Dark And Twisty

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Chapter 1

Was it the second bottle? Or the third? Meredith had no idea but continued to drink anyway. The tequila burned her throat as it went down, she welcomed the familiar sensation. Lying next to her was Cristina, drunk. And apparently sleeping. She was still in her corset, how she could sleep in that thing amazed Meredith. Then again almost anything would amaze her in her state.

As soon as the bottle emptied she tried to get up and get another. She slipped and fell on top of Cristina, who continued to sleep. Frustrated she crawled to the cabinet so she can devour the next bottle of tequila. She opened the maple door to find it empty. Meredith slammed the door.

"Cristina!" Meredith shouted as she crawled towards her friend who forgot to stock up on the booze.

"Cristina!!!!" Meredith tried to shake her, but fell on top instead.

Cristina stirred,"What?!"

"Where's the booooze?" she asked.

She looked around at Meredith and at the empty bottles,"Think."

"Its not there," she whined rolling over so she's off of Cristina.

"Then go to Joe's."

Meredith beamed,"Good idea!"

She got up and wobbled towards the door. Too bad it took one step and she fell on her face,"Ow..."

Cristina laughed at her pathetic display. She stopped and remembered what happened just hours before,"Mer, our lives are so fucked up."

"Ahmen to that," she chucked. Her chuckle turned into hic-ups. Her hic-ups into sobs.

Cristina rolled her eyes,"You weren't the one left at the alter."

"I'm still alone!" she said between sobs.

"Oh come on! You broke it off with him!" Cristina was in shock how whenever something happened to her it was still about Meredith.

"I-I-I he said t-t-to-to," she took a big shaky breath in,"Take him out of h-h-h-his-his mi-mi-misery."

"Come on Grey. The guy's all over you!"

"He hates me!" her sobs became louder,"He broke me," she whimpered.

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"Its over. So over..."

The last words he heard her hear. It was obvious she wasn't talking about the wedding either. Meredith ended it. Why did she end it? Everything was going so good so far... Then the 'accident'. She knows how to swim! She shouldn't have sunk. What happed to his Meredith? She became, dark and twisty again. Sometimes he wished that everything would be like it was the first month they got together. Before Meredith found out about Addison. Before Finn. Before the accident. When Meredith, was... Meredith.

"Hey," it was girl from yesterday. The girl at the bar,"You're here, again."

Derek nodded slowly whipping away the tears so she wouldn't see.

"Do you come here often?" she smiled thinking she had a shot.

He shook his head no.

"Oh... Do you want a drink?" the girl obviously couldn't take a hint.

Derek raised his malted beer slowly telling her the obvious.

"Hey how 'bout you come to my place? You know, hang out. Or talk," she put her arm on his.

He just looked at her coldly,"I can't."

"Oh," she looked down disappointed,"Well, maybe later?"

Derek grunted again as she continued to talk mindlessly about random things. He needed to see Meredith to touch her. Her hand was still on her arm. He just looked at her wishing she could leave, to just leave him alone.

"Oh, yeah, by the way I'm Lexie Grey."

Derek's eyes widened. Grey... Grey! Thatcher's daughter! Oh god,"I gotta go."

As Derek stood up Lexie said,"Do you think you can drive? I'll give you a ride and you can crash at my place."

Derek looked at Joe for help but he just shook his head no and mouthed,"No way! Say no!"

Derek just looked at her and brushed her arm off and walked out. He needed Meredith. Just to see her. She's his everything. He gave everything up for her; his dream job, his wife, his heart. But she still left. He knew she deserved more, better but he couldn't help he was in love with her. He needed her.

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