Even before, I knew that you blamed me. You never said it and you never showed it, not when I was crying in my sleep from night terrors and you sat there all night holding me. Not when you enlisted to join and I joined too. No, you never showed it to me

But I always knew.

I knew when you thought I wasn't looking. The looks you would give me behind my back, the hatred clear in your eyes. I couldn't save her. I know that. I was a coward, I was scared. I didn't know what to do and everyone was telling me to run. I know you blame me for that and I am sorry.

But you didn't see what I saw . You didn't get to see any of it. You were being pushed the opposite direction, grabbed by fearful hands and pulled away from the scene before you. You were small, smaller than the crowd that led you away. That's not your fault...

But I saw. I saw all of it.

I saw the relief in her eyes when she saw that her sister was finally there to save her. The confusion as the things huge hand grasped her and pulled her away from the ground. Away from me. The pain as it squeezed her so hard, I could hear her bones cracking through all the panic and screaming. The sadness when she realized, big sister can't help her this time. Big sister wasn't a hero. Big sister, you left me. Why?

….

She didn't have the chance to be eaten whole. No, that would have been too gracious in this cruel, cruel world. It tore her, peice by peice. I'm sure she felt none of it..but I did. You did. And just like that, she was gone. Just another human lost in the devastation. Another nameless, faceless human, gone. She means nothing to the world anymore. Vanished into the wind.

It smiled at me as it mutilated the body that we once loved.

You hate me. I know, I do too. If there was any way I could stop time, take her place and start it back again...there's no doubt about it, I would.

It will take some time before you realize. There was nothing I could have done to change this.

I was a coward, I was scared. I ran.

I'm sorry…

You said you were going interior. Being closer the King would allow you to, maybe, get him to listen. Maybe you could get high enough to talk to King on a regular basis. And maybe you could try and talk him into changing his ways. For the Sake of Humanity

You were never good at lying.

We are one in the same, you and I. I was a coward, you are one. Look me in the eye and lie to me. You're scared, just like I was.

What was the old proverb mother would constantly tell us. I'm sure you remember it. 'Fear is only as deep as the mind allows.' I never understood what that meant, not until now. I'm not going to be scared anymore. I'm not going to allow them to win, I'm not going to let them cage us in here like prey, terror-stricken and awaiting our own demise. No...they've won too many battles…

But they did not win the war.

If you didn't hate me before, you will now. I'm sure you already suspected, so I am going to answer all of your suspicions right here, right now.

I'm joining the Recon Corps.

I'm going to die for Humanity, I'm going to die for her. I'm going to die for you. I'm not going to wait behind some wall, pretending that I am making an impact on the world. I'm actually going to do something!

….

I'm sorry. You're scared. That's okay.

You know, that day, I remember something she said. Right before we left. I don't know if you do, or if you even heard. But I do.

She said…

" I love both of you so much. We're going to stay together for the rest of our lives, right? No matter what, even when we're angry at eachother. Nothing will separate us!"

Oh...if she saw us now. Would she be proud?

….

It's okay. I forgive you.

Goodbye...

Hello! This is my first SNK story and I uhh...yeah I think I actually like it. Anyway, I hope you enjoy and I hope I am able to write more chapter.

This might be a LeviX OC idk we'll see where it goes when it gets there. ...(It probably won't)