Summary: Hinata briefly reflects on her life is, and who she is. Unable to stand it any longer, she decides to do something about it. / Warning – contains character death / suicide and some swearing. Rated M to be safe.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hinata or any other Naruto characters. They belong to someone who isn't me.
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"Hey bug-freak, hurry up and get your ass over here! Me and Akamaru wanna spar," Kiba yelled. Not waiting for a response, he commenced his assault on the bug-nin, both physically as well as verbally. The punches and kicks Shino could handle, but the insults looked like they hurt. I felt bad from him as I sat and watched from the sidelines. Some people had it worse though. While he hears an insult, I don't get even the faintest thought. I'm Hinata Hyuga, someone to be overlooked, someone to ignore. I'm nothing.
Me, I always train alone. I never get asked to spar. To Kiba, I'm nothing but a delicate little girl he wouldn't want to break. I hate when he says that; not that I've ever been able to prove him wrong. To Shino, I'm not worth his time. He never says so out loud, but it's obvious he thinks it. Anytime I offer to train with him, he rejects with a polite "no thank you." I'm no use in training; no help even in actual missions. I'm no help at all. I'm nothing.
My social life is no better. I have basically no friends. Apparently being shy and never talking won't make you very popular. The damn stutter doesn't help much either. Then there's Naruto. I've loved and admired for as long as I can remember. I was always too timid to confess my love for him, until just recently. I finally told him how I felt. It was such a relief to finally get that off my chest. He didn't feel the same way though. He slightly edged away, and started to respond with a, "Sorry, but I . . ." He was cut off by Sakura, who upon arrival, decided to drag him into a long deep kiss. "Hey Hinata, guess who finally say yes to this idiot," she said after coming up for air. "I . . . I'm s-so happy . . . f-for you t-two," I lied. I was crushed. Looking to Naruto, I saw he was blissfully out of it from their previous kiss. It dawned on me that I'd never be able to make him that happy. I just turned around and left. I've avoided him ever since. I realized then that to Naruto, I'm no one. To him, I'm nothing.
As I sit here, I hear father yelling at Hanabi again. At this point that's basically all her training consists of. He gave up on me long ago. All my progress was compared to my cousin Neji's. He's a gifted genius, and I'm obviously not. There was no way I could ever meet their expectations. So father simply gave up on me and focused all his time on Hanabi. On top of that, those forced competitions only enraged Neji. He doesn't understand how the stronger of us if forced into the branch family. Honestly, I don't understand it either. Luckily he doesn't hurt me if I stay away from him. He has no right to blame me for what this fucked up clan does; I suffer just as much as he does. I hate him. I hate this whole clan. To them I'm just a failure. To them, I'm nothing.
Nothing is ever going to change. I'm nothing and I can't ever change that. This pain is never going to end. I want to end this. I need to end this. My death will mean nothing. To everyone around, I'm nothing. These pills or this gun won't ever change that. But, they can end the pain. My death will barely even be noticed. After all, I'm nothing.
A/N: So, this is my first fanfic, and it probably sucks. Also a bit depressing, I know. Oh well. Please leave a review and let me know what you think.