly appreciated. ;) I love you. -Hubby.

I smiled at his eagerness and texted him back.

Your wish is my command, husband! ;) I'll see you later. Take care. I love you. -Wifey.

After that, I texted Alice to inform her about tonight, and then I decided to sit on the bed and relax for a while. I put Tchaikovsky on the sound system, and the mild sound relaxed me almost instantly. I laid down on the bed rubbing my belly gently.

"Bells…sweetheart wake up…" I felt a tap on my shoulder "baby, I'm home… wake up, you fell asleep." I opened my eyes slowly and Edward was above me, grinning.

"Hey…"I said groggily… "you're home early."

Edward chuckled and kissed my forehead gently. "Baby, it's 5:30 in the afternoon, you've obviously been sleeping since we hung up the phone."

"Oh, sorry… let me go make you something to eat, you must be famished." I said and tried to get up but Edward held me down.

"No baby, it's okay, I made something myself, don't worry. Just relax. How was your day?"

How the hell did I ever get so lucky? I asked myself, grinning at Edward.

"Better. Now that you're home. Now come here." I said while pulling him down to me to kiss him.

"Wow, someone missed me." he said after pulling away.

"You have no idea, baby." I told him out of breath and kissed him again.

"You're insatiable Mrs Cullen." He smiled against my lips.

"It's you we're talking about Mr Cullen…" I told him matter-of-factly "you're steaming hot, and god damned gorgeous, how could I not be insatiable?" I rolled on top of him.

"Hey there beautiful, watch out, you're probably pushing the baby." he said smiling and looking down at my belly.

Way to kill the mood Mr. Smarty Pants!

"Oh, she's fine…" I answered "don't you want me?" I asked with a pout.

"Of course I do baby, you know that." he answered looking into my eyes.

"Well showing it a little bit wouldn't hurt, you know!" I suddenly felt pissed and got up quickly.

"Hey, hey… what's wrong, love." Edward got up too and came to my side stroking my shoulders and my back.

I quickly pulled away from him "Nothing." I said and left the room.

I went down the stairs and he followed me. "Baby, I'm sorry if I said something wrong." he cried. "Bella, wait love." he said grabbing my arm gently to stop me.

"I'm sorry." He told me looking down.

And all the anger went away just like that. Stupid hormones.

My glare softened, and I stroked his cheek turning his face softly to look at me. "No, I'm sorry. I'm just hormonal, you did nothing wrong." I told him and then I leaned forward and kissed him gently. "Damn hormones can drive me crazy." I said with an embarrassed smile.

"Oh it's okay…" he gave me his crooked smile "I know how to handle you." he smirked and gave me a chaste kiss.

"That you do, Doctor." I chuckled.

I didn't manage to finish my sentence when he grabbed me and pulled me into a searing kiss that led us to the bedroom. He threw me on our bed gently and got on top of me.

"Now who's insatiable?" I tried to joke but his kisses on my neck made it hard for me to focus so it came out as a whimper.

He held me gently and kissed every spot of my body. He was always like that. Always taking care of my needs, he knew exactly what to do to drive me crazy. Wanting more than just his kisses, my hands roamed on his body and reached his belt.

I unbuckled it and undid his pants quickly.

He kicked them off, and at the same time he unclasped my bra and took it off. He started working on my breasts and I moaned loudly when he took my sensitive nipple into his mouth.

"Oh Edward" I half whispered half moaned. I didn't know why I whispered, we were alone in the house, but it seems that I kept that habit from when I was still living with my parents and me and Edward were having our moments in my old bedroom.

He went further down but I didn't let him, I couldn't take it any longer I wanted him inside of me. I brought my hands to his face and looked at him "Baby, I need you." I told him almost too desperately, and if possible his eyes grew even darker.

He got on top of me and helped me remove my panties and then he took off his boxers. The moment he entered me I moaned loudly without even caring. Sex during pregnancy is something else I tell you. It feels a thousand times better than regular sex.

After a few thrusts I couldn't hold back and I climaxed. Of course Edward didn't mind that… he continued his ministrations and with his magical fingers he started rubbing my clit. I moaned and yelled furiously, screaming his name, while he moaned mine as well and I climaxed for the second time when I felt him exploding inside of me. He collapsed on top of me, exhausted, and we were both breathing heavily. After a few seconds he rolled to the side and I instantly felt empty. Of course he didn't leave me like that. He wrapped his arms around me taking me into a warm and sweet embrace and he started whispering sweet words in my ear.

"You know, I don't know if it's the same for you, but having sex when I'm pregnant is the best thing." I told him after I caught my breath.

"Well, what can I say, the fact that you're always in the mood and you always want it rough, alone, is enough to make it all the better baby." he said smiling.

"Enjoy it while you can Dr. Cullen." I chuckled.

After our love making session, we laid there for a while, completely spent and sated, our limbs intertwined and our breath coming out in small pants.